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Introduce Yourself! v.2.0

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Hello everyone, long time drug forum lurker, I used to post regularily at EDIT (for any heads that remember) but since they shut the forums I've just browsed.
Never thought I'd be posting in this section but ah well, things change eh.

I'm desperately trying to get off of opiates, in fact I'm about to make a diary/thread about it now - hopefully I can stick to it this time!!

Anyway I'm sure I'll talk to plenty of you throughout the coming weeks/months, here's to getting clean!
 
Hi Vader (there is another BLer called that, haha, but your name is too long not to abbreviate ;) ) seen you about BDD but welcome to TDS! :) <3

That's awesome news about the liver! Sorry you are still in so much pain though :( you will find a lot of help and support here I think... and it's wonderful that you want to help others too! :)
 
Vader, that is quite a story. I agree that everyone here can use all the empathy and support they can get--that's the beauty of TDS--no matter where anyone is in their own struggle, the outpouring of true caring is phenomenal. I really think it helps the giver as much as the receiver so we all benefit. Welcome!<3

Nodding, I am so glad you are here for the purpose of starting a support thread for yourself. Again, that is one of the most powerful aspects of TDS to me and I hope that it really helps you. You sound determined so you have your foot in the door and pointed in the right direction.I will be checking in with you as you post.<3
 
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Hi Vader (there is another BLer called that, haha, but your name is too long not to abbreviate ) seen you about BDD but welcome to TDS!

That's awesome news about the liver! Sorry you are still in so much pain though you will find a lot of help and support here I think... and it's wonderful that you want to help others too!
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Thank you effie! Actually, I've corresponded with Vader before in other threads! I thought it necessary for the two of us to become friends, you know, being Dark Lords of the Sith and all, although it defies Darth Bane's Infamous Rule of Two.. Oh well, friendship is more important on BL!

Yea, I was starting out in BDD because my experience seemed to allow me to help out and offer advice in a few of the posts there, I kinda felt immediately at home! It was quite nice. Everyone on this site is very receptive! (well, there are a few exceptions..but it's true for the most part)

And thank you! Actually the past two days I've even experiencing more pain than usual, it's kinda worrying me. Im gonna see how the weekend goes and then call the Doc on Monday if nothing's changed. But hopefully it will subside and go back to "normal".

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Vader, that is quite a story. I agree that everyone here can use all the empathy and support they can get--that's the beauty of TDS--no matter where anyone is in their own struggle, the outpouring of true caring is phenomenal. I really think it helps the giver as much as the receiver so we all benefit. Welcome!<3
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Herbavore, thank you as well! Unfortunately, it is a true story, no lies :/ not that you were implying anything like that, but sometimes it's even hard for me to believe how much I actually went through, it has gone by relatively fast, being the one year mark and all..

But if it's anything that helped, it's definitely the sympathy and encouragement from others, especially strangers. That's why I wish to "Pay it Forward" a little, give back, maybe I can help someone as they have helped me! :)

I totally agree, both sides can benefit from caring for one another! Totally!

Thanks everyone! <3
 
Okay, so I am a little late with my introduction, but it's here nonetheless. I'm Vanessa, I'm 21 years of age and no stranger to the depths of despair one can sink to. The first ten years of my life were really great, I couldn't have asked for better parents or a better sister. My dad was a functional heroin addict and my rock and my mom was the life of the party. But, then things changed.

My mom became a born-again Christian and wanted nothing to do with my substance abusing father. But, despite my father's utter and undying love for my mother, he couldn't kick heroin in time to save their marriage. The divorce set in motion a succession of poor decisions and negative emotions that went on to set the tone for what turned out to be a very ruthless and outrageously expensive five year legal battle. We lost everything. Somewhere in the midst of moving (17 times over 21 years) and early morning war-zones I developed a severe case of anorexia nervosa, and at 14 what would go on to be a merciless seven year cocaine addiction and a sort of familiarity with rehab's and restrooms that no adolescent should have to experience.

The years that followed were condemned to a similar fate of drugs and doctors and diagnoses and ultimately, despair. I became so familiar with the DSM-IV that I applied to university for psychology, not because I was overly ambitious or anything but, because I had personal experience with a fair share of the manual. I later went on to add another major to my degree (Chemistry) to pacify my obsession with chemicals in a less harmful and more constructive manner. I thought university would save me from myself. I thought it would get me out of that house, that it would get me excited about leading a normal and sober life, meeting productive friends and developing stable relationships and memories that would last a life time. I got one thing right, the past four years are certainly filled with memories that I will never forget, but, not in the way that I imagined. Several diagnoses, detoxification centres and near-death experiences later I began to realise that I may in fact, have a problem. By that time I was declared medically unfit as a result of my pervasive eating disorders, I was struggling with an acute case of (IV) heroin and methamphetamine addiction and I was put on suicide-watch almost every other day that I wasn't locked up in some psychiatric ward or locked down in some holding cell in the city. "Call 911" and "Call a lawyer" became the two most overused phrases in my life. "Happiness" became only a distant-dream, something longed for, but never attained. Sometime later, bringing me into this year and my last and final stretch of my undergraduate studies, I still find myself in that very same place, with happiness as always something just quite out of reach.
 
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Warm welcomes andghosts :)
was reading ur therad portrait of an alchoholic in here before, quite awesome stuff as i mentioned there. Look foward to seing you around<3
 
Hello darkside "nice to meeteveryone" my name is Kayla and I'm new to the dark side (obviously :) )

I'm here to meet new people and try to learn from others and help others in need.
I have been clean since 11-1-11 and I am currently on suboxone(wishing I didn't need Hoping to make some cool friends and I'll be here for whoever needs my help :)
 
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Welcomes KAYLA2010 :)
congratas on stayin clean for this time an excelent effort, theres much support here i hope you find ur time here helpfull and personaly growthfull<3
 
^^-- Thank you. :) I used to spend a lot of time in ADD but now migrating over here. So far I love it. This forum look great and has so many people helping each other I love it. :)
 
Hello, all. I am not certain what to say, as nothing seems adequate, but I wanted to greet you all.

I think TDS is going to be a place I will habit more frequently, not only for vain reasons (such as venting if needed, and reminding myself what could happen if I am not careful) but also to try and give support to those who need it. Despite all of my issues and problems, I am a bleeding heart, and my soul weeps for those in pain; I know how it is, how devastatingly cruel it can be to live a life full of despair, and I hate to see anyone else going through it. So, I'll do whatever I can to help the wonderful people who are a part of this site. At the very least, I hope to help others know they are not alone.

And, maybe after giving as much as I can, I'll let my selfishness reign for a moment so that I may also get things off my chest. I am not in desperate need of it right now, though, so I will let my issues take a back seat to others' for the time being. Plus, I suppose it's still a selfish thing to do, since helping others makes me feel a bit better myself... I hope you'll all forgive my greed.
 
Welcome SinisterMuffin:D

From ur first paragraph, it comes across that you have a very caring persona and a wonderfull heart. I hope that you find having a place like here to vent/help or whatever, brings you comfort and whatever else it is that you seek<3
 
Hey Kayla! Already said hi in BDD but welcome to TDS too :) <3

Huge congrats on getting clean! Let me know what you want me to do with your anxiety thread :) There is an anxiety megathread in our directory too, which is in my signature or stickied at the top of the forum. I would link it but it's hard on this netbook, sorry! Anyway lovely to have you here <3

Pokerboy sorry I missed that - I'm from the UK too, feel free to pm me if you have any queries, and welcome to TDS :) <3 Hope all is well now..

Hey SinisterMuffin, welcome to TDS! Wonderful to have you here :) <3

It's always amazing when someone who is hurting themselves comes along offering to help others here. Hopefully you will love TDS and find that helping others helps you too. And please, feel free to be selfish for a while when you need it - that's what we are here for :)

ps love your avatar :D
 
Hi All -- my (real) name is Tim, and have gone through several "Dark Night of the Soul" periods in my time, and have come out the other side with a positive attitude toward life (it just happened somehow at some point) and a lot of insight on dealing with human issues like aloneness, loss, fear, death and stuff like that. Would love to do more contributing here and plan on doing so. Peace!
 
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um.. hi
my name's athena
i used the name GracieAndToot because they r my favorite couple in the movie Once Were Warriors.
um...
i'll post more later about myself..
i don't talk much.. too shy(:
 
Hi athena, welcome to BL and TDS! :) <3

Don't worry about being shy, we're a friendly bunch in here but you don't have to say anything if you don't want to :) There are a few social threads in here (the social obv, the pictures thread etc) if you want to just get to know your fellow darksiders, or feel free to look around at the other threads/start one yourself if you like of course :)

If you need any help don't hesitate to ask myself or one of the other mods <3
 
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