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Introduce Yourself! v.2.0

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GracieAndToot said:
um.. hi
my name's athena
i used the name GracieAndToot because they r my favorite couple in the movie Once Were Warriors.
um...
i'll post more later about myself..
i don't talk much.. too shy(:
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Welcome to TDS Athena, and nice reference to one of my favourite movies ever. :)
 
Hi guys. I think I may be one of the oldest here. I'm a 53 yo Aussie, just became a grandmother for the first time, hence the name n@nn@. I'm still getting my head around it as I still only feel 30 something. Anyway, I've had panic disorder for about 17 years and good old depression decided to rear its ugly head mid last year just to keep me on my toes. I've had days where I'm elated beyond belief one minute then two seconds later I'm sitting in my wardrobe blubbering like a baby. No-one can hear me in there and it's nice and dark. When I started thinking it would be nicer if I could just sleep forever I went to the doctor pronto. So after trying several different meds I'm now on Zoloft and carry my trusty Xanax with me everywhere. Still have panic attacks, usually in crowded places but not as often as I once did.

This site is amazing and it is something I would have loved to have had access to all those years ago. Having panic attacks and not knowing you are, AND not feeling you can tell anyone, causes 1000 times more anxiety. Looks like I'm not alone.
 
Hello n@nn@ your deffinetly in the right place glad you found your way to us.its very nice to meet you and glad to have you here. There are lots of nice people to help you here. When your in need just ask and someone will be here for you. :)

I to suffer from anxiety so i understand your feelings. Hugs ❤ :) to you!!!
 
Hi n@nn@, I'm grandma age but not a grandmother. Congratulations!

I'm so glad you found this site. The Anxiety Megathread might be helpful to you. Feel free to PM me or any of the other mods if you have any questions.:)

<3
 
Thank you so much herbavore :) I honestly dont know how I survived the earlier panic years, it was hell. I have visited the Anxiety Megathread, I can't believe how many poor souls are suffering as I did.

Quite glad too that there are fellow grandma aged members :)
 
Hi and welcome to The Dark Side n@nn@, from another fellow Aussie! :) You are definitely not alone and I am very glad for you that you've found this forum. I hope you continue to get relief from your anxiety and depression <3 Just out of curiosity (and you totally don't have to answer either of these questions if you're not comfortable doing so), which area of Australia are you from? And have you ever had any counselling/therapy for your anxiety/depression?
(I'm from Sydney by the way :))
 
Thanks for the welcome :) I'm in Newcastle and yes I have a counsellor who I saw for a year straight and can visit anytime I feel the need. She actually helped me a lot. At the moment I don't think I could even explain my anxiety/depression to her not when I can't explain it to myself. I'm not at my worst right now, the new baby in the family gives me a natural high and a feeling of peace, but it doesn't take much to drag me down so I'm very careful who I let into my life and the situations I put myself in.
 
That is so great to hear you've got a good counsellor, it really makes a big difference doesn't it. I've just found a good therapist myself. Oh and I forgot to say congrats on the birth of your grandchild!! So exciting :) A boy or a girl?
 
Hi grace would love to here more from you :) <3 love ur way and i have shyness and anxiety so inknow how you feel when if first joined u was very shy to post but now i post all the time lol :)
 
n3ophy7e said:
That is so great to hear you've got a good counsellor, it really makes a big difference doesn't it. I've just found a good therapist myself. Oh and I forgot to say congrats on the birth of your grandchild!! So exciting :) A boy or a girl?
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A boy, and the most adorable baby, sooo cute :)
 
^^ Wonderful!! I have 3 baby nephews myself, they are all awesome :) <3 I am about to get my first neice though, in May!! So exciting. How lovely are babies! =D
 
Im back at Bluelight after a 4 year break.
Since mid January im completely off all kinds of drugs and for the first time in my 32 year life i feel ready to take on this battle with myself. I've been on everything in periods but lately mainly benzo, booze and opiates.

Ive been high on n off for half my lifetime. Trying to avoid my own company. But ive chosen to try and face love, sanity and start appreciating life for what it is. Looking at the small stuff rather than having to force on earth shattering emotions and euphorias. There is only so much energy in one body and i want mine to last till im FUCking 100! For sure, that's how strong i feel some days. Others.. i just want to sleep and sleep.

TDS has always felt like a second home, ever since i first signed up around 2002. After trying to get my head around my self harm issues.

Happy to be back ;)
 
my worst enemy, you may have to change your name to my best friend! That is an awesome introduction and I am so happy to hear 1) that you have made such positive changes for yourself and 2) that you are back on BL and posting again, especially here in TDS. We need to hear from people that are doing well--how you did it, what you do to keep it going and what it is like for you in general. I hope to see/read lots from you. Once again, welcome!<3

P.S. I love what you said about the small things. They really do turn out to be the big things IMO.
 
Hello, I'm the peacekeeper and I am a heroin addict. I have been struggling with trying to quit over the course of the last year. I am completely tired of the lifestyle and all of the damage it has caused in my life. Today (technically) will be my first day of detox, and I'm nervous as hell. I have suboxone, so that's a good thing. I heard of bluelight from some friends/the internet, and I've heard it's an awesome place. So far, I'd have to agree. I think this site will be a huge aid on the road to recovery for me. I hope by learning about other peoples' experiences and obtaining valid information, I will be able to get on the straight and narrow for good.

Every journey begins with a single step.
 
Hi peacekeeper, welcome to The Dark Side :)
I am so happy to hear you're ready to detox, and I sincerely wish you all the very best with it. If ever you need any support or have any questions, please reach out to us. There are a LOT of people right here in TDS who have been through exactly what you're currently going through. You're not alone, and you CAN do this!! <3
 
Hi peacekeeper,

I just wanted to chime in a welcome as well! Also, don't hesitate to PM any of us anytime if you have questions or need extra support. (You can PM moderators all you want as a greenlighter.)<3
 
Hi Guyz, my name E-life(you'll know why soon), I'm 18-19 soon, I got (Severe)Chronic Depressions (sorry for my english i'm French Canadian), I'm a MDMA and pot addict (pot since i'm 15 and MD since 17), it's been a couple months that I've been clean From X but can't stop smoking. Already had some other "Dark side" issue like self harm and some Alchool problem (went to hospital 2 time once i almost lost my hand and the other time almost died)I'm a new member since like 2 dayz and just wanted to say that this forum is probably one of the best thing i've came across in the last time...
 
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