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Introduce Yourself! v.2.0

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Hey, Welcome! I hope that TDS can serve as a place for you to get support through your move, the adjustment to moving in with relatives and the WDs. Would it be possible for you to see a therapist or psychologist when you get there? It might help you to have a place to work out some of the non-drug issues.<3
 
^ i hope so, i would take it one step further and say psychiatrist. i have been considering getting back on anti depressants. and they could prescribe something to help the WD. his mom paid for me to see their general practitioner once before, so that may help for getting meds, but i don't know if she would/could come out of pocket for me to see a shrink! i don't have insurance.

i am really hoping a change of scenery will help. not to mention, i won't know anyone there. my bf has "connections" there, but he tends to have more self control than me.

i was thinking of starting running again too. i messed my knee up years ago and think it is finally okay to start again. it always helped a lot. i always get addicted to the running, to the point it replaces other impulses. just hope the knee can handle it! still hurts *sometimes*.
 
Hello All,
I am Karen Keller and wanted to introduce myself. I have been a CP / anxiety patient for many years now. My main meds are hydro, soma and xanax. The soma thing is just killing me - the "thing" being that it is so hard to get. <no sourcing> I am so tired of it. There has got to be a way to nake it or some similar natural product.
Thanks for listening.
Karen
 
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Hi and welcome to TDS. Please read the guidelines in your Bluelight user agreement about not asking for sources for drugs.
 
sup guys i'm Jones and have been around here for a minute but wanted to re-introduce myself through this dark side thread

been a heroin addict for 3 years or so and am 24 years old... but with the help of kratom I am finally seeing light at the end of the tunnel and really think I can beat this thing this time :)
 
Haha :)
Anyway, feel free to PM me any time if you need to talk or vent to someone or whatever about the WD :)
 
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Hi guys I'm a 21yo female heroin addict. I suffer from PTSD with episodes of depression with depersonalization and derealization. Also I self harm. I've been heavily using drugs and drinking for 6 years since my 'traumatic experience'. I can quit heroin, I just don't. I'd rather feel numb than feel sober and depressed.
Over these years I have been jumping from different andepressants and anti-psychotics. Nothing seems to help as well as the drugs I use to self medicate. Only on the short term though. I've been scared to come into The Dark Side because it's kind of a kick in the arse for me, it makes me realize how bad I am and that I really do need help.
I like to sugarcoat things and pretend I am okay...
Anyway nice to meet you all here. <3
 
Hi and welcome to both of you!

Psychedelicate, I was really struggling myself this morning and a voice in my head said, "go deeper". Sometimes the only thing to grasp onto is to look for an opportunity in the worst possible situations and states of mind. PM me if you want to talk.<3

Bambooshoot, TDS does have a way of making you look at your own issues!:\ The good news is that you will never find a more empathetic and real group of people to do it with. The first step towards changing anything is always facing it without the rose colored glasses on so take it at your own pace and be brave; you will never be sorry.<3
 
Bambooshoot, you will definitely find a lot of love and support here in TDS. Im a 21yo male (ex)heroin addict and also suffer from ptsd. Im always here for support, love, and as someone to talk to. If you (or anyone) wants to chat, feel free to PM me. Lots of love to the TDS family. <3 <3
 
am i a fucking coward for wanting to slip away quietly in the night? without even so much as a note? it's a rhetorical question. i am. I've been looking for an honest way out for too long, because suicide, is not the key. and i hate the taste of alcohol and medicine. the answer, the answer, the answer is plain to see. so come on, lets get murdered. lets go to sleep and never wake up. lets find a loophole out of this.
 
I recall that deep dark basement. I recall how bad it smelt. And i hated everybody around me, I even hated myself. Which I still do, on my bad days.
 
We here at TDS will love you til you can love yourself. <3 everyone here (including yourself) are fantastic, wonderful people. My heart goes out to everyone here in pain, life can be shitty sometimes. Always know we are here for you, to carry and support you til you are strong enough to stand. I love each and every one of you :)
 
psychedelicate said:
I recall that deep dark basement. I recall how bad it smelt. And i hated everybody around me, I even hated myself. Which I still do, on my bad days.
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Man i moved into a basement one time where power was out for 6 months so there was a frodge and freezer FULL of decaying fopd covered in maggots, so many flies in the house that if u open ur mouth they may go into it, and 6 dogs that the guy just threw food into the house for them for 4 months and they just shit and pissed freely in there and there was trash in there up to ur knees almost (not quite but it was above the ankles) that was shreedded up like it was in a paper shredder and the shit and piss fmrom the dogs was scattered throughout ... so yea i dont wanna heaar shit about dark smelly basements lol

But serioualy seratonin is one of if not the best person on this thread hes a real fuckim good guy i highly recommend talking to him of youre ever down and need someone to talk to
 
Dawwww you made me blush. Im just trying to give back what was so freely given to me. I love all of ya'll. I am here for everyone though :) shoot me a PM anytime and i'll get back to anyone asap. Off to enjoy some much needed sleep. Gnight all :)
 
Serotonin101 said:
Dawwww you made me blush. Im just trying to give back what was so freely given to me. I love all of ya'll. I am here for everyone though :) shoot me a PM anytime and i'll get back to anyone asap. Off to enjoy some much needed sleep. Gnight all :)
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Seratonin im a Guy. I think you are too? Olease dont tell me i made you blush again haha
 
Im a 21 yo white heterosexual male. It was kind of an exaggeration (i am slightly sunburnt from being outside so i look like im blushing). I do appreciate your compliments bud. :D
 
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