Inhalants fucked me up. Coming off Years of abuse

[Dudeonacid]

Greatly great appreciate good i grest appreciate your suport! I feel better already and and will and and jeep and will keep you updated after and after final trip report tonight! Thank you and thanks! Stay tuned my brother things wol andnthings bluelight grest things will get better soon non irreversinle room mate says i will improve no doctor no soctor doctor hospitsl i cant leave till he sells lots of marijiana so no evidence he invovlved involved in my life he cant get csught hich is understandabke trying to keep try beep keep bothreputstions both our reputstion reputations positive gmfririend friend! Will uldate tonight tofnight firned

Dude, this thread is painful to read. It's a record of a young man killing himself. It is obvious from the way that you write that you have suffered significant cognitive impairment. It maybe reversible, but if you don't stop using this stuff right away and for good then you will never find out. You are destroying yourself. I will not send you good vibes and good wishes because those things will not save you. You need to save yourself. Your room mate is being a really bad friend by telling you that he can take care of you and that you don't need to see a doctor - you clearly need medical attention. Just go see a doctor, for the love of god. What's the worst than can happen? It can't be worse than what you're doing to yourself now.

I say the above because it's worth saying in case you are not a troll. I'm about 50/50 on that question. If this is a joke then it's really mean-spirited and unfunny.

 

[zdiddy]

I took the time to read his other threads, and it does seem shady to me.

 

[opium]

this is so sad to read.

Still unsure if its true but if it is, it kills me to read

 

[motherofearth]

Stop w/ the trip reports. TDS is not where you contribute trip reports; they have a forum for that.

 

[Dudeonacid]

I do not understan why why people sayong post are fake? Fake. Why the fuck would ilie would i lie about THIS SHIT. i am in living fucking heel right now now hell nlt in my right fuxking mind not roght mind and you say im lying?! I am not in my right mindset i have imcreasinglynhave increase used more and more inhalents more daoly and now now you an now you aresaying i make this shit up? Whay fuck what the fuck man wrong with you i nee fuck man i need all upprt i can get im tired of thisntired gettinc tired of this shit man i don need that of that shit of if of if you think its bullshit keep shit jeep keepout of my posy assbang tire pf of this shot npt fukin lying keepout leave alone me leave me alone if you arent arent here hh help my situation

Trip report final: 40+ min huff session huff session final rwport had room mate trip sit because dangerous amount gas gas has i black out twice bad shit roomate says blajout blackout twice roomate say xi. Roomate trip sotter sitter trip sitter says took 800mg diphenhydramine and was talking diphenhydramine was talking 800mg was talking while blackout says i was speajing of pas speaking future 800mg diphemhydramine no duster computer dd not huff computer duster roomate not would not refused go and buy nother can he will not will not will wont support inhaling habit bit wil sill moniter in case heart stops mh heart stkll beat iregular throughour day but good good trip report bluelight do nt do inhalents to often diphenhydramjne do not you will get fucked up please use my diphe 800mg use post as refrence dangers of gas do not use muxb much too often ok occasional ok use no addiction no more 3 week 3 times a week other that stay away from that gas can thank for those thank diphnehydramjne800 thamks those who care and still suport that would be nicknacknails re injection and others ehwgo who helpe thanj you i am no longer doing gas but still can leave room till i am aware reality and no longer disoriented thank you

this is so sad to read.

Still unsure if its true but if it is, it kills me to read

 

[tripnotyzm]

Your posts are extremely hard to understand.
Please dude, if you are going to come in here seeking help, it would be good if you post when you are in a sober mindset.
Not only are your posts hard to read, but most people are probably just skipping over them.. No body wants to read stuff like that.

@ Lastest, if this is too mysterious of a topic for you to deal with, simply don't click on the thread. You don't know who is sitting behind the computer or what state they are living in.

 

[Dudeonacid]

Triptonuzmym, i cant tellvyou bow how much i how much j hoe muvh how much appreciate your appreciate friendship and supportb. Please relize past 3 days psdr padt past 3 even triping 2-3 times day i have not been coming down. Please understand please this posr t post tryinh hard to make clear i am very angry pissed feel like i am am i fwe feel like im typing good please friebd friend help me undersfand how i am communicating howim ? How ami typing is ig jumbled. Peopke on facebook i try pos statuses tell me people howim feeli how i feeling they comment concerned and say call pilice irbauthorities police hospital. Please tel me man i need help. I need fuckingbhelp man. Im tired of being treate kike shit on bluelight this ans facebook is only source od communication i cant leave fcking house unti im normal again. Roomate WONT let leave wont. Im vecoming ectremely becoming depressed bad if i cant even be understood on comphtet on computer. Am fucked. Completely fucjed brother. Tripnotyozm i appreciare your hekp yiuve been helo here since beginning. I appreciate so much. Whrre do i go from here. I do here i do one huff in morning by afternoon still very dissosciate and tripping dissosciated at niggt fall asleep try sleep it off wake up stikl tripping. I feel i feel like im in like feel permanent psychosis? Plwas eman u seem only one whp reada who reads my posts i NEED your elh help remember cant leave house yet. Am my typing getting better ? Please help me help. Explain in detail my behavoirs. Irst stepvfirst step first step of sobriety is understandig how fuckedvu and my overall situation? Do you thin i can get better on own? Need honest opinion need honest opinion and advice again thank you for standing by my side and standingup for me im normal kid man mankid im young ! Im only 19 man! I dont dont want fried brain! I had friends lose them all being treated like animal very depressed life thrown away fuck

Your posts are extremely hard to understand.
Please dude, if you are going to come in here seeking help, it would be good if you post when you are in a sober mindset.
Not only are your posts hard to read, but most people are probably just skipping over them.. No body wants to read stuff like that.

@ Lastest, if this is too mysterious of a topic for you to deal with, simply don't click on the thread. You don't know who is sitting behind the computer or what state they are living in.

 

[lastest]

@ Lastest, if this is too mysterious of a topic for you to deal with, simply don't click on the thread. You don't know who is sitting behind the computer or what state they are living in.

Fair point, I don't know why I'm playing internet detective all of a sudden. If the guy is genuine I hope he gets the help he needs. If not, it's a matter for you mods. Strangest damn thread I ever did see.

 

[Dudeonacid]

Please can i message you i only get criticised hete and am worried worriedc a fuckin mod message a mod mod will close my thread they keep shutting my shit down close threads

Your posts are extremely hard to understand.
Please dude, if you are going to come in here seeking help, it would be good if you post when you are in a sober mindset.
Not only are your posts hard to read, but most people are probably just skipping over them.. No body wants to read stuff like that.

@ Lastest, if this is too mysterious of a topic for you to deal with, simply don't click on the thread. You don't know who is sitting behind the computer or what state they are living in.

 

[ErikTheRed]

Dudeonacid,

You really need to get some help ASAP. If you haven't gone to the hospital yet, you need to go right away. Don't even listen to your roommate, it sounds like your life is on the line. I'm not familiar with the process of enrolling into a rehab, but maybe someone else can tell you the best way to go about this. I'm sure if you go to the hospital they can guide you to a rehab center. It may not be ideal, but I think the most important thing right now is that you STOP the inhalents, by whatever means necessary.

To be blunt, you sound delusional, I can barely understand what you're saying. I say this to emphasize how important it is to get help right away. It doesn't seem like you're in a position where you can quit on your own.

 

[Lady Codone]

If you think your life is fucked now, why would you keep huffing? I know addiction isn't a rational/logical disease, but more gas = more brain damage...maybe death, if you're lucky. I say that because being a vegetable for the rest of your life would undoubtedly be far worse than death.

Give your body a chance to heal by abstaining from inhalant use. If you have to substitute other drugs to distract yourself from gas, do it. (It's not ideal but anything is better than inhalants). You've already taken a huge step by coming here and asking for help. Recovery is possible if you stop now but becomes less likely with each use. Once the acute cravings are over, then you can start to address the problems that lead you here in the first place. But that can wait. For now, just focus on not huffing.

 

[Dave82]

You may come to bluelight for support but at the end of the day only you can help yourself. It should be pretty obvious what damage these inhalants can cause.

Im only 19 man!

You should see that as a positive. Your still young and can turn your life around.

 

[naughtynicknails]

Can't remember if it was this thread or one of your others i posted this in but withdrawal from solvent abuse typically lasts 2 - 4 weeks.. Stop now and you will probably be fine in a few weeks.. carry on and you could be dead in a few weeks.

Also.. drugs like solvents / diphenhydramine?

Nitrous Oxide is a perfect replacement while you get off them.. but you might even enjoy some salvia? Sounds like you would love ketamine and even methoxetamine.. but i don't think you should replace 1 addiction for another.. use them responsibily or prepare to have them bite you in the ass and completely fuck you over.

I really don't recommend any deleriums.

Do you take delerium doses of diphenhydramine? IME, without a sitter / locking yourself in a room, your very likely to start sobering up in someone elses garden talking to / running away from nothing.

 

[missrenee]

is your flatmate prepared for looking after someone that can not function at all? it would take up all his time and resources.. is that worth you not going to hospital and the very, very slight chance that anyone would search your place? if this is true, you should not even worry about him right now.. you have to help yourself! go now, there are no more excuses..

 

[Dudeonacid]

Firat. First day day without inhalenra in. 3 year. This iis ot it bluelight i start to. To. Today. Still not come down last tri last trip no doctor needed no doc roomate sas says sees improvement ale alredy will alredy will updatw severe withdrawls i ser gas can can gad will NOT huff today feel positive

is your flatmate prepared for looking after someone that can not function at all? it would take up all his time and resources.. is that worth you not going to hospital and the very, very slight chance that anyone would search your place? if this is true, you should not even worry about him right now.. you have to help yourself! go now, there are no more excuses..

 

[Dudeonacid]

Its afternoon it afternoon i doing well in pain want hugg want huff gas so bad cant do iy it it hacr have yo to stop if want hrain brain back dont wanyt want be vvegetable my life will get Betteron track better. Brain qikk heval ovee tone tome pvee over time gpood

Can't remember if it was this thread or one of your others i posted this in but withdrawal from solvent abuse typically lasts 2 - 4 weeks.. Stop now and you will probably be fine in a few weeks.. carry on and you could be dead in a few weeks.

Also.. drugs like solvents / diphenhydramine?

Nitrous Oxide is a perfect replacement while you get off them.. but you might even enjoy some salvia? Sounds like you would love ketamine and even methoxetamine.. but i don't think you should replace 1 addiction for another.. use them responsibily or prepare to have them bite you in the ass and completely fuck you over.

I really don't recommend any deleriums.

Do you take delerium doses of diphenhydramine? IME, without a sitter / locking yourself in a room, your very likely to start sobering up in someone elses garden talking to / running away from nothing.

 

[Black Rabbit of Inle]

Firat. First day day without inhalenra in. 3 year. This iis ot it bluelight i start to. To. Today. Still not come down last tri last trip no doctor needed no doc roomate sas says sees improvement ale alredy will alredy will updatw severe withdrawls i ser gas can can gad will NOT huff today feel positive

It's good to see that you're giving it a go right away rather than waiting I'm hoping you threw out everything that could tempt you. There's nothing worse than intense WD's and cravings when you have access to it. And having to put the effort in to go get more is just that little extra deterrent.

Its afternoon it afternoon i doing well in pain want hugg want huff gas so bad cant do iy it it hacr have yo to stop if want hrain brain back dont wanyt want be vvegetable my life will get Betteron track better. Brain qikk heval ovee tone tome pvee over time gpood

You will be in pain for a while yet, but just stick to it. You will notice how much clearer your mind gets and you will feel so much better about yourself. I wouldn't substitute one addiction for another. Just focus on kicking this habit first and get yourself back to a good place.

 

[chrisalt]

dude quit while you are still alive and there maybe a possible chance of recovery from any damage u did

 

[chrisalt]

butane really? i mean i know you were 14 but for fuck sake.... and this is coming from a guy who has done some fuckery type shit.

Im not judging you but damn....

 

[queenscarlet88]

I almost do not believe this is real.

I totally agree with everyone here saying quit now.

Yeah. Obvious troll is obvious.