I’m so happy it helped a little! You’re only gonna get better from here. Those moments of clarity will be longer and longer and more frequent. And when you’re not having them it’s gonna seem like you never had them but you just gotta wait it out.
You’re gonna be just fine. It’s one of the toughest things you can do but you’re through the worst! Worst case if you break you can always taper or get on kratom short term. You should be incredibly proud. You’re breaking a horrible physical dependence that many people never break.
It’s terrible you’re doctor has been so unsupportive and so pushing of opioids. My doctor prescribed me Ativan, clonidine and hydroxyzine to break just a kratom dependency, which he highly encouraged me to break. Of course he’s a drug addiction specialist psych but still. That should be the bare minimum a doctor should give. You should try and find a new doctor if you have the means to.
Crying is good, black seed oil is good, exercise, any form of self care, anything that distracts you when you’re at your worst. Just remember it’ll pass. You got this man