im half way through a uni course i do no work in, it causes me a lot of stress and anxiety. this is the 4th course i have taken, first i did health science for a few months, dropped out. arts degree, dropped out. cooking course, dropped out.
i cant really learn in a university environment, and i'm not very academic.
my first thought is to drop out and try and find work. i can go on jobseekers allowance, so financially it wouldn't affect me. the plan would be to save up 5000 or something and travel throughout australia for 6 months or something (i live here already). id like to live low budget, go to lots of long silent meditation retreats, get out of my shell a bit.
another idea is to see if i can transfer into psychology, i am interesting in counseling/mental health/psychotherapies, through a lense of progression/contemplation, i think i have a greater genuine interest in how the mind works as opposed to how sound is created (i'm studying electronic music atm).
the problem is i live with 2 other people doing the same course, one is doing worse than i am almost, but he has a job, another is doing extremely well, we are friends and he is my sisters bf, i feel like dropping out would be letting him down. perhaps more pertinent is my fear of facing the "real world", finding a job, it seems like so many people in the world are crushed by their 9-5 grind, trying to pay the bills etc.. scares me
i dont really know how to make decisions anymore. when i tell people my dilemma they see it as a negative thing, but i don't understand why i would regret doing something that has been stirring inside me for a long time.
