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Three months is when the brain has finally had time to begin to reorganize its neurobiological wet-wiring to life without consuming our drugs of choice. Have you notice anything in terms of your mood or mindset around the 90 day shift at all?

I have noticed how a lot of people seem to start noticing the "pink cloud" going away around the three month mark, with the novelty of recovery wearing off a bit as they get more settled into the normal rigamarole and daily routine of life without all the harmful substance use. Others people also seem to notice (I would include myself mostly in this group) things continue in a motivated, overall positive kind of ways (perhaps the pink cloud experience wasn't as dramatic for these individuals).

Who knows what the experience will be like for you, just keep an eye out for things continuing to change as you progress in your recovery.
 
Unlike my previous quit attempts, this time I did have a pronounced 'pink cloud' period. It lasted from about the time acute WDs ended until ~one month in. Then it disappeared hard, and I was all over the place emotionally. Things started to stabilize around 3 months. I still have some pretty intense mood swings. But I don't feel as despondent as I did during that stretch from one month to three months.
 
Good for you Sim. You really have done amazing-and it was hard won. <3

Starting day 5 of not using today.
 
toothpastedog said:
Three months is when the brain has finally had time to begin to reorganize its neurobiological wet-wiring to life without consuming our drugs of choice. Have you notice anything in terms of your mood or mindset around the 90 day shift at all?

I have noticed how a lot of people seem to start noticing the "pink cloud" going away around the three month mark, with the novelty of recovery wearing off a bit as they get more settled into the normal rigamarole and daily routine of life without all the harmful substance use. Others people also seem to notice (I would include myself mostly in this group) things continue in a motivated, overall positive kind of ways (perhaps the pink cloud experience wasn't as dramatic for these individuals).

Who knows what the experience will be like for you, just keep an eye out for things continuing to change as you progress in your recovery.
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My pink cloud lasted only for a month after wds like Sim, i was definitely on a roller coaster ride of emotions during that month. With some super highs even spiritual during my first couple weeks after wds i felt like i concurred something big!. Now at 3 months i still battle sleep and energy problems some nothing like the first month after wds and even though my back hurts a little more now than before wds it is bearable. My biggest problem now is nerve pain in my feet which feels worse now than before wds.

The only relief i get from my feet pain is with lyrica it works amazing better than any opioid did still i dont wanna end up using lyrica everyday. So i usually wait till its unbearable then i take one 150mgs pill once or twice a week. I probably would still have a pink cloud if not for my feet pain, the euphoria i had from beating a 20 year plus daily oxy addiction was epic for me it just sucks that the feet nerve pain has to rain on my parade.

TPD you are right about things continuing to change as you progress in your recovery, its so weird how many things have changed for me in the last 3 months little things and big things and im so aware of them all!. I try to stay positive i think once spring is here then my mood will lift more being able then to do my hobbies. I have a 1989 foxbody mustang show/race car and fishing will start soon both play a big role in my happiness so im looking for a big lift from them.
 
simco said:
Unlike my previous quit attempts, this time I did have a pronounced 'pink cloud' period. It lasted from about the time acute WDs ended until ~one month in. Then it disappeared hard, and I was all over the place emotionally. Things started to stabilize around 3 months. I still have some pretty intense mood swings. But I don't feel as despondent as I did during that stretch from one month to three months.
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How long has it been again since you quit? Time sure flies, at least from my perspective over hear ;)
 
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How long has it been again since you quit? Time sure flies, at least from my perspective over hear ;)
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Well, that's a bit complicated. :\

I count my quitting from October 21, 2016. But I did have a brief lapse about 2 months into that. I decided not to reset my 'clock' after the lapse, because the lapse felt very ephemeral, while the quit starting October involved a deep commitment and an almost spiritual sense of change.

Also, it's been a nice long time since that lapse. So I do believe it was a bump in the road and not a full-blown relapse.

So, Oct 21 - Feb 21 = 4 months...yay!
 
simco said:
Well, that's a bit complicated. :\

I count my quitting from October 21, 2016. But I did have a brief lapse about 2 months into that. I decided not to reset my 'clock' after the lapse, because the lapse felt very ephemeral, while the quit starting October involved a deep commitment and an almost spiritual sense of change.

Also, it's been a nice long time since that lapse. So I do believe it was a bump in the road and not a full-blown relapse.

So, Oct 21 - Feb 21 = 4 months...yay!
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Sim im with you on that bump in the road what matters is you stayed on the road! I bet most of hit that bump, VE hit that bump too for a couple days and so did i. On a night i needed energy badly i was going out i grabbed four 00 kratom capsules i had filled for wds and did same the next night. Then we all got back on the road and were still going.
 
Sim- Im hanging in there thanks for asking.

Im starting day 6. Still worried that Im going to mess this up. And damn its been hard. Esp those first few days. I honestly don't know how I used to live like this-sick for days- until I could get my hands on h again-and come back to life in 10-30 seconds Then in a frw hours start over again. I'd cry because of all the suffering for the short-lived good parts.

In my heart of hearts- i want to be not be using. crawling back is never pleasant. But worth it. <3 :)
 
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Sim- Im hanging in there thanks for asking.
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Im starting day 6. Still worried that Im going to mess this up. And damn its been hard. Esp those first few days. I honestly don't know how I used to live like this-sick for days- until I could get my hands on h again-and come back to life in 10-30 seconds Then in a frw hours start over again. I'd cry because of all the suffering for the short-lived good parts.

In my heart of hearts- i want to be not be using. crawling back is never pleasant. But worth it.
 
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^^lol. Starting day 7. Cravings. God I hate this. Cant sleep, hot cold. Plain miserable.

You guys are helping so much. I read BL 24/7. And good job Sim. :)
 
10YearsGone said:
^^lol. Starting day 7. Cravings. God I hate this. Cant sleep, hot cold. Plain miserable.

You guys are helping so much. I read BL 24/7. And good job Sim. :)
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That sucks that you're feeling that ragged. But day 7 is fucking awesome! You're gonna start feeling a lot better really soon, I'm sure. Keep us posted, OK?

<3
Sim
 
Sim, 10. I'm always thinking of you guys. I hope VE and tld are doing well too!
 
Thanks Sixx. Yeah, I'm doing pretty well. After a period of fairly light cravings, much stronger ones have been back up for about the last 10 days, so that kinda sucks. But I think I'm getting better at walking away from cravings when they start hitting hard.

Sixx, 10, VE and all...I'm thinking of you, too. Wishing you guys all the best.
 
Sixxam said:
Sim, 10. I'm always thinking of you guys. I hope VE and tld are doing well too!
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Sixx im still hanging in bro! if it wasn't for the nerve pain in my feet id be cruising like a boss! i have no ops cravings only slightly late in the day when my energy levels are ass. What i really crave is lyrica everyday because it kills almost 80% of my nerve pain but im only doing a couple a week i dont wanna start dosing anything daily again.

You got this 10years your accute stage has to be ending real soon!

Sim hey brotha! hope all is good with you.
 
Thanks, TLD. I've feeling pretty edgy the last couple days. Lots of drug thinking/fantasies. I can knock these down pretty consistently. But the ongoing *need* to knock them down gets exhausting.

How about you, man?
 
simco said:
Thanks, TLD. I've feeling pretty edgy the last couple days. Lots of drug thinking/fantasies. I can knock these down pretty consistently. But the ongoing *need* to knock them down gets exhausting.

How about you, man?
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Im ok for the most part i do smoke weed which helps my nerve pain and on weekends i have a couple beers. But the only time i crave ops a little is towards the end of the day and night my energy then is ass, my legs get heavy feeling and im very sluggish but i can deal with that the nerve pain shit with my feet is my biggest problem.
 
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