So as I said yesterday, today is the last day where I an allowed to take more and anything else than what I am prescribed. Therefore, last evening was really an all out kind of evening. I have not taken IV cocaine for years and I very rarely do IV at all unless it is parmeceutical products meant for IV.
I allowed myself to take cocaine IV last night. I took large amounts of opioids during the day, First I took 90% pure cocaine intravenous, if the solution injected is strong enough, as soon as you start pressing the plunger in and the cocaine enters your blood (that is even before you have injected the entire solution), the initial rush consists of a massive amount of euphoria and a feeling of everything around you IS you, that is you are are embracing everything and absorping all the things around you which feels like an electric current passing through your brain (not only can you feel the electric current you can also hear it rininging) thus jump starting you into a normal existence again characterized by bliss and euphoria.
At this time I injected morphine and ketobemidone (the syringe was already prepared) boosting the euphoria adding several new dimensions of blissful feelings.
If IV/smoked heroin is more intense and euphoric than iv ketobemidone, which it probably is, it is beyond what I can comprehend or imagine.
Tomorrow it is back to my normal routine and my prescriptions only (Okaaaaaaaay, stop it moral compass) and a few RC and amphetamine (amph, not for recreational effects but for getting more work done feeling more fresh and focused).
Now, back to the topic:
140mg Metadone
240mg OxyContin
100mg OxyNorm
30mg Morphine (plugged)
450mg Pregabalin
~30mg Ketamine
~40mg Amphetamine
300mg Cocaine (is my guess, I don't know exactly)
10 mg Diazepam
2 mg Clonazepam
2 mg Alprazolam
6mg Etizolam (finaly Etizest again)
No LSD micro-dosing today. I cannot feel any effects, but maybe that should have been obvious to me in light of the stack of drugs it is part of.
I received some very bad news today. My source for oxycodone (both IR and ER) is no longer available. I know plenty of people selling it. But I am not going to pay their rediculous prices. You could say it is a good thing in terms of getting clean. But I have no wish to achieve that right know. (This is not a "blink blink" I want to buy statement. So don't even bother wasting your time writing to me. I will report you instantly), I hope moderators think it s okay for me to write about this. I write it because it is obviously a thing that troubles me right now. I enjoy having the option to add it to my mix every now and again. This news have really left me in a bad mood, it is hard finding a source where the price are low (unless you find someone stealing from producers or something selling in bulk, but then they want you to buy like 100x98x120mg at once. I don't exactly have the money for that or the intention of getting involved in this level of criminal behavior.
The situation regarding prescription of oxycodone in my peripheral region of Denmark - Long story, can be skipped, but interesting reading.
In Denmark there have not been so much focus on not prescribing OxyContin as we have not experienced the same amount of over-prescriptions. But in my part of the country, there really is a big need for GPs, so the clinics are very small and often you can find very old GPs close to retirement. It is very hard to get prescriptions for oxycodone. But when you do get seriously hurt, you can easily keep saying it just hurts to much that I can't sleep and have to stay home from work often blabla and they will raise your dose until you reach 80s, allowing you to take 3 80 mg OxyContins each day and if you then wail about break through pain you will get a prescription for let say 20mg IR saying "for breakt through pain, use when needed, up to 2 every 6 hours" which results in a prescription of IR oxycodone to cover this. This results in a prescription for one box of 98x80 mg OxyContin and one box of 98x20mg OxyNorm - IR oxycodone is called OxyNorm here - and actually this box does not cover the amount on your prescription for IR (2 every 6 hours is 8 pr day and can you convince your doctor that you have break through pain almost everyday this is 8x21 = 248 tablets. So every now and again, you can get 2 boxes of 98x20 mg OxyNorm (196 20mg in total).
I know this sounds crazy and that the GP should send the patients to special pain centers which they sometimes do, but up here many of them don't know of the option. If you really push it and say this still is not enough they will initially give you 120s instead of 80s. However, the small pharmacies we have up here often don't have 120s in stock, so the doctor prescribe you another box of 98x80mgs. You then keep complaining about the pain and then someday you say "I have seen morphine can potentiate oxycodone, can I get some morphine as well? Do the same number here and voila, you end up with a prescription for 100x100mg ER morphine tablets each month or 56x24mg Hydromorphone each month (but Hydromorphone is still very rarely prescribed in Denmark, so you have to have the knowledge of is existence yourself and ask for it.
