smoking meth while playing a game online atm while listening to music, and has now been awake since..yesterday, some time..or the day before? didn't follow time much since i last woke up this time ("oh, it's midnight again already..").
Smoking a lil weed&/hash (low tolerance,just few puffs..) shortly after oral ~.25mg of Alprazolam every 6h or so, for the past... 24h? or so.. (im also new to Alprazolam/Xanax (and most benzos), my first time(s)).
I usually just stick to meth alone when using it, and benzo only if required for sleep, and occasionally weed aswell then. While Ive been considering multiple times going to sleep after toking weed this session, have been enjoying the weed/benzo-touch to the meth-high this time, and kept delaying it and stayed awake.. with some added meth puffs now and then, hopin to get in a nice state of mind again from the meth, but it's not really doing much more good atm

, maybe just my mood or something..
meanwhile trying to use the Alprazolam to keep going hoping to avoid anxiety and getting too tensed up, while still maintaining some of the high/effect.. gonna test a bit from a diff batch of meth I didnt use any of this session,hoping theres a lil chance the one so far now has been less good or something.. Afraid there wont be much difference though, and will prolly give up and hope to get to sleep soon instead, hoping for better times again later. Possibly/hopefully getting around to tryign to sleep within the next 12 or so then, depending on how i feel I guess..
often been worried about some anxiety mixing weed when high on meth and sleep deprived, and also how it "dumbs" down the high and kinda messes up the meth-high usually discouraged me from it besides for before sleep..
but possibly thanks to the Alprazolam, anxiety hasn't been much problem atleast, and the added weed has been pretty nice this time, I think. Mayb much influenced by the benzo, My legs/body also feels a bit heavier a bit after dosing it so it has some other apparent effects,altho pretty small dose I thought..
Gotten alot of stuff in this online (mmorgp-)game finished now atleast, lol. As earlier times like this, playing whilst spam-/talking with randomers about anything and everything while listening to music. Happens I meet others tweakign in-game there aswell , lol.
In-game like that I often prolly talk a bit too much, and after long session with sleep deprivation and all, I sometimes say quite stupid/weird, supposedly incoherent at times eventually etc., if awake for long, which is another reason I prolly shouldnt keep going like that. not good,lol=s Ill prolly kinda regret typing this aswell, but owell..

I think weed somehow helps for this some ways, using weed afterwards (end of meth-high, still messed from sleep deprivation and all) Ive often thought about how I change my mind on things, or regret things I said or were too stubborn about while in the pure meth-high.. I guess weed may kinda make me more self-critical,reflecting and somehow bring me more "down to earth" at times used like that, which can be nice..
Anyway, it's been pretty nice to mix weed and a lil of that benzo this time I think, altho I first half-expected I'd goto bed after it, now been repeating it while staying awake further.. in-game I managed to play pretty well too =p
Damn, I spent too long time writing this..that thx to the weed &/or xanax I guess, bit slow n sloppy after the weed atleast.. think imma try inhale some more of them crystal vapors in not too long, as Ive been wanting to for a while now, and havent done since a while before last weed/xanax now... tho prolly making it one of my last hits of this session then, then try a lil increased dose of Xanax (0.5-1mg.?) a bit after that followed by another toke of weed hoping for some pleasant slacker buzz, and head to bed in not too long (12-24 prolly) while hoping to avoid nausea, anxiety and other undesirables until then, with some more noobing around the game chatting randomly while listening to music and killing some time I guess..
