How High Are You? v. America's in flames, take all the drugs, this is not a test
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Of course man, that's awesome you found something you feel comfortable doing, that's what I've been looking for as well.
I've given a few a chance but I'm finally accepting I'm just not a city person. I didn't necessarily the right things in college to go live off-the-grid but the land seems to approve of me--I saw a bald eagle and a large male California Brown Bear the FIRST time I was there, and I've been told by my friend that works there that my other friend that worked there last summer NEVER saw a bear the whole summer there. It'll be a little weird to get used to as well I think, but in a good way--just the slow pace of life (driving slower), to just being more polite and existing at a slower pace of life (city life gives me such anxiety I'm just trying to get back to my safe space).
Finally starting to feel a little better, been sitting inside drinking tea and gatorade
this morning, just a big ass dab then a couple small lines of dope
Methacodone
Bluelighter
0.5g Heroin (smoked)
60mg Oxycodone (oral)
40mg Diazepam
50mg Librium
50mg Promethazine
Nicotine
60mg Oxycodone (oral)
40mg Diazepam
50mg Librium
50mg Promethazine
Nicotine
Just redosed the powder dope and brought out the good BHO (XXX OG)
Chilled out af
Chilled out af
LucidSDreamr
Bluelighter
i hate buying drugs from most sketchy people. except I know one guy that sells roxies in the hood that I know really well and have been buying from for about 6 years. I will say that going into the hood to buy from him is exciting and enjoyable and also snorting the pills in the nearest public bathroom is its own fun in addition to the high
Tryptamino
Bluelight Crew
did some dodgy K last night, suspected to be MXE or other serotonergic dissociative. really bums me out that K ain't K anymore. Can't a guy try and get a k hole on without possibility of serotonin syndrome dayum
4meSM
Bluelighter
Smoking a couple of big joints, also just drank some nasty tasting kratom.
CoatHangerAbortion
Bluelighter
50mg zolpidem, some alcohol, 450mg trazodone, 30mg hydrocodone, gonna have some kratom, 1,4-butanediol (maybe), and Lyrica and smoke some cigarettes. Wish I could get higher!
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SirTophamHat
Bluelighter
Somewhere between 1 and 1.5g caffeine. Might take a few mg of Valium later if I keep drinking coffee. Still strong on the "more money, fewer drugs" epiphany.
Feeling good good good. 20mg has become my new daily normal haha seems reasonable, I kinda feel like the new batch is more cut than the first.
snorted like 8-10mg and now some dabs and then a J hey hey hey
snorted like 8-10mg and now some dabs and then a J hey hey hey
jackie jones
Bluelight Crew
Damn, you guys make me feel old, and I'm not.
Only a tall glass of opium tea. Coming out of a nice nod. Feels good.
Only a tall glass of opium tea. Coming out of a nice nod. Feels good.
4meSM
Bluelighter
I'm currently smoking a gram blunt by myself.
SirTophamHat
Bluelighter
Please let us know what kind of non nasty tasting kratom you have discovered so that the rest of humanity may share in your fortune
4meSM
Bluelighter
TouchéPlease let us know what kind of non nasty tasting kratom you have discovered so that the rest of humanity may share in your fortune
To be honest I've tried a few that tasted OK, but yeah usually the really nasty ones are stronger, not that it bothers me at this point because I've learnt to drink the whole thing in like 3 seconds.
OT: kratom and another blunt, so stoned.
Somewhere between 0.75 and 1mg of Klonopin. Its weird because 1mg will knock me down, and about 0.75 will be just fine... Cause I don't like sleepy and groggy feeling.
And taking 0.75mg when you have 2mg pills is kinda tricky, but not impossible.
And taking 0.75mg when you have 2mg pills is kinda tricky, but not impossible.
rolllinlikeroyce
Bluelighter
Kinda off topic so skip if you want:
Sup everyone. Not sure if many of you remember me. It's been a really long time since I've been on here. A lot of majorly traumatic events have happened to me in the last six months.
I moved into a new house with my best friend S in June. It was everything we could have asked for. It wasn't the nicest place but we finally had our own crib. My friend got into some questionable activity (I'm sure you can guess) and ended up becoming a target for people to rob.
A month after we lived there, someone broke into his room and stole 9 grand while he was gone. Months of hard work down the drain.
Not a month after that, our house got raided. He lost even more with that one and now faces serious charges. I got charged with paraphernalia...
The next month, we became the target of a home invasion. Two ghetto ass motherfuckers forced my friend inside, beat the shit out of us with guns and lost a lot of valuables. They took our phones, keys, and wallets, and left us stranded at 2am in our home.
Two months later, a couple weeks ago. On Christmas Eve, he and I decided to take some acid with our other good friend L. And he decided to pop ~15 super strong pressed Xanax pills to abort his trip. He was awake for hours still in a horrifyingly delirious state. L and I were really scared because he had been depressed and was talking about ending things in a very vague way. Eventually he passed out. My other friend and I took a few bars to calm down and try to enjoy our trip.
The next morning, the other friend L, took my car to get some food but he was still so fucked up he fell out at the wheel and totaled my car. I woke up to the news and was still so fucked up I didn't know what to do. I had to go with L's dad to bail him out of jail.
When I got back, S was on the bed barely breathing. He tried to OD himself with roxis and Xanax, and was unconscious for several hours.
When he woke up he was in an absolute rage. He put the dog out in his car, loaded up his .38 revolver and shot himself in the head without saying anything. L and I ran into the room, and he was bleeding profusely but still alive. We pulled him onto the floor while calling 911, turned him on his side and tried to get him to stop choking on his own blood. I thought he was going to bleed out without a doubt. He struggled to stay alive.
When paramedics and cops got there, they had L and I stand in separate areas. I was still tripping and so barred out that my memory was shot. They kept asking me questions and I'd get the facts straight but not the order or time. The whole thing seemed so surreal. Like I was waiting any moment to wake up.
He's still alive and making slow recovery but he'll never be the same again. That's my best friend. And it happened on Christmas. These last couple weeks have been so difficult. I miss the fuck out of him, we've been best friends since 1st grade. One of the things that's hurt our friendship recently has been our inability to quit roxis. I'm trying to stay clean for him. This is my fifth day without one.
Admittedly I did take some benzos last night to ease my mind and get some sleep, so I guess with further ado-
OT:
3mg Clonazepam
2mg Alprazolam
Bong rips of some pretty good nug
Sorry to bring any negativity to the thread, just had to get some things off my chest.
Peace BLers. Hope all is well with everyone. %)
Sup everyone. Not sure if many of you remember me. It's been a really long time since I've been on here. A lot of majorly traumatic events have happened to me in the last six months.
I moved into a new house with my best friend S in June. It was everything we could have asked for. It wasn't the nicest place but we finally had our own crib. My friend got into some questionable activity (I'm sure you can guess) and ended up becoming a target for people to rob.
A month after we lived there, someone broke into his room and stole 9 grand while he was gone. Months of hard work down the drain.
Not a month after that, our house got raided. He lost even more with that one and now faces serious charges. I got charged with paraphernalia...
The next month, we became the target of a home invasion. Two ghetto ass motherfuckers forced my friend inside, beat the shit out of us with guns and lost a lot of valuables. They took our phones, keys, and wallets, and left us stranded at 2am in our home.
Two months later, a couple weeks ago. On Christmas Eve, he and I decided to take some acid with our other good friend L. And he decided to pop ~15 super strong pressed Xanax pills to abort his trip. He was awake for hours still in a horrifyingly delirious state. L and I were really scared because he had been depressed and was talking about ending things in a very vague way. Eventually he passed out. My other friend and I took a few bars to calm down and try to enjoy our trip.
The next morning, the other friend L, took my car to get some food but he was still so fucked up he fell out at the wheel and totaled my car. I woke up to the news and was still so fucked up I didn't know what to do. I had to go with L's dad to bail him out of jail.
When I got back, S was on the bed barely breathing. He tried to OD himself with roxis and Xanax, and was unconscious for several hours.
When he woke up he was in an absolute rage. He put the dog out in his car, loaded up his .38 revolver and shot himself in the head without saying anything. L and I ran into the room, and he was bleeding profusely but still alive. We pulled him onto the floor while calling 911, turned him on his side and tried to get him to stop choking on his own blood. I thought he was going to bleed out without a doubt. He struggled to stay alive.
When paramedics and cops got there, they had L and I stand in separate areas. I was still tripping and so barred out that my memory was shot. They kept asking me questions and I'd get the facts straight but not the order or time. The whole thing seemed so surreal. Like I was waiting any moment to wake up.
He's still alive and making slow recovery but he'll never be the same again. That's my best friend. And it happened on Christmas. These last couple weeks have been so difficult. I miss the fuck out of him, we've been best friends since 1st grade. One of the things that's hurt our friendship recently has been our inability to quit roxis. I'm trying to stay clean for him. This is my fifth day without one.
Admittedly I did take some benzos last night to ease my mind and get some sleep, so I guess with further ado-
OT:
3mg Clonazepam
2mg Alprazolam
Bong rips of some pretty good nug
Sorry to bring any negativity to the thread, just had to get some things off my chest.
Peace BLers. Hope all is well with everyone. %)
hangyourhead
Bluelighter
60mg/6ml liquid methadone
100mg hydroxyzine
800mg cimetidine (hour prior my dose at the clinic)
400mg chelated magnesium
Cuppa' joe
Listening to Our Place of Worship is Silence's LP- The Embodiment of Hate. So fucking bleak and dreary (a strong salute to blackened atmosphere), yet maintains the pummeling, heavy old-skool grooves of Swedish death metal. Great record to start my day to alongside Blood Incantation's Starspawn LP. Hoping to catch some heavy, warm, and euphoric glows during the peak of my methadone after dosing heavier than usual in the amount of potentiatiors; ~1hr hour prior to drinking my dose. Akin to promethazine, hydroxyzine has a dopaminergic potentiation and anxiolytic properties beyond other antihistamine potentiators. I wish my clinic was a bit more organized and therefore making it easier to increase my MMT dose (or hell, I could really use split-dosing to being a super fast metabolizer). I think I'd be much better held at ~80-100mg methadone.
100mg hydroxyzine
800mg cimetidine (hour prior my dose at the clinic)
400mg chelated magnesium
Cuppa' joe
Listening to Our Place of Worship is Silence's LP- The Embodiment of Hate. So fucking bleak and dreary (a strong salute to blackened atmosphere), yet maintains the pummeling, heavy old-skool grooves of Swedish death metal. Great record to start my day to alongside Blood Incantation's Starspawn LP. Hoping to catch some heavy, warm, and euphoric glows during the peak of my methadone after dosing heavier than usual in the amount of potentiatiors; ~1hr hour prior to drinking my dose. Akin to promethazine, hydroxyzine has a dopaminergic potentiation and anxiolytic properties beyond other antihistamine potentiators. I wish my clinic was a bit more organized and therefore making it easier to increase my MMT dose (or hell, I could really use split-dosing to being a super fast metabolizer). I think I'd be much better held at ~80-100mg methadone.
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Damn rollin, sorry to hear that, that's really rough. I hope you can use it as motivation to make a change, that's all there really is.
Hope everyone is well, I just got word that I got the job I wanted in the Emerald Triangle! Gonna be moving up there in a few weeks--I'm expecting it'll take some getting used to, from the 2nd biggest metropolitan area in the U.S. to one of the most isolated and rural areas of the U.S. Fucking beautiful, and having something I care about means I can feel some of my depression lifting already.
ot: dope and dabs and soon lunch
Hope everyone is well, I just got word that I got the job I wanted in the Emerald Triangle! Gonna be moving up there in a few weeks--I'm expecting it'll take some getting used to, from the 2nd biggest metropolitan area in the U.S. to one of the most isolated and rural areas of the U.S. Fucking beautiful, and having something I care about means I can feel some of my depression lifting already.
ot: dope and dabs and soon lunch
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