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How are you in one word v. Pedalling through the dark currents

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triple-pricked

glucose 120@730

ate cheese and and grain bread
checked registered 82 after 40 minutes

felt awful funk rising @~10:30
registered at 113

ate proper meal
checked @~11:45 registered at 117


this is some BS.

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@~12:40 registered at 96

became hyper emotional and nerves flying
so decided to check again
@1:30 registered at 105
 
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umm...

BORED.

this is how it always goes. i must fix this before what always happens, happens. been clean for 3 weeks. cant go back to it. cant use no.matter.what. for an addict like me, boredom is very dangerous.
 
... omg ...

i just quoted you, and began a ramble,,, a ramble pertaining to "being" fuKn BORED...

maybe write about some other addict like you, and what really happens after after the 2-3 sniffs, shots, drinks, puffs, w/e.
... save your fictional characters life, liver, or money! before its way tooooo almost late!!!
 
Concerned My actions speak louder than my words at this point. Need to make a plan and adhere to it. I guessing my plan is going to go against what most people may seem as the appropriate choice, but I need to do what I feel will work best for me because right now; that's all I can really do.
 
learning as i wake

register 124
feeling the funk and shaking...
time to bust open the3 applewood smoked gouda and goodies.

funkfrenzy @2:20 registered 132
drink 1/2 a Glucerna, 10 minutes later
starts smoothing out, and reads 103.


i need more fucking glucerna...!
... pounds on ground ...

zenuff Yet?!? no?!? oh my.
;-p
 
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Blah. Before I took a nap I was feeling alright...now I feel like mental crap. Wanting the day to be over, but no idea why since I'm not really all that excited about tomorrow.
 
I get that sometimes, after some overly-heavy naps. My cure: try to move around a bit, dance a bit, maybe a light bite, and get out of the house for a little bit. Not always apt, but often helps. A nice hot cup of tea never hurts either. :)

ATM: Unsure. I bought a bunch of awesome stuff at the 'asian' grocery, but I'm not too sure how to use it all. Or even if that's what I want to eat today. Derp.
 
^watcha got???
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anabolic frolic:
ate chicken eggs and asparagus, 1.7 hours later
*feeling the freak'n'funk- registered 134~
half a glucerna, 115 10 minutes later...
 
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Confused and riddled with thoughts of being a bollocks'y, social failure...damn annoying!:X:\:X
Good to have access to TDS again though-;)
 
no dog, just a cat.

and haha, nah, definitely not... i at first, or anyone should get a good understanding of how their body is reacting through out the day with this discovered; especially with physical reactions, previously assumed as..?

once i see a pattern, establishing a baseline, and which foods do what with me (this is quickly becoming clear) ill maybe check a couple times a day, and then eventually only when it seems needed.
i had to do this with hypo-glycemia, and on the strict air of caution,,, guessing is no good this early.

ill hopefully take the readings in with notes to my dr monday, and hopefully get an 'AeG' done/keotone level(off already), and P-cell, electrolyte/triglyceride other serum work if needed to start...
 
Asclepius? hmmmmm.... sounds familiar.... just can't seem to place the name =D <3
 
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