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How are you in one word v. Pedalling through the dark currents

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panic in paradise said:
went to write, and read some of what i had and forgotten.. that made it even worse- hehe, uhg...
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Yep I've been there mate. I'm not sure if it's ever therapeutic to re-read stuff we wrote during bad times?? :(
I hope the darkness clears soon <3



OD, you are doing brilliantly mate, you should be really proud of yourself! <3



Me: completely blown-away by a package I just received from another BLer!!!! So awesome and amazing. I now have about 3-month's supply of Reeses peanut butter cups and other amazing American goodies <3 *NOMM*!
 
^Purple is good.

a thinking color i believe.


n3o, i put the pen and pad down, and went for the music.
... it can be good, but not by surprise usually.

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IT being reading what you had previously written, glimpses of previous moments in life, as they were.
:)
yes, music is always good

:D
 
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Lost

I don't know what I feel, who I am. I hate today, fear tomorrow more. I keep crying (*Note, 1st day of opiate w/d... as happens every f'ing month). I'm angry at myself. I wish I was gone - I want to fall asleep and either wake up next to a pile of drugs or not wake up at all. I wish I wasn't here alone...

Fahk.
 
And if one does not believe oneself to be anything/anyone or perhaps that the realizations are more disturbing and horrifying than the solitude itself. I've already gone through this crap. I was in the better parts of life. New word:

Sweating/freezing
...it counts due to use of 'slash', haha.
 
Drainedddd
Mild poppy pod tea withdrawals. I'm really prone to getting weird shivers and prickling, and the poppy pod tea w/d's are making them go off the chain.
Very aggravating and uncomfortable. No sleep. Bloahhtrhgshar.
 
tryin to stay up beat, had a shitty fucking start to this day, some people are down right cruel and I don't understand why they say the things they do ;-/..
 
BURSTING-best I could think of to describe it. Been off opy for 12!! days, got a nice tatoo (4 cheap!)yesterday, n goin' fishin' today. I really want everyone to feel as good as I do today so am crossing my fingers for all. And yes, I realize this is kind of a pink cloud phenomenon, but it's awesome all the same! Love n Light.
 
Happy.

Met the girl of my dreams now it's just a matter of sealing the deal. :D
 
persistent

I have to follow roomie to drop off her car to get its maintenance done... 30 miles away! She's saving a whole bunch of money by having it done by a mechanic her sister knows. If you know me well, you know I am a skittish driver, but gotta take one for the team on this one.

60 mile round trip for Mariposa tonight!
 
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