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Bluelighter
Unhappy, exhausted, critical.
I didn't take any Vicodin today up until about 3pm, and out of habit and my inability to cope with inward issues, I caved again. I felt like a complete piece of shit the entire time I was high, too. I felt so fucking good for the most part earlier today, but for some reason I just thought of something that bothered me and without even thinking twice, almost out of sheer instinct, I chewed up multiple pills. I'm in the type of mood where I could really, really sit here loathing myself, but that type of method hasn't proven to be effective. Moments like this I really begin to wish so badly that I could get away from all these fucking bottles of pills. Consequently, my addiction has bound me in a very unhealthy environment for someone with my issues.

I didn't take any Vicodin today up until about 3pm, and out of habit and my inability to cope with inward issues, I caved again. I felt like a complete piece of shit the entire time I was high, too. I felt so fucking good for the most part earlier today, but for some reason I just thought of something that bothered me and without even thinking twice, almost out of sheer instinct, I chewed up multiple pills. I'm in the type of mood where I could really, really sit here loathing myself, but that type of method hasn't proven to be effective. Moments like this I really begin to wish so badly that I could get away from all these fucking bottles of pills. Consequently, my addiction has bound me in a very unhealthy environment for someone with my issues.
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