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Heroin/Opioid Thread - Serious Discussion Only

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yeah guitar and skateboarding are my what I hate that I lost. forget the computers, ipods, gaming systems, those to abilities. go figure I also started because when I go hurt boarding a few pills I could go back at it
 
feeling better every hour :) still have stomach issues though. thank goodness for Immodium
 
Ashley26 said:
feeling better every hour :) still have stomach issues though. thank goodness for Immodium
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Glad to hear you are doing well. Kicking opiates is a bitch. I never did heroin more than a few months in a row, and that was difficult and soul-draining as is. As hard as kicking opiates is, I still feel that the hardest part is staying clean. To me it's easy for the first month or two, but then it gets increasingly hard as every day I think about relapsing more and more. Good luck!

Edit: Ashley, what's your dream job by the way that you had to take a test for? I remember I was paranoid this past December because I had to take a drug test for a job and I went on a big stimulant/opiate binge before it, but luckily I passed (I was so worried it would be a hair test). It was for a govt. contracting job, and although not my dream job, I was happy to get a "real job" since I graduated from college in May and was working retail (Borders) ever since then until the New Year.
 
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I feel 10 times worse than yesterday, I don't get it. I am FREEZING, chills all the time, no energy, and my body is aching me. And the worst part is I'm back at work.

I felt so good yesterday, I don't get it :(
 
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Sorry to hear that. Sometimes it feels like you're getting better and then you start to feel shitty again. Are you still taking loperamide? If you take slightly higher than normal dosages (say 6 - 10 pills) it can be very effective at relieving the withdrawals somewhat IME.

As for me, I have made it 60 hours without getting high. This is a record for this month :p I've just been doing a slow taper, last night I drank a 2.5 pod brew (TINY pods) at midnight and I woke up around 12PM this morning in mild withdrawals. So I made a 2 pod brew and drank it with my coffee before work. It's so much nicer to go into work without all of the anxiety of knowing that I'm going to be sick for my entire shift and it's just going to get worse throughout the day.
 
I just don't want to get too constipated with the Immodium since I already have that problem :(
 
Hey ashley for me withdrawls last like 3 days of feeling shit all the time. then I will fell better for a day then I will feel like shit everyother day for like 2 weeks. Then the phisical shit goes away but the depression and boredom become nearly unbearable but eventually that 2 goes away. Hang in there it will only get better.
 
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I just don't want to get too constipated with the Immodium since I already have that problem :(
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I get paranoid about constipation, too. If I can manage it, I make sure to put some flax in my foods where I can. Also, I eat yogurt each night. Are you doing anything along those lines to induce bowel movements ?
 
feeling better again, this is crazy. I almost feel 100%, minus the stomach.

and woamotive, Miralax is great. I used it often when I was taking opiates in high doses. it's a stool softener, makes it easier to pass.
 
Since i moved to a new city my opiate supply is cut off. I actually have chronic pain and was prescribed mscontin and dilaudid for it. But now i can't find a doctor that wioll prescribe me the meds that i need because walk in clinics don't script narcotics. So i am going to the methadone clinic and getting on that. Atleast it will help my pain and keep me from getting sick.

I am more then a little pissed off at the medical setup in this city. It's nothing short of retarded.

Sorry for the rant :|
 
Im about to go into a detox centre to rid my system of methadone, has anyone else ever done this before with methadone? Is there anyone on here willing to talk to me about this subject coz im a bit scareed :(

Any info would be much appreciated, right now im totally confused and kinda freaking out as ive heard horror stories :/
 
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Sorry for the double post but theres another option for me.

I have about 6-8 8mg suboxone pills, is there any chance I could detox myself off methadone with that then once the sub is gone go back to the oxy until I stop to move. Im doing this for 2 reasons. firstly the methadone had neg effects for me and I dont feel im ready to stop partying or awhile. The circumstances since I got on the methadone have changed dramatically and I dont have to hide it anymore and I wont be isolated for long lenths of time anymore. Ill be able to hang around mates while using without copping shit from them.

Anyway I want to be off methadone ASAP and talking to my doctor will make things take much longer.

Any ideas?
 
well it looks like I'm not getting a drug test like I thought. don't employers have to give you written warning they will in your beginning paperwork? I got nothing.

with that being said, I used today. I have mixed feelings about it. I just got through my first opiate detox HELL and it scared the shit out of me, and here I go and use again.
 
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I've been there before where I quit because I "had to." As soon as circumstances improved I was getting high again and all of my suffering was for nothing.

I made it 72 hours tapering and was feeling so much better! This morning I got high (again) and I experienced the warmth/rushing sensation again for the first time in a few weeks. Now that I've come down though I just feel anxious and a little upset to be honest. I'm not even withdrawing and I just feel absolutely terrible, like I don't want to do anything and everything is boring.

I'm getting rather sick of this shit, I just want to be done with it. Fuck opiates.
 
I've been on that constant cycle for a while now ^.

Every week or 2 I claim I'll never do it again. Go through feeling shitty, start feeling better, and then I do the whole thing over.

It makes me depressed that I see what's going on, but I don't do anything about it. Or the things I do, don't seem to work. I don't know how to stay away.
 
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I've been there before where I quit because I "had to." As soon as circumstances improved I was getting high again and all of my suffering was for nothing.

I made it 72 hours tapering and was feeling so much better! This morning I got high (again) and I experienced the warmth/rushing sensation again for the first time in a few weeks. Now that I've come down though I just feel anxious and a little upset to be honest. I'm not even withdrawing and I just feel absolutely terrible, like I don't want to do anything and everything is boring.

I'm getting rather sick of this shit, I just want to be done with it. Fuck opiates.
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it's very much a love/hate relationship for me. I wish I never tried them.
 
this was my first time really detoxing from opiates ever and it made me say I never want to do this again, or use again, because it scared me so much. I was in tears for 3 days of torture.

and then I down a 40 tonight just like that. ugh.
 
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