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Help, still "outta it" after MDMA

Hey Sammy, sounds like you and I are pretty much on the same page, ha I'm actually getting a cold right now, must have been a bad batch right? Ha no for real though I know what you mean with everything, def not thinking about it seems to help allot, however it's especially when I do new things or go new places that I notice it. I'm not as sharp as I used to be and am more easily confused and disoriented. There are times when I feel more normal but never 100%. Def miss feeling the way I used to, looking forward to things and really experiencing them, it's like my wits have been dulled and I don't really have the drive as I did before.

Any way, side note, I also notice that I have like zero desire to drink, I used to love beer, and having a few with friends etc, now I barely have a drop if that. Same goes for smoking but that's not necissarily a bad thing, my point is the desire to do those (and other) things has greatly deminished. Any one ever have a similar experience?

Still it's been a bit over a month, yes I'd say some improvement but realistically I'm still pretty upset with the lack of progress. Take care and thanks all for posting, greatly appreciated.
 
hey man, keep your head up. on halloween i took like half a gram of mdma (supposedly) and had pretty much all the symptoms you're listing. i was on bluelight all the time looking for answers. everyone assured me i'd return back to normal in weeks, and others told me i was just making it up. i wasn't. there were times when things were so bad, i was almost suicidal. i thought i'd ruined my life from one night of hedonistic pleasure.

but here i am 6 months later and i can tell you that i've gotten a lot better. Am i 100%? No. Hardly. If I had to quantify it, I'd say I'm 70%, though it's tough to measure. Regardless, the point is there's been tons of improvement, although it's come at a slow rate. There are even days now when I feel like I haven't improved all that much and I get angry and frustrated. But I know this to be untrue. The fact is, I have. And you will too. Just not as quickly as you'd like. With mdma damage, progress is made in months, not days. Be patient. It really does get better. I'm able to enjoy my life again. Realistically, I feel like within the next year I'll be back to baseline. The normal time frame for recovery is about 1-2 years for this kind of thing based on most studies. But recovery does happen! Stay positive, that's crucial. I'm to the point now where my physical sense of well-being is actually pretty good. However, I've been so stuck in this terrible state of depression and fixation with permanent damage that even when my body is telling me I feel good, my psyche tells me otherwise. But what I'm beginning to learn is that what's so beautiful about the mind is that we control it. It's ours. Even if you're neurotransmitters are screaming bloody murder, remember, you still control your thoughts. And that's a truly powerful weapon. Work on your thoughts during the time it takes to recover. You will recover. And when you do, you'll be stronger for it.
 
sounds more like an amphetamine hangover, due to 500 mg being the first dosage.

Not to be less than sympathetic or anything, but never rule out the possibility of hypochondria... however, REM sleep never lies. If you're not having night terrors of being stabbed in the back, then you're at least past the amphetamine toxicity phase... :) Some 'racetam/glutamate channel exciter of some sort should clean up all the oxidized brain tissue and sort you out, with rest. If you haven't yet been completely dissuaded from messing with your 5HT reuptake pathway, then wait 2 more months before trying out your next roll; keep it under 200 mg. Personally I recommend lots of sunshine.
 
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yeah that is so true when i go somwhere new it does seem to feel a little weirder and that is exactly how i feel not as sharp as i once was i feel like im 95 % there but just cant reach my old self im finding it hard to get motivated especially with being ill but as soon as im done with being ill im going to start exercising as i believ this an important factor to recovery aswell as lead a really healthy lifestyle taking vitamins and omega 3 and eating healthy i notice it alot when im on the computer my eyes arent as sharp and the screen seems everso bright this hasent reduced atal in the last couple of weeks. but i deffonately think exercise will help with the motivation

the worst thing at the moment though is i have notices a ringing in my ears (tinnitus) i noticed it a few days ago im hoping its not been caused by the mdma and by like a a wax build up and can be treated because it is really annoying at night hopefully it goes away

hope you feel better man if i find any progress or anything that is helping alot i will post back to you on here
 
I don't know what your financial situation is but if you can afford $30 I would definitely look into buying a bottle of Cellfood. They also have a variety that comes with SAMe that I've also tried. I've used it while coming down from a roll and it brings you back up for a little while.

Piracetam has been another godsend for MDMA abuse. 5htp I don't like so much but I eat lots of bananas and yogurt for tryptophan lol

Thanks for the new Piracetam source! Amazon stopped carrying it :p Plus I got a pretty nice deal on it pricewise
 
Casey-
almost the same thing happened to me. it's only been a week since I took the e but I feel just like you described. I'm real spacey and just not myself I am pretty scared to be honest. how are you feeling? any better?
let me know if you have any advice or if something worked for you to get back on track.
thanks!
 
Hey love33, sorry to hear your in a similar position. I def know how you feel. Truth is yes I am starting to feel better, Sammy hope your doing well to. Though I'm not at 100% and I still get frustrated some times with how things are I think of how it was a little over a month ago and I realize I'm def better than before. I've done allot of reading up on this as much as I can, seems the consensus is time is mostly the only thing that helps. I've read allot of people taking 3 months to a year or more to get back to 100%. I do know that I am, although slowly, improving. I'm no expert on all this but I'd say a couple of things that "may" have helped me. I was super loading up on 5HTP, vitamins, and other stuff. I still take allot of the Vitamins however have stopped the 5HTP and I think that may have helped a bit. Also I started taking Fish Oil and Ginko, not sure if they helped or if I'm just improving with time but hey worth a shot right? Also exercise seems to help. People have also said to "not worry about it, or try to relax and ignore it" but you know that is MUCH easier said then done. I think worrying about it is one thing but also knowing what you are going through and that there is hope is another. Do research but stay positive. I'm pretty certain that what I'm going through is at least a form of Derealization, knowing that and that it can improve and completely go away I think has helped put my mind at ease a bit. Keep busy and try doing things that you may not want to do like going out, going to new places, puzzles, reading etc, keep your mind busy. Seems to help and at least get the mind going again. Anyways, hope you feel better soon, I'll let you know how it goes and don't be afraid to post anytime, I know it has been helping me allot. Thanks, good luck.
 
hey casey im not doing too bad im up and down sometimes im feeling alot better and others not as but as of recently i have just been feeling really quite dizzy and lightheaded would say im maybe not feeling spaced out as much as i am dizzy but i still got this cold wich has blocked up my sinuses and left me feeling rough wich is annoying as i want to get out and exercise i went back tyo the doctor because of my blocked sinuses and spoke about the side effects i have been having from the mdma and he said if in a week or so your symtoms are still persisting come back and we can run some blood tests etc. how long has it been for you now casey ? good luck man
 
Sounds like derealization/depersonalization to me. Just chill out, stop telling yourself you've damaged your brain and just deal with the shit going on in your life. I'd consider myself a responsible x user, been using for about a year (started at about once every three weeks, at about once every two months now), never have had any lasting "hang over" longer than 3 days. I feel as mentally sharp and I can honestly say its added a little more clarity to my life. Your mileage may vary. Studies done on mdma are very inconclusive, I would stop worrying so much.
 
Hey all, just wanted to check in quick. Anyways started taking piracetam now for about 3 days, not sure if it's me wanting to think it or actually is but I'd say I feel it's working. Def feeling a bit more down to earth, it's not a miracle cure but I really think it's helping. When I compare myself now and before I'd say I'm improving just very very slowly. Also made a DRs appt next week so we will see how that goes. Hope everyone is finding some kind of improvement. Good luck all.
 
hey everyone im feeliing almost completely normal now after 5 long weeks it really hit me hard but i think i have made it through only symptoms im really showing these days are the staticy vision and my eyes are a little sensitive to light but the spaceyness and dizzyness has really faded away best things that seemed to of helped me were EXERCISE, OMEGA 3 FISH OIL, GREEN TEA, MULTIVITAMINS, FRUIT AND VEGTABLES BASICALLY HEALTHY DIET, AND SOCIALIZING MORE YOU DO THINGS TO TAKE YOUR MIND OFF THE WAY YOU FEEL THE MORE IT WILL FADE AWAY THERE IS HOPE PEOPLE
 
Sammy, great to hear that! really glad your doing much better, I as well am feeling improvement, still not 100% but greatly over when I first experienced this all. Also wanted to add, I saw my Dr this past week and discussed everything that was going on, situation, symptoms, what I had used etc. My Dr. seems to think they are all signs of anxiety(derealization) but thats kinda what I figured at this point anyways. Makes sense seeings how I never really enjoyed cannibis before and would get kinda freaked out and that night I smoked WAYYY to much. Most likely I had something of a panic attack and distorted reality. Long story short she advised me to just abstain from everything (including alcohol) that would alter my perception of reality or senses. She also prescribed me Zynex to help the symptoms. Tried it for a few days but not really sure how much it helps vs hurts. Anyways its been almost 2 months and a slow climb but a climb non the less. Hopefully with time I'll be back to baseline.

Oh PS Thomas29, very enlightening comment, you are truly wise beyond measure. Deeply appreciate the solid advice and tutelage.......................... Dick
 
i have experienced this too. both times after excessive use (with mda being worse than mdma). the first time it (obviously) scared the shit out of me and went away within two weeks, but the second time i took some benzos (bromazepam) against the anxiety and felt normal within 4 or 5 days. benzos can be a great help here, but they can be addictive, so be sure to cease use as soon as possible.
 
emergen-c with orange juice is good. can even pop a good multi-vitamin. eat a lot of filling somewhat-nutritional food. go for a jog. just try to bring yourself up out of the comedown. itll go away eventually.
 
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