you'll miss them when they are no longer there
That's true for sure, I experienced this since I was a kid. my dad died when I was about 11 and my mom was already working in the emirates, I pretty much raised myself, once a month my grandma would come to help me out. That's when I fucked up with life and got into shit, not because my dad died but I did not have someone to say "No" once in a while so I made all the stupid decisions and learned from the consequences.
I know how it feels to be alone on holidays, I did not really care about the holiday thing but I was envious too when I saw that people had such a good time with their folks, even then I did not realise the situation I was in, my grandma had cried several times and when I asked her why she told me because I have no one, my mom would talk to me on skype once in a while I know that it was hard for her too.
Although she worked in the Emirates in Abu Dhabi we did not have much money because all the money she earned was spent on the debts we had to the bank bc when my parents divorced ( as my dad was an alcoholic, checked in rehab several times but he always relapsed) she had to buy ourselves a flat and that was the only option.
But I got to enjoy the holidays properly later when she came back, I confessed to a family member that I was heavily addicted to opiates (hoping to be given help so I could get rid of them) and that family member anounced my mom when I was halfway through with the tapper and she left the Emirates to help me get better. I feel sorry for that because she made huge sacrifices to help me several times ( about 6 more exactly) and even now I'm still a fiend...
never thought i'd write the above
Ikr, when I got out of rehab I could not believe that I feel normal again, I spent a month and a half in rehab and was still clean for about 4 months until I started IM'ing K, I got so into IM K that I would use it when I finished work at 6 afternoon until 4 am in the morning so in the end one day I felt so shitty like a K hangover-ish and I thought some tramadol wouldn't hurt and would help me at work. I bought a box so I had some for the next 4 days and I said fuck it, after those 4 days I did not quit anymore because I thought I would be in withdrawal again as one day I tried not to take it and I felt shitty ( but I'm sure it would've been gone in 2 days but jokes on me)