Aww
Hello everyone! Don't really go on here now but just wanted to say thanks for all the nice messages.
So excited to meet our little baby now. He's due on the 27th June. As for names, we considered One Thousand Words, Jesus, or simply just 'Bluelight' but in the end we've decided he'll probably be called Finley.
Appreciate the thought OTW but not really sure whose life is ruined here. Let me set some things straight. Something significantly fucked my life up months before I joined here, and it was getting to know and meeting Dan that saved it.
I went from needing drugs to being able to enjoy them, on my own and then for a year with him. I still struggled sometimes but for the first time in my life I didn't have to struggle on my own and I had a reason not to let it get out of control.
When I found out that I was pregnant it was one of the best moments of my life and I can't wait to meet our baby. I'd had over a year of crazy fun with someone who I still think is my soulmate and now we're going to grow up and move onto another exciting adventure and I'll have the little family I always wanted with the person I'll always want to be with.
Blame being almost 7 months pregnant for the soppiness but eh. Ultimately I guess it comes down to the fact that I'd rather be standing in the kitchen with my lovely babies vomit on me than passed out on the floor from a smack overdose with my own vomit on me. Which was the way I was going for a bit last September.
I'm going to end up with a family and not a horrible drug addiction and I'll always be thankful for that and know how lucky I am. Whatever it's been for others, joining Bluelight meant that I now have 2 people in my life who I love more than anything. What more could I ask for than that
Annnnd that's me off for another few months, bye scumbags
Do plenty of drugs for me
