I had the panic attacks the last time I kicked it, and they lasted a long time. I went on Wellbutrin a month after stopping last time, and stayed on it for 4+ months. But the problem with W is that you can't sleep whatsoever. Doesn't matter how tired you are you just can't fall asleep. I had to drink a glass of wine or an OTC sleep aid to go to sleep. Then there's the shakiness and dry mouth too. At other times you can't concentrate. It also makes you feel like a zombie where you don't have any feelings. It did help with anxiety and the depression but it didn't make me any happier per se or more optimistic.
I work out as much as I can. Sometimes 2 times a day. I try and eat good to. What I noticed is that not sleeping good totally makes it much worse. Drinking alcohol makes it better for a new hours but the next day I'm in the dumps. So I've decided to avoid alcohol or drink very minimally.
Coffeine is ok here and there but can't drink tOo much. I do it to get a small lift when I have no energy.
My work has been really bad lately, and my family life has never been ok. Romantic life, I'm still struggling with my ex of 5+ years. We are friends, but I feel really down every time I see her.
My entire outlook on life is really negative right now. I keep asking myself if I'm simply depressed because of life or is it the weed. But the timeline can't be disputed: I quit in 12/13/16, and the last time the withdrawals were at it's worse between 60 -120 days. Particularly 90.
I'm freaking out that I've destroyed my life, and that I'm only gonna get worse. The thought is terrifying and crippling. I know I've beaten this before but this time it seems much stronger. Like an enemy you've beaten who's come back with a vengeance. God give me the strength that I need. This is truly hell.