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Recovery For Those Of You Who Quit Weed

Smoking weed used to take me to a place far away, and it truly was magic. All those beautiful nights spent in wonderland, it was a magical time. But once the dust settled, it no longer worked. It became no different than watching a cartoon. Reality became too real, the high too fake. Where I used to be able To let go in my place of escape, I could no longer do so. The mind refused to let go of the real life and the Highs became obsolete.

I will get back to being myself one day, no matter how long it takes.
 
I hate to admit it, but I've suffered a major setback. Over the course of the past 10 days, I took MDMA 2 times in 5 days. The results are devastating. All my progress made has been thrown out the window. Last use was 3/22 and 5 days later my depression and anxiety is beyond description. I am very mad at myself for allowing this to happen.

I have not touched weed since 12-13, so that is still in tact. I hope to God this doesn't last long. I have read that many people suffer at least 2-3 setbacks from their attempts to be clean from drugs, and I hope this is something which will pass
 
Hi, LawerLife... how are you feeling now that a few days have gone by since your MDMA experiences?

I hope you can give yourself a bit of latitude on this. I highly doubt that this slip nullified all the progress you've made. As you rightly point out, for many, many people, lapses are a natural part of recovery. The crucial thing about them is simply to come back from them and keep moving towards your goals. Slip-ups are *extremely* frustrating, for sure. But they don't necessarily mean much in the larger scheme of getting better.
 
9 days after my MDMA setback, I'm finally done with the panic attacks. The anxiety and depression are still there but manageable.

I'm determined to keep going.
 
cj said:
The first 2 weeks ducked now I don't even think about it. Been like 6 months I thinks
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Sorry to have lost track of where you stand, but, cj...you're off weed? I guess that makes sense due to UA's. I just ask b/c the timeframe you mention is interesting to me and I wanted to make sure I was reading it right.
 
Feeling better finally after the stupidity of doing MDMA. Almost 4 months since I last smoked up
 
Yeah I haven't smoked in almost 6 months. I quit smoking and picked up a benzo habit so it was a shit trade the methadone clinic forced on me. That 6 months could he wrong but it feels right... at the very least 4 months. Though I have had 2 or 3 slips in that time. I'm talking everyday fail a UA use.
 
Day 152 - Mind is as clear as it can be. Anxiety and depression as well as mood swings are still present.
 
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