Back from the docs, I told her what I had taken 5 days ago and explained all thats happened. I could barely talk, my voice was weak and shaky and its safe to say she did not look very happy. She prescribed me diazepam to relieve the anxiety and help me sleep. So hopefully tonight I will get my first good sleep without the nightmares. Everytime I started to drop of earlier I felt like i was in a washing machine, my head was spinning and my whole body felt like I was falling through space and the buzzing in my head got louder so I must have managed about 10 seconds of sleep at a time before I would wake up frightened at all the strange sensations I was experiencing.
I'm still not sure if I actually had a fit in the night, I remember my whole body spasmed and I was thinking this is it I'm going to have a stroke and die. Then I came to, everything is so surreal I am still not sure if that was another nightmare or whether it actually happened.
I won't bore everyone for much longer, I'm starting to feel a bit more like my old self now, still very detached from the world but things are definitely improving. I just hope once again I am over the worst of it. This drug has the habit of tricking you into thinking that your better and the suddenly wham all the symptoms hit you again and your back to stage one.
To anyone thinking of trying this stuff, whether its pellet or capsule, don't bother. I read a few bad reviews before I took but like a dumbass ignored them because I thought they may be scare mongering and had the whole belief that it will never happen to me anyway.
Well here's hoping to some normality soon after what now should be described as my 120 hrs of benzo fury hell and still not out the woods yet.
Take care people and don't be an idiot like me, I am still waiting to see if I will fully return to reality and my normal self. Only time will tell if the damage is permanent or not, these RC's are not worth it.