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Exercise 4 Health, Mental Health, and Addiction vs. I worked all that out

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Nice work!

My upper body is totally out of action until I get surgery so I bought a new bike (singlespeed) so I can at least work on getting some strength back in to them.
 
Not my best today but I was amazed on how I powered through my workout. I was struggling, my legs were burning and my muscles hurt. I was thinking I am close to that monthly friend visit =D ohh the joys of being a woman huh 8)
 
^nice that sounds sooo relaxing right now!!

I have to take 3 days off cause I need my new tattoos to heal up a bit then I will resume to my crazy routines. I miss it already!!
 
^pic sent :D

I think I should go to the gym tomorrow, I mean I can always exercise other parts of my body like weights as long as the hips part doesnt get touched/sweat. I will probly do some chest press, bench press and situps for the most part.
 
Just rode my new singlespeed up the four mile countinuous hill home at a pretty fast pace.

Crashed out enjoying the endorphines and rehydrating now.%)
 
I just started going to the gym before work yesterday. I'm going to go every week day, and probably Saturdays too. I am really out of shape due to years of opiate addiction but I have recently kicked that finally and I realized how important it is for me to be in shape, mentally even more than physically. And plus I'll look a lot better too, which is important for me because my only adult relationship/marriage of 12 years ended recently and I have to get back out there. :)
 
Two rest days a week man, you need to give your body time to repair itself for the best results.

Also, careful not to let obsession take over, many people do that with the whole gym thing when they get clean. On the whole sounds like you've got that zest for life back though which is really nice to hear.:)
 
^You are amazing X.

I cant say how much exercise has done foe my recovery. I recovered from a very long illness and from all the drugs at the same time. I was just under 200 pounds at the end. This basically is me in starvation. I was so damn weak and emaciated. I started working out in december.. I could hardly lift anything and couldn't even jog for three minutes. In this little time I can now jog over three miles (over 4.8 k) with out hardly getting winded. I push 415 on the slide rack, three sets of 30 with a to point finish on the end, I am lifting four or fives times what i was in december on everything. after working out I really feal amazing.. stress, anxiety, gone.. when I walk its like a different person.. Im strong.. I sleep so much better. Shit that used to be a chore is so easy now. Sex is better. I look great and I feal great.

I just make sure that I have approached this differently that the drugs.. I listen to my body and don't go overboard. I fucken love it.

Yeah, run with that.. once you get into the swing of things it just becomes a great part of your life.. take it slow.. I did and in just a few months I am astounded at the difference in so many areas.

Walked, ran for two miles today, lifted hard chest, arms, and legs.. I feal great. :)
 
Went to hot yoga class tonight after work. I wasnt able to work out for about three days so I felt like it wasntmy best. I felt weak and unstable on some of the positions but I was still able to power it through the whole session. I need to get back into the routine again to get into practice more and get my core into flow again.
 
^ I still gotta sign up for yoga. In just afraid of judgement :\
 
neversickanymore said:
^You are amazing X.
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Thank you so much. :) <3 Yeah I was really skinny and weak too by the end. I couldn't afford enough food because of drugs, and I always put off eating when in withdrawal because I could summon only enough motivation to work and keep a roof over my head. I wanted to sit or lay down all the time, I'd have to take breaks from sitting in my computer chair at work to lay down and rest my back because my core was/is really weak. A few days after the ibogaine, when I was still reeling and I had slipped up slightly, I was in the shower and looked down and was freaked out by how pronounced my ribs were. It was like in that moment I got this resolve to get healthy. Now after just 3 days of working out hard in the morning, I can barely see my ribs (I am really thin, like 150 when I'm in shape, and 6 feet tall), and I have muscle definition. I have always been able to see my ribs at least slightly, but this time I am going to keep up working out and I'll end up with more muscle than I've ever had... I've never really worked out for long periods of time in my life, though I used to be a lot more active which kept me in better shape.

I am honestly astounded by the difference in just 3 days, I'm sure months in will be really great. :) The amount of better I feel is very significant already. And I have no problem staying in a good mood every day, which is super important for recovery. In the past ever time I quit opiates I didn't really do the work to change, I kept living the same way and I always went back. This time I am doing the work, getting healthy (I am also eating very healthily and eating a lot), and getting counseling/therapy. I feel 100% confident in myself to stay clean and actually successfully turn my life around, I will of course be vigilant and keep doing the work, but as I see it there is no chance of me screwing it up again.
 
There's always a chance...imo of course.

If I can make the progress you seem to be making when I do my detox I will be so pleased. Both dreading it and can't wait for it at the same time.
 
I will indeed, I've done so many detoxes in the past I know I can do it and make some progress.

It's staying away from opiates/benzos/cocaine/crack/ketamine in the long term I don't have any faith in.:\
 
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aq. said:
^ I still gotta sign up for yoga. In just afraid of judgement :\
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Don't worry hun I will personally go there at your yoga class if someone judges you :D

If you want we can go together once you visit ;)
 
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