Hi guys.
I'm not exactly a pill expert, however having browsed this forum and pillreports has been pretty insightful.
I've only taken pills -- whatever was in them in the end, I'm not sure -- a few times. The last being at my 21st in January, and the first being New Years Eve 2008/09. With the exception of one incident October last year (and the experiences seem to be very similar to MDA), I have only taken half a pill at a time. I have never experienced such a long lasting, euphoric, loving feeling that occurred during my first time; ever since then the experiences have been enjoyable, but never like 'that'.
Having read of MDMA droughts since mid 2000's, I wonder if my first time even contained MDMA. I am pretty confident that all subsequent experiences weren't MDMA, but the first time was just so amazing. I wonder, though, it might have been because it was my first ever time having a pill; a placebo effect? Was MDMA circulating more in late 2008 than it was now? I remember taking it at like 9.30pm, and the 'come down' started about 3am or so (though smoking a joint reignited the peak-like feelings). Every other time the come down -- and sometimes not even a good peak -- was like after 1.5 hours - 2 hours. I look back on photos and my pupils are epically dilated, and until this day I have never looked so genuinely happy and loving with the world and others in photos. The few days after I had such an afterglow; every other time, if anything, I get a bit morose. I guess I'll never know now.
I'm wanting to take a pill again in the last weekend of October, but knowing that MDMA/MDxx is so scarce at this time I wonder if it's worth the effort. I read about these green elephants on pillreports, and I bet half a pill would do me just fine if it's the real deal, but there are comments accusing the OP to be fake (no photo, no detailed report etc).
Do you guys believe that the green elephants are real?
Sorry that my post sounds so naive!