EADD-Heroin-Discussion-v-XXIII-New shit - same old problems

[F.U.B.A.R.]

I have some sort of cognitive dyslexia where I often write things as they sound in my head, and on occasion pronounce things as I visualise them. The most embarrassing one that springs to mind was when I repeatedly pronounced apartheid like "aparr - theed" before I realised what I was doing, as I had been asked to repeat it, unconsciously repeating the performance just for the amusement of the fans...

I know what ya mean. I spent years referring to 'pharmaceuticals' as 'pharmacuticles', as opposed to 'pharmasooticles'. Man, I felt like a right tit when I was corrected...

Anyway, back on topic, heroin - it's shit innit?

 

[steewith2ees]

Absolutement. I've dragged the tone of the thread down to pure testy cless now, quite similar to the last lump of gear I got which was just balls.

 

[fightingthetoot]

Hey yall , not been on in a while, couldn't see post about gear really, just let yall know how av been doing , not like any you give a fuck , but I find it helps me.

Been scoring semi regularly , only when I get told off good sources such & such has good gear, and none have been a whopper, so far. But I am being a really silly boy and when I use my subs I need to use diazepam to fill that hole, ridiculous but just how it seems, so have been on them well over a month now and with the dry up of , teva crescents actavis, I have been getting generics and msj, I can tell the difference between the fakes and real ones. Because of lack of boxes they are so many dodgy ones, plenty of the good old wwD10s kicking about, ranging from, "decent" ones with at least something simarlar, to ones where they can't even be arsed to get a dye and flinging em out as white wwd10s , and people keep taking , I am guilty i was told of somebody who's opinion on diazepam i trust and he told me a guy had ones, if they weren't diazepam it's was the closest thing I was gonna get. I went got a 100, next time I went back was dodgy ones, not for me i want to live, they have been so many deaths in recent months, even. BBC3 done a small doc on it but it was just junkies. They sat while he took "blues" aka diazepam, he was taking tubs ones stamped "NTZ" other side had 0.1 , the problem is the programme was meant to about blues and diazepam, what he was taking was ezitolam, was a fail tbf!!

A grabbed 50 India generics today, and was told my bag man had fire, so obv like a dick I went, only got 1, it's gave me a buzz, if a had just got 2 I would been smashed, but so far and they won't now mention or think av been on the gear, but my main issue is why have i swapped these pills for b, and tell you what I won't take b if av no diazepam either , diazepam is number one now. But it's an easier life (so far)

 

[fightingthetoot]

As stated above no one gives a fuck, and why should they? Us junkies are selfish breeds, well most. But as I said it helps me,

After yesterday's little dabble with the evil mistress, so my missus is up at 6, need money, cause no money no fun, lucky shops literally 2 mins away and got a hole in the wall, head round and grab what I need and some cash for her too, come back, jump into bed watched her get ready and she was looking so hot , a gave it to her silly last night but gear/subs/vals/docmeds one of them is stopping me and on gear and subs I could no problem , so it's one of the others that's stopping me coming at night but can fire one out in the morning like normal, I beg but obv I got told to fuck off she wasn't going in "stinking of it" lol so that was that, but I wasnt letting the chance go ,soon as she was out the door I had youjizz on the phone , I could have went on it with her there but for whatever reason I didn't , bashed one out and it felt weird does it to me when I havnt shot my load in a few days and the mess i was prepared tho but ad rather she swallowed it instead , anyway back to sleep till half 9 , up shower, not feeling rough at all, had 10 yellows and my new doc meds so was in no rush, i only got one bag yesterday and it was good but needed to get 2 to properly hit the spot , so that's what i got and picked up another 25 generics yellows, but i have been taking them for a 6/8 weeks every day and definetly different potency to them, if i was just taking my subs and would have still got the yellows, they fill hole left by no junk, and it's easier to hide and not so much trouble as junk, i have been around vals for year but if i get habit then can't get i am fucked and am sure my drug workers not gonna be impressed she said next app i will be tested cow, anyway got home today, bliss as said already had 8 yellows took another 5 and smoked 2 bags and i was fucked for well over an hour forced myself to move cause missus is home early on Fridays and av done hehaw and that's not like me with just vals and subs.

There you go folks, more shit not to read lol

 

[F.U.B.A.R.]

As stated above no one gives a fuck, and why should they? Us junkies are selfish breeds, well most. But as I said it helps me,

After yesterday's little dabble with the evil mistress, so my missus is up at 6, need money, cause no money no fun, lucky shops literally 2 mins away and got a hole in the wall, head round and grab what I need and some cash for her too, come back, jump into bed watched her get ready and she was looking so hot , a gave it to her silly last night but gear/subs/vals/docmeds one of them is stopping me and on gear and subs I could no problem , so it's one of the others that's stopping me coming at night but can fire one out in the morning like normal, I beg but obv I got told to fuck off she wasn't going in "stinking of it" lol so that was that, but I wasnt letting the chance go ,soon as she was out the door I had youjizz on the phone , I could have went on it with her there but for whatever reason I didn't , bashed one out and it felt weird does it to me when I havnt shot my load in a few days and the mess i was prepared tho but ad rather she swallowed it instead , anyway back to sleep till half 9 , up shower, not feeling rough at all, had 10 yellows and my new doc meds so was in no rush, i only got one bag yesterday and it was good but needed to get 2 to properly hit the spot , so that's what i got and picked up another 25 generics yellows, but i have been taking them for a 6/8 weeks every day and definetly different potency to them, if i was just taking my subs and would have still got the yellows, they fill hole left by no junk, and it's easier to hide and not so much trouble as junk, i have been around vals for year but if i get habit then can't get i am fucked and am sure my drug workers not gonna be impressed she said next app i will be tested cow, anyway got home today, bliss as said already had 8 yellows took another 5 and smoked 2 bags and i was fucked for well over an hour forced myself to move cause missus is home early on Fridays and av done hehaw and that's not like me with just vals and subs.

There you go folks, more shit not to read lol

Just keep fighting that toot mate - it does get better in the end.

 

[consumer]

Seriously glad i hated smack. This is one depressing thread. What a shit drug.

 

[zaramorf]

its me

amazing how many of the regulars from this thread have all decided to get clean,or disappeared with the uncertainty that they may be either dead or clean or locked up.been trying to contact a few of the people who started out here during the dark days of the heroin availability thread.could use some help if anyone has tabs on people?

just to let u knowim back hehe

 

[zaramorf]

Hello Bluelight, long time no post. I have not been using - not because of a particular aversion to opiate usage, but because since the great drought I have really struggled to get anything worth taking. Having chased good report after good report I finally gave up chasing something I was never getting. The gear simply hasn't given me a proper nod in about 5 years. Plenty of 'feeling normal', plenty of what feel like benzo-gouges but a proper nod, no. I have even tapered my meth down to about 20mls, very, very slowly, lol. You'd think that no use and very little (relatively) methadone would result in getting completely wasted when I next use. Like those warnings you hear from your drug worker saying "be careful if you don't use for a while, you can easily OD". While I fully believe this to be true, I have not had the luck to score anything that would take you over...no matter how much you took.

Last week I did have some stuff that worked, maybe 5 or so bags could've got me drooling but the guy did not have it. And that is the best I can hope for (from the street). Fucking sad state of affairs. Is the 'shiver up your spine and warmth extending into your fingertips/toes' still even a thing? On your first line or two? Remember that?

I firmly believe that over the course of the last few years, many addicts have actually spent substantial periods of time where their habit is next to nothing (maybe even clean) whilst still scoring just as much as ever every day. So much is psychological. This is not just conjecture either, my drug worker (and another one) have said that they have had many occasions where addicts have been testing clean from opiates from mouth swabs, after admitting that they had used on top of their scripts.

im with ya mate all the way, just come back to see if anything had changed.. arh

 

[endlessnameless]

Tapered down with the last two bags I had from when I wrote that last post to now, which I something I thought I'd never be able to do. Think I have a tooter upstairs. Basically I was smoking about two lines in the morning to get rid of those chills/get the motivation to pull off the covers and put me trousers on.

Thats it now, as I got a call on Friday night from the chap I buy trannex from (who'd been out of business a month) to say he just got a massive amount in. I always found getting off gear a doddle one I had a decent supply of trannex there so I'll take 40 off him on Monday and he's going to hold onto a further 160 (or 8 packs of 20) for me in case he runs out over the chrimbo as he got an order in for 500 from some chap in prison and what with the stress of christmas and staying away from gear I know I'll need them.

Really looking forward to a cluck free christmas, just give me a few trannex (typically 8 straight down the hatch) and I my friend am good to go. Its
worth mentioning that if I take them for three days in a row, on the fourth day I get nothing from them - at which point I have to stop for a couple of days until my tolerance drops. This is great as it means I cant build up a physical habit.

I also have all my money this week from not buying gear and withdrawals, if they are to come at all, with be the most minimal imaginable. Because I've managed to keep my habit a baby-habit of at most one bag a day, the worst withdrawals I would have been due had I not done that taper would have been severe anxiety/depression/insomnia (all of which the alprazolam takes very good care of) and some hot/cold sweats.

The hot/cold sweats is something I still cannot full rid myself of during withdrawals, but what does help with the high temperature is Lemsip. The alprazolam also keep my heart rate down which does have an affect on the hot/cold sweats but doesnt completely rid me of them. The general sense of well being I get from being freed of the the intense anxiety/depression that comes from withdrawal is enough to get me through it anyway.

Like I said, I'll make a post around the 12th and give an official update on how I feel. Today, not too bad. Quite bored but getting into the routine of showering to get rid of the chills/sweats, shaving every other day, getting the moment I wake up and I'm keeping myself busy by playing around with FL Studio and my MIDI Keyboard. Any mods know if theres a Music forum on Bluelight?

Trying to get some work for over the christmas too with the hope that they might take me on in the new year. As long as I'm feeling like myself again by the time they pull me in for an interview then I'll be flying. Set up a meeting with my employment worker for December 20th too by which time any lingering symptoms should be gone.

Looking forward to getting that natural zest for life back anyway. When you're depressed while smoking heroin and depressed when you've no heroin to smoke, its time to knock it on the head. Looking forward to updating on the 12th. Take care and stay safe folks.

 

[steewith2ees]

with FL Studio and my MIDI Keyboard. Any mods know if theres a Music forum on Bluelight?

"Electronic Music Discussion" http://www.bluelight.org/vb/forums/15-Electronic-Music-Discussion

There should be threads on there to promote your wares if you feel it appropriate

 

[zaramorf]

can somebody send me a link for a website where i can buy a test to test the purity of h..... please!

me n my bf are always debating what is in the gear, he thinks it fentynal, i'm not sure but is there a lot of fent going round?

 

[ordinary mind]

can somebody send me a link for a website where i can buy a test to test the purity of h..... please!

me n my bf are always debating what is in the gear, he thinks it fentynal, i'm not sure but is there a lot of fent going round?

Your best bet would be sending a sample off to Wedinos. They only require a minute amount to do an analysis on it, and in return you'll find out exactly what is in your h including active compounds and major bulking agents.

Pure fentanyl and fentanyl analogues are readily available relatively cheaply from online sources, so it is definitely possible that it is getting used as an active cut. Supposedly this is a pretty common practice in the US.

 

[monstanoodle]

THERE BE A DROUGHT HAPPENIN GUYS n GALS!! :/

The bloke my guy got his shit from was askin for what he gave him back... So it's BAAAAD bad -_-
Always arround krimbo or fuckin what?

So if you can get good stuff, then stock up QUICK-SHARP! :/

 

[steewith2ees]

Its been shite by me for weeks. I still have bags left from the last lot I got about a fortnight ago. So nasty it hurt my arm and it's too weak just to smoke so I didn't bother finishing it. I'm going to get one more lot for Christmas night and then I suppose that will have to be the last of it.

 

[keeping]

yeah i've heard there's a bit of a drought in south ldn thru a friend
the end days

 

[Commix]

So I had a banging (well, what I thought was banging anyway, I don't use heroin often but shiiiit) bit of brown last night, had that fucking awful horrible poppy taste but I was nodding for the first time HARD after smoking it on the foil, like full-on head-to-keyboard nodding Shit made me throw up repeatedly though which always happens, and I was quite nauseous this morning but overall a 9/10 experience, all after asking a North-Welsh baghead when I was methed up LOL

 

[consumer]

So I had a banging (well, what I thought was banging anyway, I don't use heroin often but shiiiit) bit of brown last night, had that fucking awful horrible poppy taste but I was nodding for the first time HARD after smoking it on the foil, like full-on head-to-keyboard nodding Shit made me throw up repeatedly though which always happens, and I was quite nauseous this morning but overall a 9/10 experience, all after asking a North-Welsh baghead when I was methed up LOL

Be careful Commix. You are playing with fire. It rarely ends well for those who indulge in the poppy.

 

[matt<3ketamine]

Santa doesn't deal in brown, only snow

 

[ordinary mind]

Santa doesn't deal in brown, only snow

The Easter bunny on the other hand...

 

[consumer]

I always though Rudolf's nose was red from rubbing it. He is on the gear for sure.