Perkins : Reborn
Bluelighter
So the etizolam ran out and the Martin Dows ran out.
I'm unbelievably at the point where I think benzos just aren't worth it except to quell extreme anxiety. I hate the mental haze; it feels like my IQ has been sawn into tiny pieces. I hate losing track of what day it is, and getting a surprise alarm on 'Sunday'. And there isn't much fun at all. A little bit if you throw in the booze, but then you'll probably have to contend with the staggers and bump into walls on your way to bed.
Really wish we still had barbiturates. Even scoring heroin would at least have given me a proper high.
Benzos just aren't worth it, and they'll be on your back before you know it.
I'm unbelievably at the point where I think benzos just aren't worth it except to quell extreme anxiety. I hate the mental haze; it feels like my IQ has been sawn into tiny pieces. I hate losing track of what day it is, and getting a surprise alarm on 'Sunday'. And there isn't much fun at all. A little bit if you throw in the booze, but then you'll probably have to contend with the staggers and bump into walls on your way to bed.
Really wish we still had barbiturates. Even scoring heroin would at least have given me a proper high.
Benzos just aren't worth it, and they'll be on your back before you know it.
