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Drug Sabbatical Support & Appreciation Thread
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strungout2010
Bluelighter
Man , I just read this and realised that my drinking has got out of control this last 10 years since I stopped puffing. I found it harder & harder to get hash and skunk just fucked with my anxiety. I hadn't thought about it till now.
cherrycolouredfunk
Bluelighter
On the road to happiness
One would think.
I'm not doing so well just now. Thinking of who I can get tick off (there is someone) as I'm in so much fucking pain, and am stamping my feet like a little girl and tears are close, 3 days now!
Fucks sake. Boy has just gone out to get a pool Q of K which will be consumed by me him and some mates in no time. Need pain relief. I've never had sunburn this bad, that's on top of my fucking cluck. Chick chick chick chick chicken, lay a little egg of cling film filled with brown for meeeeee!
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I feel I can post in here, I'm only taking Benzos at the mo, no stims non Booze...that's not bad going in my book any how
Nor so sure about the above anymore the Diaz is getting a bit out of hand (I have a drug councilor meeting this week)
But what with having to suddenly stop an SSRI and getting all Moody the missus is just about fed up with it all, reckon I'll be in a bedsit by the end of the month
jancrow
Bluelighter
It's good, thanks. I can't remember exactly when I had the last one but I think it was last Sunday night, possibly Monday. Only a week under my belt but it's been the easiest break so far. You still off it?
Jabberwocky
Frumious Bandersnatch
glad its goin well jancrow!!! pretty admirable. did you have any sleeping problems or moodiness? and hope its goin good for you danny too.
i have just slashed my weed budget (to £30 a week, from £60- 80) and every night kick myself for it. i would try just stopping completely but can't sleep naturally and don't need any more excuses to take benzos right now. i kick myself either way. that nearly £200 a month is saved is a dream trip in a year and a bits time. though i'm picking up the slack with booze and benzos. grrrr.
oh and cherry good luck with your meetings. really hope you get things under control before your job starts, its easy to go on a massive blowout when you know you'll be forced to stop something soon. and eat something!!!! says the slight hypocrite.
i have just slashed my weed budget (to £30 a week, from £60- 80) and every night kick myself for it. i would try just stopping completely but can't sleep naturally and don't need any more excuses to take benzos right now. i kick myself either way. that nearly £200 a month is saved is a dream trip in a year and a bits time. though i'm picking up the slack with booze and benzos. grrrr.
oh and cherry good luck with your meetings. really hope you get things under control before your job starts, its easy to go on a massive blowout when you know you'll be forced to stop something soon. and eat something!!!! says the slight hypocrite.
cherrycolouredfunk
Bluelighter
Just been out to score some smack on my own (something I hate doing as I have to go to deep dark depths of where I live, and my boyfriend is connected enough to do it for me, but he's harm reductioning me and refusing) for the LAST time. Appointment for drug dip test, and a script tomorrow. Here's to a clean Cherry!
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monstanoodle
Bluelight Crew
Go for it hun ~♥ You'll school it
~♥ You'll school it
cherrycolouredfunk
Bluelighter
Go for it hun
I fucking hope so. Thank you
It's a shame just one line has fixed how shit i've been feeling all day. The taste now revolts me though, and I being around mates who pin up regularly is having a bad influence on me. I was tempted the other day, and I know some, not all, but some of the friends im currently keeping would be happy to enable it. Though, watching my friend, stood in my boyfriends living room with her jeans half way down and a needle hanging out of her groin with two bloody holes on show wasn't really fantastic viewing!
I kicked drink, and replaced it with this, so I just need to find something healthy and wholesome to replace this with!
I'll do it!
monstanoodle
Bluelight Crew
Aye I've been tempted a few times by the pin...
There's far too much to lose though and fuck all to gain.
Seeing that scene would definitely put me off too!
It seems that exercise is definitely a fantastic thing to "replace" drug use with It's helped loads of people so maybe give that a go? Wish I wasn't so "lazy" and could get my shit together to stop myself really... Ah well.
Best of luck chuck!
There's far too much to lose though and fuck all to gain.
Seeing that scene would definitely put me off too!
It seems that exercise is definitely a fantastic thing to "replace" drug use with
It's helped loads of people so maybe give that a go? Wish I wasn't so "lazy" and could get my shit together to stop myself really... Ah well.Best of luck chuck!
B9
Bluelight Crew
You could say the same about taking all opiate drugs, it's all about short term gain
cherrycolouredfunk
Bluelighter
^^ Yep, the needle has been a temptaition for a couple of weeks now, but I know that I would hurt so many people who care for me, as well as myself! My boyfriend would leave me, he's told me as much.
A ten bag don't touch me any more, I'm up to a gramme now, so to my brain, pinning seems the next thing to do, but i'm fucking putting an end to it. I have enough scars on my arms to end up with more.
I need to get my bike fixed (flat tyre again) as up until a couple of weeks ago I was whizzing around all over on it. I've been using my boys BMX which has no brakes, had one nasty fall resulting in 20 bruises and some cuts but that wasn't as I was sober. Going to sell my bike, as it's got heavy full suspension and get me a BMX as I love whizzing around on them, as tehy're so light, especially as bristol is hill city, standing upright using my thighs to push is much easier on a BMX compared to a double suspension mountain bike!!!
A ten bag don't touch me any more, I'm up to a gramme now, so to my brain, pinning seems the next thing to do, but i'm fucking putting an end to it. I have enough scars on my arms to end up with more.
I need to get my bike fixed (flat tyre again) as up until a couple of weeks ago I was whizzing around all over on it. I've been using my boys BMX which has no brakes, had one nasty fall resulting in 20 bruises and some cuts but that wasn't as I was sober. Going to sell my bike, as it's got heavy full suspension and get me a BMX as I love whizzing around on them, as tehy're so light, especially as bristol is hill city, standing upright using my thighs to push is much easier on a BMX compared to a double suspension mountain bike!!!
cherrycolouredfunk
Bluelighter
Groin-shooting is very bad indeed. I remember wincing as I watched a woman I scored with injecting into her hand. I mean, fuck... so many nerves there. Scary.
And Cherry, for fuck's sake, a gram? That's just out of control. I stopped at .6 - .8 last year, and that was mental enough. I know you're taking positive steps, so please get out of that place.
And yeah, exercise is a great substitute once you make the commitment. Well said, Monsta.
And Cherry, for fuck's sake, a gram? That's just out of control. I stopped at .6 - .8 last year, and that was mental enough. I know you're taking positive steps, so please get out of that place.
And yeah, exercise is a great substitute once you make the commitment. Well said, Monsta.
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B9
Bluelight Crew
Try your foot - that really is uncomfortable
cherrycolouredfunk
Bluelighter
Yeah, my mate is currently using his wrist. It was me who took him to get kitted out, as he came to my house with the same needle for three days running, I saw the state of his arm from blunt needle damage and I flipped at him!! Took him to the needle exchange I go ton and got him sorted. I was in two minds with myself afterwards, as I couldn't decide if i'd enabled him, or done a good thing. He would have kept on doing it anyway, so I did a good thing.
My female mate has holes in her groin.
Foot, no thanks.
My female mate has holes in her groin.
Foot, no thanks.
brimz
Bluelighter
This is a pretty depressing but very real thread.
@ Cherry , opiate addiction is huge and u may not sucseed straight away but i've no doubt that you don't want that type of life. You will get 2 where u want to be eventually i'm SURE.
I myself am in no position 2 judge anyone for Drug dependency as i've done some of the worst things mentioned in the last few posts.
It's abit of a wake up actually cos i've been drifting in n out of use 4 ages Years in fact.
Maybe i am ready to sort myself properly , only i really no n i've bullshitted myself very well in the past.
Anyhow to anyone struggling atm your not alone n Much Love.
@ Cherry , opiate addiction is huge and u may not sucseed straight away but i've no doubt that you don't want that type of life. You will get 2 where u want to be eventually i'm SURE.
I myself am in no position 2 judge anyone for Drug dependency as i've done some of the worst things mentioned in the last few posts.
It's abit of a wake up actually cos i've been drifting in n out of use 4 ages Years in fact.
Maybe i am ready to sort myself properly , only i really no n i've bullshitted myself very well in the past.
Anyhow to anyone struggling atm your not alone n Much Love.
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I'd really love to see you sort yourself completely Brimz but for the most part you know your limits and the possible dangers and that's what makes you a great contributor, no matter what you've done in the past. I've done some stupid shit in the past too; pretty sure a lot of people here have.
Having people with that kind of experience around (and the advice they can offer) hopefully stops some people making the same mistakes.
As for my own booze sabbatical, it's not exactly running that smoothly but the knowledge it's destroying my friendships and scaring people has made me determined to make a proper go of it. I've lost a lot of friends because of coke (in the past) and booze (past and present) and I've finally realised that it's unfair and upsetting for the people who have stood by me.
Having people with that kind of experience around (and the advice they can offer) hopefully stops some people making the same mistakes.
As for my own booze sabbatical, it's not exactly running that smoothly but the knowledge it's destroying my friendships and scaring people has made me determined to make a proper go of it. I've lost a lot of friends because of coke (in the past) and booze (past and present) and I've finally realised that it's unfair and upsetting for the people who have stood by me.
tambourine-man
Bluelight Crew
In case you wanted validating... yes, you did the right thing.
Needle damage isn't enough to stop people in most cases.
cherrycolouredfunk
Bluelighter
^ Didn't really need it validating. I couldn't watch him fuck himself up.
Just back from my drugs worker. Got a full house, (Crack, Smack, Benzos, Speed and MDMA) on my drug dip test so she's started me on a supervised Subutex script. 4mg's to take away today, then 8mg's supervised dose at chemist daily, but take home on weekends thank fuck! Cherry is leaving Smackville. Hopefully!!
Just back from my drugs worker. Got a full house, (Crack, Smack, Benzos, Speed and MDMA) on my drug dip test so she's started me on a supervised Subutex script. 4mg's to take away today, then 8mg's supervised dose at chemist daily, but take home on weekends thank fuck! Cherry is leaving Smackville. Hopefully!!
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