I actually somewhat agree with you that the OP probably has a problem with oxycodone even if he wont admit it to himself. I dont mean any offense to the OP its just ive been an addict for many many years, and have been addicted to many different drugs.....so I know addict behavior when I see it. Im not saying that I know for sure that you have more of a problem with oxy than you would like to admit, no one can know that but you, im just saying that thats the way it seems.....all signs point to "addicted and in denial". Its very common for someone in your situation, who has only been taking the medication legally given to them by a doctor to find it hard to realize that you in fact are addicted to your medication. In fact, anybody taking the doses of oxycodone that you are for ANY extended period of time would HAVE to become an addict. Or atleast dependent. Whatever word you use, I mean that you have to continue taking your medication or else you will have withdrawals, and your meds arent making you "feel" the way they use to so you are starting to show drug seeking behavior. Its only natural that this wuold happen after taking SOOO many strong opiates for soooo long...even if you are under a doctors supervision.
You can listen to me or decide to ignore what im saying and keep going about your life with your oxy as you wish, but I think you need to seriously start thinking about the situation your in. And really think about what this drug is doing to you. I believe that you know deep down that you truly do enjoy the "highs" that the oxy can give you, and since they arent doing that anymore for you, you are trying/hoping for an increase in your oxy dose. Its extremely easy to come up with an excuse as to why you took more of your meds than you were prescribed, even if the excuse was thought up subconciously. Maybe you dont even realize that you saying that you took the extra meds because of your active lifestyle was just an excuse that you gave to yourself subconciously so you wouldnt feel bad, or feel like an "addict" when you take extra oxy so you can feel that "goodness" that oxy can cause.
Im pretty sure that no matter what I say here your going to keep wanting to take your oxy, and thats because your addicted to it and I know how hard it is to want to make a change that goes in the opposite direction of your addiction....and there are so many excuses you can come up with as to why you SHOULD keep taking the oxy, its just too hard to say no. And I know that some of those excuses as to why you should take the oxy are actually very good and valid excuses(i.e. your disorder) but what im trying to say is that there is an excuse/reason as to why you should stop taking the oxy that is even more valid and even more important than any excuse you can come up with as to why you should keep taking your medication.....And that reason is that you are living an addicts life. And it is holding you back from reaching your full potential. I know from many years of experience, that even though there could be positive effects resulting from taking that drug, the negative outweighs the positive.
There are plenty of other medications and techniques that you can take/try to manage your pain other than taking oxy. You could even take suboxone like the doctors reccommended. It truly is a very good painkiller yet it doesnt cause the addiction that you are facing right now. I also know that from experience, I take suboxone everyday and it kills any pain I have, and since I donthave as much pain as you I get high off of it as well. But the good part is, im not addicted to it. Because of the type of drug suboxone is, it prevents me from becoming addicted to it.
Im sry for making such a long post that your probably not going to listen to anyway, and I do realize that there are even more factors that need to be considered with this issue that I didnt even talk about but its just hard to do this over the internet. i wish you well and hope that you make the right choices for yourself.....choices that are not influenced by the "high" you can get from oxy. *the word "high" can mean pleasurable or painkilling, it doesnt necessarily mean you feel orgasmic or anything*