Cocaine doing coke alone

[Xyborg]

Thank you for your help and advice. That's exactly what coke is to me, the best antidepressant I've ever taken. I'm happier, calmer, more understanding etc.

Wish the government would realize that people will put in their bodies what they want. If it was regulated to some degree then everyone wins. Gear is certified clean and cut off a good bit of the black market trade at the knees. The war on drugs makes the global war on terror look like a success....wanna stop drugs from coming over the border? Open government drug stores. Cartels no longer make near the amount they did, users are safer, and the government get some sweet sweet tax money. But alas I doubt that'll ever happen.

Hollywood and shitty dealers have ruined coke. In the movies someone does a fat lines screams and pounds their chest like Popeye downing a can of spinach. Then the dealers with stomping on shit so much and adding other uppers to make up for it. I've had people complain about my hookup saying shit like this doesn't amp me up or anything. Or "where is that kick in the dick I usually get?" The looks on their faces when I tell them they've got the shitty hookup and my stuff is how it's supposed to feel.

I've had lab tested 94% pure blow from the onion patch (yeah yeah those can be faked but trusted seller and the product more than delivered). The stuff I get from my dude isn't quite that but damn if it's not the best shit I've ever found on the street and it's consistently that good. Found out homie gets his soft exclusively from a guy that sells hard. Lightbulb moment there lol no one selling crack wants to deal with washing product to get a good enough purity for high quality hard.

 

[OverTheGardenWall]

I have almost never done coke with other people. I have no one who wants to do cocaine in my circles. And I didn't think it was possible to get bored on coke. Perhaps your stuff isn't the best quality? Whenever I have quality coke I can't help but find things to do: decorating my house, fixing things I've put off, looking through my wardrobe to put together cool outfits, anything really.

Anyways, the first time I did coke I commited to playing through all of Mega Man 2. It's a decent challenge if you've never done it before. And I got through just in time before my coke dried up. It was amazing. So I would highly recommend trying an old video game like that where you have to attempt the same parts over and over again to improve and make progress. Suggestions would be: any Mega Man game, any Castlevania game, Super Meat Boy, Celeste, etc. Just search for difficult games. I prefer the older ones but that's just my taste.

 

[jessepinkman779]

Just an update: I'm still only having half a gram here and there so massive improvement. I'm treating myself to a holiday in the sun during UK winter time with the money I'm saving. I might end up using coke heavily again, but I'm just taking things a day at a time for now. My dealer is throwing offers and deals at me left, right and centre and he only sells small weight to me. I'm starting to think it's more about him having some control over me. Earlier this week my dealer was away so I used a different one who buys off my dealer anyway and omg it has been stepped on more times than a doormat. Absolutely terrible. It was so bad that I went and got some of my money back for half a gram.He had to give me some of my cash back or he'd lose my dealer as his supplier. Had half off my dealer tonight and there's just no comparison. I find that good coke/close as possible to how it comes into the country doesn't make me wired and twitchy it's almost a calming feeling just euphoria.

Anyway, I've calmed down a lot. But 1 day at a time.

My drug councillor keeps banging on that I'm in the age group for a heart attack so I'm playing with fire doing coke. But isn't that he case with anything. Alcohol, food, smoking, being overweight etc all lead to death or a close call at some point. I doubt half a gram a few times a week is going to cause heart attack.

 

[streaM Freak]

Just an update: I'm still only having half a gram here and there so massive improvement. I'm treating myself to a holiday in the sun during UK winter time with the money I'm saving. I might end up using coke heavily again, but I'm just taking things a day at a time for now. My dealer is throwing offers and deals at me left, right and centre and he only sells small weight to me. I'm starting to think it's more about him having some control over me. Earlier this week my dealer was away so I used a different one who buys off my dealer anyway and omg it has been stepped on more times than a doormat. Absolutely terrible. It was so bad that I went and got some of my money back for half a gram.He had to give me some of my cash back or he'd lose my dealer as his supplier. Had half off my dealer tonight and there's just no comparison. I find that good coke/close as possible to how it comes into the country doesn't make me wired and twitchy it's almost a calming feeling just euphoria.

Anyway, I've calmed down a lot. But 1 day at a time.

My drug councillor keeps banging on that I'm in the age group for a heart attack so I'm playing with fire doing coke. But isn't that he case with anything. Alcohol, food, smoking, being overweight etc all lead to death or a close call at some point. I doubt half a gram a few times a week is going to cause heart attack.

This is what id imagine to be close to a best case scenario man!

I did the exact same thing honestly, I saved up for a new years in South America and went all out on my taxi driver's flake which I would have thought was stepped on but was the absolute best cold-cop I've ever made.

Yes, one day at a time. If it happens it happens. It's more about your mindset, and momentum - both seem to be in your favor

 

[Passable_rock]

Just an update: I'm still only having half a gram here and there so massive improvement. I'm treating myself to a holiday in the sun during UK winter time with the money I'm saving. I might end up using coke heavily again, but I'm just taking things a day at a time for now. My dealer is throwing offers and deals at me left, right and centre and he only sells small weight to me. I'm starting to think it's more about him having some control over me. Earlier this week my dealer was away so I used a different one who buys off my dealer anyway and omg it has been stepped on more times than a doormat. Absolutely terrible. It was so bad that I went and got some of my money back for half a gram.He had to give me some of my cash back or he'd lose my dealer as his supplier. Had half off my dealer tonight and there's just no comparison. I find that good coke/close as possible to how it comes into the country doesn't make me wired and twitchy it's almost a calming feeling just euphoria.

Anyway, I've calmed down a lot. But 1 day at a time.

My drug councillor keeps banging on that I'm in the age group for a heart attack so I'm playing with fire doing coke. But isn't that he case with anything. Alcohol, food, smoking, being overweight etc all lead to death or a close call at some point. I doubt half a gram a few times a week is going to cause heart attack.

Thanks for the update Congrats on the massive improvement! Also awesome that you have been at it for a while now, it's really easy to go right back at it after a period of ''sobriety'' or great reduction; it's super important but also real difficult to keep going in those moments!

You are indeed in the age group for an heart attack, and all those things you mentioned do increase the risks of having heart problems, but so do cocaine, by quite a bit. An ''half a gram a few times a week'' is not exactly light usage. For you yea it is! You were doing an oz a week not too long ago, but it definitely was and is putting strain on your heart.

Apart from the coke, do you have an healthy lifestyle? Do you drink alcohol? Because if you consume both it then convert to cocaethylene in your body which is even more cardiotoxic.

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[jessepinkman779]

Thanks for the update Congrats on the massive improvement! Also awesome that you have been at it for a while now, it's really easy to go right back at it after a period of ''sobriety'' or great reduction; it's super important but also real difficult to keep going in those moments!

You are indeed in the age group for an heart attack, and all those things you mentioned do increase the risks of having heart problems, but so do cocaine, by quite a bit. An ''half a gram a few times a week'' is not exactly light usage. For you yea it is! You were doing an oz a week not too long ago, but it definitely was and is putting strain on your heart.

Apart from the coke, do you have an healthy lifestyle? Do you drink alcohol? Because if you consume both it then convert to cocaethylene in your body which is even more cardiotoxic.

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Apart from the coke my lifestyle is reasonably healthy. I eat well most of the time, get plenty of exercise and for the most part I sleep well.

 

[jessepinkman779]

Thanks for the update Congrats on the massive improvement! Also awesome that you have been at it for a while now, it's really easy to go right back at it after a period of ''sobriety'' or great reduction; it's super important but also real difficult to keep going in those moments!

You are indeed in the age group for an heart attack, and all those things you mentioned do increase the risks of having heart problems, but so do cocaine, by quite a bit. An ''half a gram a few times a week'' is not exactly light usage. For you yea it is! You were doing an oz a week not too long ago, but it definitely was and is putting strain on your heart.

Apart from the coke, do you have an healthy lifestyle? Do you drink alcohol? Because if you consume both it then convert to cocaethylene in your body which is even more cardiotoxic.

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Oh, I forgot. I don't drink alcohol. I prefer dry lining my coke. I'll have the odd beer at Xmas but that's about it. I use to drink heavily, then I got addicted to opiates, then coke.