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Does anybody have any longterm damages from abusing drugs?

It's a baby! said:
Mood instability :(

But I think it will get better the longer I am clean.
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This. Not to mention occasional PAWS-like symptoms of quasi-retardation (such as citing someone that I know is mayor of my city as governor instead of mayor, sometimes taking a long time to remember a simple word in conversation, and other nuances); it fucking sucks. I hate drugs.
 
43 months sober and in aa and i still dream about drinking and using every week. ran into an old coke dealer friend of mine this week and had a physical reaction to seeing him, like an adrenaline high. i feel like i am permanently wired to drink and use and will always have to do a lot of daily work to stay sober. i am in that 10% of people who just can't drink or do drugs at all. consider before you get too deep into that life, cause by the time you find out, you may be in too deep to stop without help.
 
mini said:
43 months sober and in aa and i still dream about drinking and using every week. ran into an old coke dealer friend of mine this week and had a physical reaction to seeing him, like an adrenaline high. i feel like i am permanently wired to drink and use and will always have to do a lot of daily work to stay sober. i am in that 10% of people who just can't drink or do drugs at all. consider before you get too deep into that life, cause by the time you find out, you may be in too deep to stop without help.
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Im glad to hear your stong :)
 
mini said:
43 months sober and in aa and i still dream about drinking and using every week. ran into an old coke dealer friend of mine this week and had a physical reaction to seeing him, like an adrenaline high. i feel like i am permanently wired to drink and use and will always have to do a lot of daily work to stay sober. i am in that 10% of people who just can't drink or do drugs at all. consider before you get too deep into that life, cause by the time you find out, you may be in too deep to stop without help.
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I feel ya for sure. That's how I'm wired as well. Watching movies with drug use, seeing old druggie friends, using dreams, it can drive your crazy. I try not to dwell and think of how much better my life is getting, and how much 'cleaner' I feel emotionally now.
 
Does anybody have any longterm damages from abusing drugs?

Yes, the governments for lying to us in the interests of big business and spreading fear, the medical profession and pharmaceutical companies for being the biggest pushers and dealers and the police for taking the role of clergy with guns and enforcing these bullshit nonsense laws, All these people have suffered permanent damage to their credibility.
 
Yeah I had a possible memory loss reaction to abusing Morphine as i O'd on the stuff in 2009 It was by miracle that there were drugs around like narcain But i was unconcious and lying for dead for about half an hour while the paramedics worked on me
 
webbykevin said:
Does anybody have any longterm damages from abusing drugs?

Yes, the governments for lying to us in the interests of big business and spreading fear, the medical profession and pharmaceutical companies for being the biggest pushers and dealers and the police for taking the role of clergy with guns and enforcing these bullshit nonsense laws, All these people have suffered permanent damage to their credibility.
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I dont think so thats their job. Drugs are bad there like cheating in life your just skipping your problems by getting high.
 
my nerves feeel like they've been over-excited at times.. but i don't think its permanent ... only temp ... when using stims and not slleeping
 
I'm 19 years old. I tried marijuana after my 16th birthday and kept smoking averagely every now and then, like 3-4 times a month.
During my first teenage years (12-14) I was that pessimist kind of kid. I loved to think that nobody loved me and I was a victim of this life. After growing a bit, I started to see life with optimism. I started being naive and that happy kind of guy, and marijuana helped me a lot with this transformation.
I've always been unlucky in my life, especially in my love life. I remember I would cry for the indifference of girls I had a crush on. And none of those girls had anything with me whatsoever.
With the love for cannabis and with curiosity for other drugs, I spent 2 successful years with a couple of experimental relationships that didn't last long.
Last summer, I started hanging out every day, I wouldn't spend a single day at home, and I started smoking daily. With time I started growing some tolerance and I used to complain about this problem daily.
Nowadays, after more than a year of daily smoking, I feel down and pessimism is eating my motivation. I have frequent tears. I feel like my life is burned, and I think about suicide from time to time, but I don't have the gutts to do it...
I'm currently taking my maturity exams and also fighting inside myself because of my best friend, with whom I've fallen in love. She knows, and she loves me back ; but it's not that kind of love :(

I've also used Ketamine (both snorted and IM), Tramadol, Xanax, Alcohol and DXM, but I've never abused with them.
To finish all of this, I'd say only one thing : Enjoy your drugs, but be careful with the chronic use. Don't ever smoke marijuana on a daily basis. And take stronger drugs only from time to time. I love being high (not only on weed) and I'll keep taking drugs, being careful, and I'll try to quit smoking weed and cigarettes.

PS: I'll include this information in case someone isn't really understanding my situation : I'm still virgin.
 
Yes I've collapsed pretty much all the major veins in my arms/legs/hands.

Nearly died from OD's on numerous occasions.

I had radial nerve palsy that took six months to get better. Not permenant but very nearly was.

I'm also pretty sure I'm much less clever than I used to be.
 
I had endocarditis and was very lucky that my body was very resilient and responded as well as I could have hope for to the 2 month antibiotic treatment. If I had not responded as I did, the alternative, which most people with cases of endocarditis similar to mine (it can present itself in different ways and areas of the heart) have to go through is open heart surgery. Just the thought of open heart surgery as a young man in my 20s is fucking nightmarish.

Despite my body healing so well, the trauma of something as serious as endocarditis left me with a couple small reminders of the experience that more than likely will be permanent. The most notable is the heart murmur that even most inexperienced med students/nurses mention to me whenever they use a stethoscope on me.

This is a sign of blood 'regurgitation' (like backflow) when blood passes through my valve from chamber to chamber. As long as no further damage is done this murmur and the reason behind it won't be an issue or change how my life is lived, but just the fact that it reminds me of the shock I put my poor little heart (and body in general) through, I often get queasy just thinking about it and can't bring myself to list to the murmur myself or even put my hand on my heart to feel the best.
 
I think the only one that really sticks is the anxiety from time to time and it does get bad at times but I still choose not to go into getting medications for it and prefer the natural way of dealing with it (yoga, meditation, exercise).
 
Mhhh let's see my liver is shot my kidneys went at one point, ulcers my stomach is fucked today i can hardly eat without pain and i got Septicemia (blood poisoning) from letting abscesses get too infected and continuing to inject drugs. Oh and it burns when I pee

Heroin and cocaine ain't all fun and games you end up with a lot of pain in the end this is the life I chose now I got to play these cards.
 
trainspotter10102 said:
Mhhh let's see my liver is shot my kidneys went at one point, ulcers my stomach is fucked today i can hardly eat without pain and i got Septicemia (blood poisoning) from letting abscesses get too infected and continuing to inject drugs. Oh and it burns when I pee

Heroin and cocaine ain't all fun and games you end up with a lot of pain in the end this is the life I chose now I got to play these cards.
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I can fix that burning when you pee problem for ya,
Get a bottle of concentrated cranberry capsules & take one three times a day with a full glass of water. Your urinary tract infection will immediately improve. Inside of 3-4 days you will feel the cooling effect of the cranberry from the inside when you pee. Keep taking the capsules 3 times daily for a week and you should be done with your infection.
 
I used blends for years, one day after arriving at the hospital for some out-patient surgery I discovered my blood pressure was through the roof, it was well over 200/100. I now have to take three dif blood pressure meds a day, to keep my pressure down to a reasonable level and it has been a year since I quit using spice. However I live a normal life apart from needing to carefully watch my sodium intake, and therefore not being able to eat frozen or pre-prepared foods, or hot dogs of any kind as they have too much salt in them.
 
I am taking clonazepam .25mg since last 8months.one tab at night only.helps me sleeps well.but about one month back I started getting wierd sensations in my head while I try to sleep.
It seems like some one squeezes my brain for a microsecond and release it.sometimes I feel sudden zonk in my head.all this happens mostly when I am trying to sleep.
I must tell you that I am having some problem in my neck too.cervical spondilosys.
I don't get much pain on my neck but stiffness which goes till half of my head in the back.

Can these sensations are due to cervical or clonazepam is doing some bad.
I am suffering from anxiety and agoraphobia since last 7yrs

After using clonazepam for 5months I reduced the dose to half of .25mg for one week and then stoped.
Next day I had a very bad panic attack and I came back to .25mg
Please help me how to remove this tab from me.
It makes me more anxious when I read horror stories from internet about this tab.

Kindly guide me.

Regards
 
I think the most damaging aspect of my drug use has beengetting trapped in the cycle of addiction and the result that has had on my life.
 
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