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Does anybody have any longterm damages from abusing drugs?

I have a chronic lung problems from snorting heroin and pills. It's basically like reactive airway disease. it doesn't act up all the time, but even now, at almost 16 months clean if I get a cold or even allergies, i get shortness of breath and need an inhaler.
 
i have noticed a change in the way i feel and think. before i was experimenting with opiates benzos and alcohol i was anxious and self-conscious. when i first tried those three things it happened when i was 12. benzos and opiates were easy for me to get because of the area i lived in. after heavy use of alaprozam, hydrocodone and alcohol for about 2 years i was doing stupid crap like eating 4 bars with 2 norcos and some vodka. now that i dont abuse drugs i am still insecure and anxious but i feel more paranoid and i just have the blues (no pun intended).
 
In my case, I guess it's a little tough to discern what damage came from drugs and what did not because I've also had a few concussions in my past. Anyways keep your heads up fellow blighters, things will get better.

The important thing is to mentally phrase these problems in a way that makes them seem only temporary or in such a way that you can work with the problem. Nobody knows enough what the future will hold, and your attitude about your problems greatly influences whether they will change or not.

For example, at the moment I'm experiencing effects from benzodiazepine withdrawal syndrome. I've been off benzo's for a couple of months and for the most part the wd's have gone away. I can't drink any alcohol for now and am unable to use psychedelics for the time being, but each day is a little better and in a few months maybe I'll be able to trip comfortably again.

I currently have social anxiety from what I believe was my previous amphetamine abuse, and this anxiety is exacerbated by benzodiazepine withdrawal. But again, I will get over it and I feel like each day is a little better.

I'm also experiencing HPPD at the moment. Oh what a pain in the ass it can be haha. But again, it comes and goes and maybe one day it'll leave forever. Strangely enough the HPPD started back when I just smoked weed, but psychedelic use during the last few years has definitely aggravated it.
 
On my 21st birthday, around 1 am, before anyone could wish me a happy birthday. I overdosed intravenously on WAY too strong heroin. Actually, I should've stopped at the first bag, but must've done the second (even though I have no memory of doing so). Basically, I overdosed in the bedroom I had at my parents house in the middle of the night. The only thing that saved me was my boyfriend came to pick me up around 7 am (otherwise my family would've left me alone til at least noon). I was unresponsive, but had a pulse.

911 was called & by the time they arrived, my heart had stopped, so they jabbed my chest (according to my boyfriend) with a long needle we later learned was adrenaline. I "woke up" gaped, & immediately went into cardiac arrest. I was rushed to the ambulance, then hospital, where they got my heart going again, but then my lung collapsed & my kidneys started to fail. They were able to stabilize me, but I was in a coma, with pneumonia on top of that & I suffered a mini-stroke (or TIA) on my right leg & hand. I had a 60/40% chance to live, 40% being the living part. Doctors told my mom I was touch & go, & they really didn't think I would make it.

After the 5th day of my coma, I woke up, to a nerve dead right leg & hand & get this, I couldn't HEAR.

So, after 10 days in the ICU, learning how to walk w/ a walker & having MRI's to figure out why the the hell I was 90% deaf in my left ear & 65% deaf in my right. On top of that I had UNIMAGINABLE pain that came from my damaged nerves in my right leg & foot. It was like fire & lava & knives in my leg & foot & nobody could see the problem. They denied me pain meds because I was, duh, a heroin abuser & didn't deserve relief from the searing pain that caused me to repeatedly cry out in the emergency room. Of course I was faking. I didn't have insurance. I wasn't bleeding. Real pain victims came in by ambulance & were nice quiet patients whose HMO's covered OxyContin & morphine IV's. God, fucking bless America
I had to re-lea.rn how to use my right foot & leg Not to mention relearning how to write & draw since I was a praised prize winning artist & well, right fucking handed.

To this day, I have nerve damage in my right leg,.foot, & hand,. although it's more numb than anything now. I can write normally, but still haven't gotten the hang of drawing like I used to. I know I need to practice, but I'm too depressed about it.
 
Oh yeah, & permanent hearing loss in both ears. I'm still lucky as hell.

I've done some bad shit for drugs too that are mental scars that will never go away. I'm lucky I survived. I'm lucky I kicked H. I'm just too stupid to quit everything. I quit cigarettes though, lol. 2.5 months ago.

Needed more money for weed.. lol.
 
Lets see. Liver damage due to excess liquor consumption on a daily basis since late teens- I'm 38 this year. Damage to kidneys and I dare say other organs due to using meth since I was 17 (5 years was my best effort clean). I currently smoke ice due to the fact I can no longer inject meth thanks to msm cutters.

Bad teeth, due to grinding and an overall sense of hopelessness due to my addictions. I hold down my job, but I'm kidding myself that at nearly 40, I can conduct myself like I was invincibile in my early 20's. One of these days the damage I've done to my body will catch up to me.. The price I will have to pay, that I am sure of.
 
^^ It doesn't have to be heroin or meth to be a fucked up addiction. 500 pills sounds pretty fucked up, imo.

I hope you find more health than harm, more now that your partying days are over & you've sought out help for your substance abuse induced depression. And lurker or not, I'm always available to listen. :) <3
 
HPPD

and last semester it got to the point where I just stopped bothering with class. I had zero motivation from all the stimulant abuse I was doing. When I went I was usually falling asleep from the combination of narcolepsy and stimulant comedowns.
My first semester I had a 3.2
Last semester I made a 1.15

If my application for a financial aid exception gets denied, I will probably just run my already shit life into the ground with unrestricted drug use
 
Saber44 said:
HPPD

and last semester it got to the point where I just stopped bothering with class. I had zero motivation from all the stimulant abuse I was doing. When I went I was usually falling asleep from the combination of narcolepsy and stimulant comedowns.
My first semester I had a 3.2
Last semester I made a 1.15

If my application for a financial aid exception gets denied, I will probably just run my already shit life into the ground with unrestricted drug use
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Screw Authority & become self-employed,
Stop splitting your work with your employer- Do All the work & Keep All the Money
 
If it were a position where I could do that, I would. However, as a result of HPPD, my field of interest and passion is neuroscience. I can settle for no less than a master's.
 
lars90 said:
Before I took DXM I spent 2 weeks reading reports on it. I spent more than 1o hours on it tell me thats not finding out a great deal about the concequesnses.
Yeah I am to young to take drugs WAY WAY WAY to young! But I didnt juge DXM as a drug I dindt belve something leagl could be a drug. It sounded like full nonesence. I trtied I liked and I dint have a bad feeling about it at all I tried it again and I liked it still didnt feel anyhing. COntiued on 3 more times and dint feel anything but the anxity disorder which I dintknow came from DXM. I did it becasue the internet blends out all fucking negativ parts of the drug. I am gonna creat a web site about DXM tell the kids what the real dangers are. I have a freind that I met here that went to the 4th pletau 2 weeks ,long and had the same withdrwal/side effkts symtoms that I had. It shows that DXM is a very unsave drug. Difrent people react diffrent to the drug. But DXM is a very powerfull drug. Its powerfull enoughf to stop the addiction of opiates (I dont wanna give anyone bad Ideas with this) if its only a mental one. It tells you have to stop every other drug and jsut continue breking yor mind with DXM. In higher doses DXM is extremly powerfull and its very sick what it does to your body. I do belive it can cause long term damges but Im not quit sure its more like it gives you temperarly brain damges which cause strong depreshions. I do belie that DXM is also a little bodyly adictive as well. Cause the only way to get rid of the side effkts is to take DXM again but after a while if you keep doing this to get rid of side effkts you have to increase your dose else it wont help and stil then you get ther side effkts.

Id rather have you or anyonbe else taking opiates than DXM cause DXM destroyes your brain chemitry while opiates only distroy your body which can regerate. Also DXM causes Anxity disorders which are hard to get rid of.

THis is what I have found out. I belive all this is true cause I have studyed the drug alot. Call me crazy but this is how i think about it lol :D
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I know you're young and all but you really need to learn what you're talking about before you talk about it. Half of everything you say is misinformation, which can unintentionally kill someone who listens to said misinformation.

Dextromethorphan (DXM) is an NMDA antagonist, a dissociative similar to but not quite as good, IMHO, as ketamine. Opioids/opiates do not destroy your body, at least not from the chemicals themselves, they don't even destroy your mind either, but they do cause changes if one becomes dependent, though most of those changes are short-term and not permanent, just takes some time. Other factors caused by drug prohibition and certain ROAs that people use can damage the body, but that can happen with any drugs.

Also, please learn how to spell man, shit your fucking 14 years old. But most of all, KNOW what the fuck you are talking about, and this is just wishful thinking on my part but shit, stop fucking talking DXM DXM DXM DXM DXM in every single one of your posts.
 
^ I don't want this conversation to spiral out of control. Chrisina, I can understand you being upset with the uneducated and unsupported comments. You are right, it can be harmful to put out misinformation. Thank you for clearing that up about DXM and opiates.
 
I was recently told by a Neurologist that i have impaired cognitive skills due to two and half decades of Drug use & some drinking.
I noticed that i was finding some tasks more difficult than i should and also i was able to speak a good bit of Spanish but now i find it much harder to pick it up.
One of the main problems that they said was my Long Term Benzo RX.
I was really depressed when 1st told but tbh i've just tried not to let it get to me.
 
brimz said:
I was recently told by a Neurologist that i have impaired cognitive skills due to two and half decades of Drug use & some drinking.
I noticed that i was finding some tasks more difficult than i should and also i was able to speak a good bit of Spanish but now i find it much harder to pick it up.
One of the main problems that they said was my Long Term Benzo RX.
I was really depressed when 1st told but tbh i've just tried not to let it get to me.
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Well give it some time it'll get all better. The rbain is a wonderfull organ because it has the ability to regnerate

chrisinabox said:
I know you're young and all but you really need to learn what you're talking about before you talk about it. Half of everything you say is misinformation, which can unintentionally kill someone who listens to said misinformation.

Dextromethorphan (DXM) is an NMDA antagonist, a dissociative similar to but not quite as good, IMHO, as ketamine. Opioids/opiates do not destroy your body, at least not from the chemicals themselves, they don't even destroy your mind either, but they do cause changes if one becomes dependent, though most of those changes are short-term and not permanent, just takes some time. Other factors caused by drug prohibition and certain ROAs that people use can damage the body, but that can happen with any drugs.

Also, please learn how to spell man, shit your fucking 14 years old. But most of all, KNOW what the fuck you are talking about, and this is just wishful thinking on my part but shit, stop fucking talking DXM DXM DXM DXM DXM in every single one of your posts.
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Damn I have a right fo rmy own opinion. You better straigten up your attitude.
 
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1394 said:
I twitch every time I poke my brain.

:/

Is this normal?
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try to poke the part of your brain that releases the serotonin or dopmamine stuff, im guessing if ur twitching it's part of ur central nervous system? i never really paid attnetion n school lol.

there could b a lot of things wrong.. the only noticeable things is my mental state, no im not like bat shit crazy yet, but the same shit doesn't excite me anymore in life. like family shit.. no more of that shit thanks to drugs.
 
I'm proud to say I did far more of an RC (4-FA) than any person should and came out completely and totally unscathed inside and out. Only permanent effect a drug has given me is that cannabis never felt the same since trying AM-2201.
 
JackiesBabyy said:
I'm proud to say I did far more of an RC (4-FA) than any person should and came out completely and totally unscathed inside and out. Only permanent effect a drug has given me is that cannabis never felt the same since trying AM-2201.
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Between januaray and march (3 months) I consumed over 100 grams of 4emc of debatable quality. For 2-3 weeks I was suicidal and had zero motivation. However, after a month of exercise and sobriety I felt good for the first time in months.

Neuroplasticity continues to blow my mind.
 
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