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Does anybody have any longterm damages from abusing drugs?

Cliffy78 said:
The spice is waay underestimated IMO, I go flush and feel palpitations after using the new formulation. Shit is really strong now
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Mine was with the last generation, I guess. I was using midknights 6X, I hear his base was 5Fur144, supposed to cause blood pressure issues, I didn't know
 
Anxiety and paranoia are most prevalent signs of damage among many other mental disturbances that did not exist at least consciously prior to the chemicals. Mainly psychological damage but that is only as far as I can tell. I would not be surprised to find out that my liver is not doing so hot among several other vital organs. I never used to have high blood pressure either but I think that just comes with the territory of growing older.
 
I'm on 40mg lisinopril ever since I dabbled in the spice, really high constantly. Everytime I got to dr it's at least 155-95. Last time after I tried the brand new gorilla dro shit it was 175/110 I'm sur it's no coincidence we all got high blood pressure all if a sudden...
 
Hep C. Paranoia, apathy, anxiety. Been using/abusing opioids, speed/meth, benzos for some years. Longest time clean has been 3 months since I started. Otherwise pretty much daily use. It sucks!
 
Really bad depression, agoraphobia and I think my vision problems are from my polydrug abuse...or at least always being fucked up and looking at a computer.
 
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4 years of smoking marijuana (3 of daily use), 2 years occasional ketamine, 1 year frequent ecstasy and mdma use and occasionally other empathogens or psychedelics, 9 months frequent heroin use. I feel like I only live for drugs. I enjoy art, emotions, psychology, philosophy and other fields in life. but I find myself getting ignorant more and more everyday, forgetting english, forgetting trips and periods of my life, being lazy and unmotivated. Occasional depression states, it feels like everything is dull, and boring, and unfulfilling. I feel like the marijuana has caused most of the problems I have with my cognitive abilities. I hope I can quit as soon as possible but it's hard when all your friends smoke, and no other people are of your interest.
 
It so hard to say because I was a rather traumatized, sad, fearful child and It stands to reason that I'm a rather traumatized, fearful, and sad adult.
Other than tobacco which has likely done more physical damage than I'm comfortable with I think the only real issue is that too much of my mental life is based around drugs. When I get onto trying to get stronger, happier, more comfortable drugs, or their absence always take an outsize role in my strategy for life. Same trouble when I get intrusive suicidal thoughts, I can manage perfectly fine to not kill myself, but almost all of my will is going into not killing myself not say campaigning for a promotion, doing something nice for my wife or friends or anything other than just holding on.
 
Been through drugs a-z... Different ones at different times... many mixes..

All i can say is my soul feels damaged. Even when i had about a year of sobriety... the glow of life is kind of gone. It is like my dopamine system is at a constant struggle while others is working fine...
 
Yeah same here, taking combos of many many drugs since I was 13 I'm sure my dopamine receptors are burnt. Not been happy for years, benzos really messed me up started taking at 14 and by 16 I was taking 140mg daily if I could, needed 80mg to feel at all normal and to fight against seizures. Been on a detox 3 years now and although not as many fits I can't leave the house alot and have panic attacks even thinking about all the bad trips I've had. One puff of weed and I think I'm not real and part of somethings imagination :/
 
Got normal blood pressure to my amazement but my heart has palpitations and arithmias. Anxiety, agrothobia, Several times had psychosis, left kidney damaged, don't know about liver, trouble emptying bladder and recently blood in stools although tht comes and goes. And I'm only 20. Daily Poly drug user for 7 years.
 
I smoked weed about 4 months ago for the second time and have been experiencing cognitive dysfunction ever since. Granted, i did binge on the weed (took 12 hits from a strong strain), but still, 4 months, wtf. I can't imagine this going away in even 2 months. So i guess you could consider that "long-term". When do i think this will go away? Overall, in about 8 months. Make of that what you will, IMO that's long-term.
 
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late stage hep C. Kidney problems. Thyroid problems.

The worst part of the hep c is that I fatigue so easily. I constantly overdo it in the garden and then I pay for my mistake with intense fatigue, nausea, and I notice my brain doesn't work properly...like losing words midsentence.

I hate this. Wish it could be different, but hey you piss in one hand and wish in the other and see what fills first.
 
Nope, not me. Other than psychological drug dependence, which can be a beast to live with if you don't have your drugs.
 
Yes I had hep c and luckily by the grace of God got cured. My teeth are a mess had many infections from Iv drug use I cannot function without being on opioids now my brain is so used to them that I really need them to function like a normal person and have scarred veins at one point drugs were my only thing to look forward to but there is so much out there. All drugs will do is ruin you and your life. It is very sad!!!
 
Get2Think said:
I can really identify with that F1nish1d, was there any solution or resolve to your situation?
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No... nothing to solve it . It's like... i can live a healthy life, work out, go to meetings. But even then.. something is missing. When i wake up in the morning, instead of being ecstatic about the day and happy. I wake up like a robot, completely blank and just go about....

Fucking hell
 
I'm not sure if it was drugs, or if I just have some underlying mental defect, but when I started to smoke MJ in my late teens I developed anxiety that eventually evolved into full-blown agoriphobia. I bought a plane ticket to fly back home and ended up getting off the plane before it left the gate because of a panic attack (wasted $300+). Any situation where I had no control would set it off. I quit for awhile, but then went back to indica strains. What's crazy is that of all the drugs I've tried, it seems weed was the one that started this fucking anxiety, or at least exposed some form of mental illness that I still have to this day (at age 40). Like Russell Brand says, "I don't have a problem with drugs, I have a problem with reality. Because of that, I'm an addict for life."
 
Well the physical ones are easy to pinpoint for me.
Hep C with degraded liverfunction, I have had open heart surgery twice and have changed heart valves - twice. Got an pacemaker - twice.
My heart, kidneys and liver all shut down and stopped working. First I rushed to the ER, while rolling me into the ICU my heart stopped and a couple of days later the other organs shut down
and they put me in a medical coma.
I got extreme tremor, specially in my hands.

The mental part is the usual anxiety and depression from time to time but the physical damage i WAY, way bigger.
 
F1n1shed said:
Been through drugs a-z... Different ones at different times... many mixes..

All i can say is my soul feels damaged. Even when i had about a year of sobriety... the glow of life is kind of gone. It is like my dopamine system is at a constant struggle while others is working fine...
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This is gonna be kinda random but I remember watching an interview with Slash (GnR, Velvet R.) where he was talking about his previous addiction(s). Also said something like you said, that he never felt right and that he figured out eventually that his dopamine(or was it serotonin, I always mix those two) was constantly slightly below the lvl of a normal person. Its why he continuously felt a bit down. And that meds helped a hell of a lot.
For me personally, after wds meds also helped a lot, especially ssris like sertraline.
 
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