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Does anybody have any longterm damages from abusing drugs?

Abused Diphenhydramine for a few months and stopped in August 2013. I suffered psychosis for months after my use. I couldn't comprehend anything, I was asking myself impossible existential questions. I was constantly experiencing déjavu like feelings, finding significance in things others couldn't. I also suffered tactile and visual hallucinations for a long period afterwards. I was completely depleted of any sense of self, mindlessly hallucinating and passing out every time I stood up and my heart occasionally felt like it was doing flips and I had chest pains often. This went on for months.

It's now almost 2016 and I still suffer with most of the symptoms above. Some have subsided, the hallucinations have mostly stopped, although visual distortion is still a big problem. (Had my eyes checked, not the problem), so it's clearly a brain issue. The chest pains are minimal and are mostly brought on by anxiety, no weird flipping feelings or anything. But I no longer feel the déjavu feelings, although I do still find significance and suffer with existential problems. I feel like my cognitive activity has also decreased considerably since my use. I feel like I can barely string a sentence together.

So in all I know that the effects of this drug (probably my recent drug use hasn't helped) have greatly contributed to my cognitive decline and shattered thoughts. I wish I'd never touched Diphenhydramine. The word makes me feel sick. :(
 
placid space said:
This is gonna be kinda random but I remember watching an interview with Slash (GnR, Velvet R.) where he was talking about his previous addiction(s). Also said something like you said, that he never felt right and that he figured out eventually that his dopamine(or was it serotonin, I always mix those two) was constantly slightly below the lvl of a normal person. Its why he continuously felt a bit down. And that meds helped a hell of a lot.
For me personally, after wds meds also helped a lot, especially ssris like sertraline.
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O i know.. it's definitely my dopamine. I'm on Lexapro which mainly effects serotonin, and i felt better for a while... but now i am depressed again.
I kind of don't want to live my whole life on meds... but i might have to. it kind of sucks but o well

Thinking of trying to get on wellbutrin
 
heavy injection abuse from Ketamine, heroin and ocasioally cociane. I have been clean for about 6 months now and these are my suspicions to what each drug as done to me.
Cocaine: unbearable anxiety from time to time. Always on alert, sometimes common sounds or sudden movements will spook me. Intense dreams of injecting coke.
Heroin: Terrible loss of memory, (i sometimes will look for my keys in the morning for like 20 mins before i remember that i put them in my purse like and hour ago.) also muscle weakness. I am definately not as strong as i used to be.
Ketamine: vertigo!!!! My depth perception is fucked. I lose my balance all the time ! overwhealming emotions that i cannot deal with. Im sure this has to do with my poor memory as well
Injection drugs in general : Poor respiratory function. My heart gets over worked very easily, even something a little as running for a bus.
these symptoms have improved (a little) since ive been clean but it makes me wonder if these are things i will be dealing with forever
 
my brain is super sharp and my health is as great as ever.... i abuse tons of drugs and am an old iron clad warrior.
 
I hope you genuinely are. I know a few... some are actually secretly sober now but have a reputation to uphold! :P
 
Depression / Anxiety. Haven't been able to hold jobs or stay in school. Broken bones. Plate in right arm becoming arthritic. Lost friends and relationships.
 
Ive suffered from chronic depression and anxiety before I tried any drug. After longterm dxm use my speech has never been the same. I get tongue tied or lose my train of thought often. Initially after I stopped my use, I had severe depression, paranoia and delusions, lasting up to a week after the last use, and took several months to get my mental state on steadier track (for the most part.) I'm slowly getting there, I just wonder how long my speech will be jumbled. If I don't really finish a thought before I start speaking, its as if my brain cannot multitask and finish the thought, and I have to awkwardly try to remember what I just said in order to finish the otherr half of my sentence e. Also notice myself just randomly zone out and lose touch with reality before i suddenly realize, "shit, I'm still at work, I really need to focus."

I also get recurring flashbacks from a benadryl overdose 4 years ago.
Yeah, drugs are not cool.
 
I've become extremely lazy although this could be attributed to being an alcoholic now. I haven't touched meth in 3 years but somehow feel the damage has been done. After I stopped using it, I continued abusing alcohol.

Now I have no motivation for anything even though I have a Masters and could get work.
 
I'll likely edit this post in the future as I just started using this account, so bear with me.

Tobacco: Worsened anxiety, depression, may have contributed to a possible stroke (I'm only 21 btw) and I started at 8 years old. Never a pack a day smoker. Always was open to smoking cigarettes until I quit 6 months ago in favor of vaping 30-36mg eliquid in a 40W mod. The greatest thing I ever did for my health was to quit using tobacco. The damage to my lung tissue from starting young may never fully heal, but my lung capacity and heart function are normal. My kidneys did take a beating from the blood pressure increase, and cigarette smoke nanoparticles that reach your blood stream are toxic to your entire body... Most smokers have considerable hearing loss and don't even realize it. Imagine what the shit does to your precious brain, in terms of microvasculature. I can't break nicotine addiction, or so I think. As far as tobacco use goes, I'm going the route of harm reduction, but I am experiencing recovery nonetheless.

Marijuana: Worsened anxiety, depression, caused problems to my lungs that were relatively severe short-term. I used to smoke through steel pipes without using bongs and I'd even smoke the residue too, the 'resin'. Nasty. I started getting positive symptoms of schizophrenia when I started at 11 years old. Luckily, I don't have schizophrenia. Just high functioning autism. I'm in recovery.

Alcohol: Worsened anxiety, depression, binge drinking episodes have probably worsened any underlying neuropsychiatric issues, luckily I didn't abuse alcohol too often or too heavily but I have been drinking since I was 14. I'm in recovery.

Methamphetamine: Definitely doesn't help anything wrong with you. I have lasting damage to my teeth but I still have all my teeth. Fucks off your lungs very easily if you hold it in, which I do so there's another reason not to fuck with it. I probably have heart damage, lasting liver injury, and I've overdosed on at least one occasion by eating and smoking it to where I've experienced feverish hyperthermia and intense vomiting. The only drug that made me feel like I was going to die as much as meth was weed, ironically, because weed and other cannabinoids don't seem to favor my brain chemistry. Alterations in glutamate/dopamine levels very easily trigger psychotic symptoms in me. Usually mild tough. I'm in recovery. I've used meth only twice in the past 3 years. Much better than the 3 years before that.

Synthetic cannabinoids: Don't even get me started. Smoking that spice shit has brought me more misery and lung and heart damage than anything else besides meth. I feared going insane from smoking the shit every 15 minutes like people do with cigarettes, bowl after bowl, recklessly smoking grams a day and using other drugs like meth with it. My last bout with spice and alcohol nearly killed me. I spent over a month smoking it and I had problems with my gallbladder, pale stools, I even ended up vomiting blood on multiple occasions, probably due to taking a lot of ibuprofen to combat meth neurotoxicity and hyperthermia. My liver got fucked. Luckily, I recovered and it's been a month now.

Despite all of this, being 21, I am healthy and in good shape. My vision is still well despite smoking and stimulant abuse. I'm not necessarily fried, but I'm missing a lot of intellect, and my memory is pretty shitty anymore. My lungs will never be the same, but at least I can breathe well. I am concerned about my heart health and blood pressure because at the moment I have become prehypertensive from being sedentary. Yes, sitting around all day is really bad for your health. More so than anything else, really, if you're going to keep your habits. Get up and get some exercise if possible, it'll help you live longer.

Oh and by the way, I should have been on antidepressant medications since I was a child. Since I wasn't, I self medicated with anything that would make me feel good and relieve boredom. As is the same old song and dance for many would-be addicts just getting started in their rounds. I have major depressive disorder and high functioning autism. I also have generalized anxiety although this has not been diagnosed and tends to be co-morbid with MDD and HFA. Honestly, I don't really care. SSRIs are not recreational drugs but I enjoy taking nonprescribed SSRI off-label for 'life enhancement' purposes. ;)
 
Interstitial cystitis and extreme weight loss from high dose long term opiate use. Likely resulted from digestion problems that occur from this class of drugs. Weight loss problems started on Suboxone and quickly resolved after getting off buprenorphine and opiates altogether.
 
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I'm 22 and have abused drugs from the age ov 14, until late. 1 thing I know us the best time to quit drugs is before you hit 18 because your still developing and you will heal alot better and faster if you at the right ages 18- after that your body can't take much more ov the abuse and you start to have real problems lol but never to say you still can't heal it will just take longer. I've stopped drugs and alchohol for 2 months now and I still have these symptoms: cold in morning, don't get excited anymore, hard to concentrate, memory is useless, pretty sure I've got liver damage and my senses are very weak ie sense ov smell taste and hearing.

I would advise anyone who is thinking ov taking drugs to just use it sensibly and don't let drugs controll you because that is when you start abusing drugs and it not taking drugs every so often tht damages you its when you consume alot in short periods of time that will damage you. Peace to anyone that is suffering I know how you feel just keep strong and never give up till the fight is won!
 
Cohesion said:
This.

In spite of the fact, frequently I become frustrated with my lower cognitive function. My brain is slower than it needs to be.
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Some of us get into drugs because our brain is faster than it needs to be. Sometimes damage from drugs can be a blessing. It's like being permanently fixed! Abusing meth and stimulants is the best thing I ever did. I'm not as smart as I used to be, but Im a lot happier. Being smart makes u realize what's wrong, being dumb is a lot easier.
 
I have a hole in my septum (internal divider between nostrils) because of heavy coke use in college. Until it happened, I had no idea that was a possible side effect. In winter, the edge of the hole gets dry and bleeds. Salt water and Vaseline make it better.

At least I can wear a traditional Hindu nose ring.
 
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swim has a prostetic leg due to iv infections 3 seperate boils looked like the black death, fake teeth that have to be taken out everytime swim smokes,heart condition swim needs asprin everyday for, std's swim doesnt want to talk about, fake ear (from iv again) oh and a donated kidney (that is now failing after a whole 3 months) but hey atleast swim got a lifetime supply of happiness(drugs) seriously swim has enough drugs to last 1000 years and swim will be ok in the zombie/nuclear apocalypse!
 
puffpuffwee said:
swim has a prostetic leg due to iv infections 3 seperate boils looked like the black death, fake teeth that have to be taken out everytime swim smokes,heart condition swim needs asprin everyday for, std's swim doesnt want to talk about, fake ear (from iv again) oh and a donated kidney (that is now failing after a whole 3 months) but hey atleast swim got a lifetime supply of happiness(drugs) seriously swim has enough drugs to last 1000 years and swim will be ok in the zombie/nuclear apocalypse!
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Ya right.
 
I have anxiety and heart palps from speed and psychedelic use. I also cant tolerate stimulants anymore ((panic attacks and palps))
 
I had to cut out caffeine and drank only water for over a year as even sugar gave me palps but I'm recovering
 
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