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Do you think about death?

xaddictx said:
I think about death more often now that my brother was suddenly taken away from Arteriosclerosis at age 63. I'd like some input on this; is it normal to feel angry after the initial mourning? I feel anger now as to why he was taken so suddenly. Everyone i.e. family always thought I'd be the one to go first because of my opiate and alcohol addiction. I have a sister also who is 64. Who I love dearly. Any input on this? Thanks BL people.
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Five stages of grief. https://www.verywellmind.com/five-stages-of-grief-4175361
 
JackARoe said:
When I think of death I think of the Mark Twain quote. I am going back to the place I was before I was born, and it didn't seem to be a problem then either. :D

Nature is flawless. Total nothingness is desired by most beings. That is why we feel comfortable laying down to sleep and blink out. Or nod on heroin. Total periods of nonconsciousness. But Nature gives a lot of clues. It screws up our stuff with time. Earth rotates one day. Moon around Earth, one month. Earth around the sun, one year. Galaxy rotation er... uh, 26,000 years? Way beyond our expiration date.

But I do not think we get that beautiful nothingness. I think the school goes on. And that is why I follow some spiritual practices. My most important would be following the Golden Rule. Because there is importance to our lives. We deep down know the physical journey ends but something else continue. Nature gave us that too. Something exists in one state or another.

Yes the ship will pull in, the train will come to the station, and each and every one of us gets to die. There is Nature's sense of humor again. You can't die without life. One implies the other. And on and on....
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Brian cox had an argument against that - he said the universe always goes from high entropy to low entropy - ie you start off with lots of energy like a star but over time everything ends up cold and dead. Surely consciousness must need some kind of energy to continue to propagate itself..
 
Yes. Like waaaaaaaaaayyyy too much. I mean, it doesn't help that I watch the likes of MDPOPE, Traces of Death, The Ogrish Files, Registros Fatais etc...but besides even that, I do think about death a lot.
 
Always thinking about death , because worst times are came in my life
 
Having heart failure after 8 attacks now 4 stents n a failed double bypass yeah I do alot .... I have had to.

Its something that takes alot of time n energy but you eventually accept it. I've heard people say this alot n always thought bullishit , and that I'd never be able to accept it.
I'm 36 n know I wont reach my 40th and it hurts n and my family hurt alot but it is what it is. And my mental health went to shit when I was in denial. Acceptenace and taking every day as a blessing is what I do now to deal with it.
I just hope its quick and not prolonged agonising pain like some previous MI's I've had. That's Not too much to ask surely lol peace guys
 
White knight said:
Having heart failure after 8 attacks now 4 stents n a failed double bypass yeah I do alot .... I have had to.

Its something that takes alot of time n energy but you eventually accept it. I've heard people say this alot n always thought bullishit , and that I'd never be able to accept it.
I'm 36 n know I wont reach my 40th and it hurts n and my family hurt alot but it is what it is. And my mental health went to shit when I was in denial. Acceptenace and taking every day as a blessing is what I do now to deal with it.
I just hope its quick and not prolonged agonising pain like some previous MI's I've had.
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That kind of puts things into perspective.

Do you fear death or long for its coming?
 
I do. But I don't dread it. Dying however, is another matter.

The converse is survival.

I think about both all fay long.

I haven't got to death yet. I keep things sinple where I can (in life) lol, that also has become a figure of speech.

When it isn't originally.
 
F.U.B.A.R. said:
That kind of puts things into perspective.

Do you fear death or long for its coming?
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I've always been scared of death and the unknown for as long as I remember.

Then after my last heart attack last month and them not being able to open the LV left ventricle aka widow maker. When they told me this it felt like a ton of bricks had hit me.
But only weeks later I knew my heart was bad but not as badly damaged as it is. But now when I think of death I don't feel fear nor panicked, so in answer to your question I think myself now knowing how I'm going to die I fear that the death itself as heart attack thru blockages fucking hurt so much and if that's going on hours yeah that wont be nice ... if my heart just stops a cardiac arrest then that's like a switch being turned off n I'm gone.
It's my family mainly my daughter I feel for now not myself
 
From the images n reports and surgeons visits/interactions, I understand that now only a quarter of my heart is working 100% ... the left side isn't getting any blood flow as my bypass has now failed. And alot has been damaged from the previous 7 heart attacks before this last one where I found out the bypass has failed and basically it's when and not if now
 
White knight said:
From the images n reports and surgeons visits/interactions, I understand that now only a quarter of my heart is working 100% ... the left side isn't getting any blood flow as my bypass has now failed. And alot has been damaged from the previous 7 heart attacks before this last one where I found out the bypass has failed and basically it's when and not if now
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Are you seeing a cardiologist regularly? Are you taking CoQ 10 also? Hoping things get better for you and are able to live a decent life despite having this ailment!
 
Ismene2 said:
Hallo peeps, just wondered if you think much about death? Do you percolate on it? Oh tell do!

Well?

Im waiting...

The thought that one day youre going to have to say goodbye to everything and never see another sunny day?

Mind you i suppose a bunch of fucking druggies are used to losing lots of things already!

Is it something that haunts you or do you take it in your stride?I

Thanking you.
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I do all the time. But I think death is feared more than it actually is. I believe in God and Heaven. But I also believe theres hell. Death is a relief and peace.
 
often

the key is to put the fear of death behind you and run away from it, never run backwards out of fear

use the fear of death as a motivator, behind you, to defeat other lesser fears in front of you

what is scary is not death, but the lives we lead, or don't lead, up until our deaths
 
Surely being alive has got to be harder than being dead.

I don't mean unconscious by that. Just not inhabiting a decaying mortal body.

I am far more excited about the prospect (finally) than anything. Fear doesn't come into that.
 
xaddictx said:
Are you seeing a cardiologist regularly? Are you taking CoQ 10 also? Hoping things get better for you and are able to live a decent life despite having this ailment!
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Yes iam seeing my cardiologist every 2 or so months but because if my lifestyle. I.e I'm admitted with chest pains (,having a heart attack) with coke in my system and I'm prescribed methadone , as sas as it is they judge me.
Instead of lookin at my addiction as an illness that's at the point it will kill me and yet I cant stop . They see it almost as a choice I'm making &therefore after 4 stents and a now failed double bypass there quite reluctant to do much more. I had to fight n fight through 3 surgeons opinions this last time just to get them to do another angiogram to try and open the blocked arteries . Eventually I found one that would do it ... after 3 weeks in hospital. He managed to open one but the left ventricle remains full occlusded so the out look and prognosis isn't good.
With only a quarter of my heart getting fresh oxygenated blood. Me and my family know it's just a matter of time until they next and final one.
Let's be honest you cant live a long healthy life with s fully 100% blocked widow maker. But here iam living it. I'm in the same position now as before my double bypass which was done to save my life, except now I've been left with it blocked. So yeah the end is near for sure
As others have said it's not death but the act of dying I'm worried about. 🙁💙
 
Ismene2 said:
Hallo peeps, just wondered if you think much about death? Do you percolate on it? Oh tell do!

Well?

Im waiting...

The thought that one day youre going to have to say goodbye to everything and never see another sunny day?

Mind you i suppose a bunch of fucking druggies are used to losing lots of things already!

Is it something that haunts you or do you take it in your stride?I

Thanking you.
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After trying to take my life at least 3 times (and had close calls on a number of occasions) then, personally, no I don't fear death.
I think I've said before that I think I'll just return back to the Universe which is comprised of consciousness (of which, obviously, there is no scientific evidence for) so I think of it being like being on a shit-tonne of painkillers and hopefully some Psilocybin to peacefully drift off to back to not knowing "existence" or becoming part of the dark energy holding things together, aside gravity, and being one with all and all with one (Musketeer Styleee!) =D
But I am being serious about that... who knows?
 
Well this is what it's like currently. It's like someday we all will die. But all of the rest of the days we won't.

Y.O.L.O. Babies.
 
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