^ I think there's even a few videos up on youtube on this.
I will tell you my experience. Feel free to skip on by also.
MDMA is my DOC. I first took it in June 2000. I had already over the year prior watched my friends on it, oh, about 2 or 3 times. I saw how amazing they felt, how bonded we became. I saw an apparent lack of negative side effects or paranoia. This was incredibly exciting for me at this time.
You have to understand I do not fully appreciate tripping on hallucinogens. I get the fear. I tended by this time, at 20 years old (in 2000, three years after trying LSD/Magic Mushrooms, the first "real" drugs I'd done.), to be pretty cautious when trying a new substance. But that preceding year of watching my friends rolling hard on the ecstasy made me want to try it so very much. So I took a whole pill. I was advised even then that half should be enough for a first time, but I wasn't interested in listening to that bit of advise. I wanted the full experience! I had to prove myself, had a reputation to uphold. I was that girl who can handle herself. Mostly. Another reason I had to get away from hallucinogens. I do not have the control. I must have ALL the control.
Anyways, I did have the most amazing experience, and felt at points that I could converse with people in our minds. Blew me away, better than I could have ever dreamed! I was hooked not only by the MDMA, but also by the rave scene, which was the setting to my set that first spectacular roll. I went to another party within a few months of that first experience. I ate a pill. And a few weeks after that, I went to a party and ate another pill. Then that Friday I went down to the bar before going out Saturday.
The next thing I knew, I was going out 3 or 4 times a week, owned my first pair of turntables, a stack of vinyl and I knew everyone! My contact list was full! I was always on the go, to shows, friend's places, afterhours, pre-drinks, the beach, dinner, you name it.
By now, I also had acquired the knowledge that pills will not work as well if used regularly. I dosed maybe 5 or 6 time a year, for special occasions. Usually a few pills a weekend. As this was when I was playing out the most, I needed to stay sober for gigs. I was not one of the lucky ones who could spin well while under the influence of MDMA (or whatever felt like it at the time. 'Cause no, I was not testing this shit. I knew I should, just didn't. But I didn't really drink alcohol, and do many other substances. A big weekend out at this time would have consisted of 2 beer and a joint). This continued for a few years. Then I gained a new boyfriend, himself also a DJ, who bordered on abusing drugs. Between us, we managed to cross that invisible line. And that continued for a few years.
Eventually, we broke up, I stopped playing gigs, stopped moving in the same circle of friends. Still tried to dose every so often, but was not nearly enjoying the side effects that came both during the roll, and on afterwards. There were around a lot of bunk or garbage pills, or so I thought. So I gave up trying for a while. Some of life's ebb and flow had me on an SSRI (Escitalopram) for most of a year. I weened myself off of this on my own as I was so heartbroken over not being able to feel any effects from doing ecstasy. But to find that out, I had to ignore the harm reduction advise of which I was well apprised. I was desperate to feel high on ecstasy again. So I did some reckless amounts of entactogens. Amounts I would never have thought in the years 2000 - 2004 I would have ever dreamed I would do. I ALWAYS knew better. I was adamant about using harm reduction techniques.
For a while, I was not sure I had not done real damage with the amounts I consumed while on an SSRI and in search of hedonistic euphoria. I do believe my short term memory is slightly less than perhaps most of my peers. I also think the fact that I'm not a huge drinker really aided me (except for those couple years I was on the coca-ethanol train. That became a pretty close 2nd behind my ecstasy love. There's damage that can be done! Luckily, not to me.) But even at points in time where definitely I would call my use abuse, I do not feel all the worse for wear. I am in my current age more mature in following through on testing my product, I know my dose, and I don't binge. And, I do still feel most of the magic. And I still love to spend a night dancing. Music still moves me. I just can't do it as often anymore.
So, to echo what others have said, please follow the 1-2mg/kg body weight (I won't tell you not to take 300-400 mgs, as I don't know your weight and whether you plan to re-dose, share with a friend (people on ecstasy tend to share more I've found- whether it's mindset or lack of moreishness with the ecstasy, I dunno. Just what I've noticed.) or few friends. Go and have fun!