Hey guys!
One more Desoxypipradol-fail here...
Got 1g 2-DPMP some weeks ago and tested it 4 or 5 times eyeballed (I know thats fkin stupid!!!) low dosed (like the size of a needle pin). Improved the long time concentration at work and gave me minimal good moods which could also came from musik and setting.
Normally I practice safer use and also act as a tripsitter or "babysitter" for people that tend be a "mindless drug hoover" almost everytime they go to parties/raves (big thanks to uncle_stinky for this nice description!).
Im into chemical drugs for over 10years and learnt from older mates (HANOMAG-veterans of the 90's) how to USE them.
But this time I've been the hoover...
Preset:
Had no alcoholics for a while and decided to go for a bottle of red whine monday evening. Been at work and on phone to long so it got late like ~3AM until the bottle was empty and i went to bed. Woke up around 10AM feeling very tired and lazy.
Indication:
Around 11AM I decided to take some Desoxypipradol for boosting motivation and mind-clearence before I start to work (originally i planned to wait for my mg scale after reading about dosage mistakes)... that was around 10mg eyeballed. A tiny little bit more than the last times for the whole day. One half in my tea and the other in my nose for the burning flavour.
Abuse:
Around 2-3PM I decided to take just a bit more because it was like just killing the hangover without the "full enhancement". As the rocks rolled off the bag I thought: YEAH! GO FOR IT! <-- like a warning from my own mind if I think about it now.
Crashed a small rock - maybe 15-20mg and sniffed it all. The taste was surprisingly better. Dipped the shades from the mirror and flushed down half a bottle water.
Got me into a great mood, I did a lot work done and finished things that have been laying around for weeks. Later i had to go to my appartment (which is 20m from work) to get my wallet.
Getting Abused:
As I was there the craving suddenly got full control over me and I just couldn't stop myself sniffing one more 15-20mg. It tasted AWESOME!!! (a little bit like high grade cocaine i had some years ago. I'm happy that i lost the "great connection" because I felt a strong addiction coming up after doing it ~2times/month for half a year.)
All I know from then to 8PM is that i felt great, had no problems with work and been in a nice mood. Eating was fine but there were alot of "bubbling sound" from my stomach. I dont remember exactly if I took another line around 6PM. I think (and hope) not. Somewhere between 8 and 9PM I lost control over the craving again. Layed down like 100mg+ but THANKS TO MY BRAIN FOR THE LAST BIT OF CONTROL that dominated the "must-overdose-now-craving" and made me put almost everything back in the bag. "One little small line - what can happen?". Yeah right -.-' ...that was only 10min after putting everything away safe, cleaning the mirror, throwing away the sniff-pipes because i didn't want to overdose... haha!
I've seen a picture of Desoxypipradol powder and a cent somebody uploaded to give a little idea about the eyeball-fail. The Desoxypipradol looked much more on the pic so maybe (and hopefully) I had "only" ~30mg at all. The memories are a bit blury atm.
Overdosed:
After some good hours (and going on toilet having a dejectation like a pressure washer - yay thats were the "bubbling sounds" came from) I got into bed just to see what happens around 2-3AM. After some seconds laying still there was a very intense rush on heartbeats like after overdosing strong amphetamines and going to bet soon. So up and in front of my PC again. Felt horny, but not as nasty as on amphetamine, so i watched porn for around 4hours, having a very intense feeling & finish. Smoked a cigarette and felt very awake like just woken up from a long good sleepy night. But it wasnt good. Gone to bed again and it was very uncomfortable with extreme high heartbpm, feeling very cold, having neusea and a feeling like my heart hits my chest from inside. I have an athletic heart so I often get scared from "side-effects" that feel like cardiac fibrillation. After hoping not to die - and after not dying - I decided to stand up and everything got fine again. Been at a medic saying I have stomach-problems and got MCP-AL liquid against neusea which contains benzos that make tired. NICE SIDE EFFECT

Dosed it every 6hours with the minimum ammount the package sais to make the neusea and "higher-heartbeat-moments" go away. Around midnight I took a "normal full dose" dose for having a good heartbpm even when laying down and maybe finally sleep. Swallowed 3 "Sedacur Forte" Capsules which conatin herbal extracts for calming down. After ~45min+ I took got another and little higher dose. Got into dreamless sleep for some hours, maybe 3 or 4. Woke up with feeling the heart start running at higher bpm again and felt like 5min slept.
A feeling like I got the flu and fever is very present almost the whole time since the first night. No hallucinations, only minimal "fragments" that can also be caused by being awake to long, but everything looks a little bit red/rose like I have to recalibrate my eyes. Eating is not so hard or painful and i try to gain control over my stomach by eating pretzel sticks, rusk and banana. My hands look red and my "blood circulation" is not the best, but walking around is possible and feels good the first minutes. I am drinking ALOT water all that time having >10l till now. In the late first night the water went through my body so fast I could almost drink it at the toilet... No renal pain but had a strange feeling in that region. Like a prickling microspasm. No psychological disfunction, only thinking a little bit slow from time to time ^^
Now:
Just phoned with the local "drug helping point". The doc said "you have to go through this on your own without further medication" then i explained the problems caused by long-time-insomnia on Desoxypipradol and that Haloperidol and Lorazepam work well to get some sleep. In 10min I can call him back cause he has to look up Desoxypipradol...Maybe i can get my "sleep-medicine" there. If not I'll ask a friend who works in a hospital. I think he could get the little helpers. he is anasthasist ^^ But a dont want to abuse one of my best friends. I just dont want to go to ambulance - he said they will take me there for DAYS if I tell them what happened...hopefully next night will be a bit more sleep and the Desoxypipradol will leave my body within the next days. I'm still in good psychological condition and have a strong mind (mostly had "control" on psychedelic effects with shrooms or LSD) but i dont want to taste the nightmare that could get me the next days if I dont sleep.
Sorry for the fkin length but I needed to write it down completely.
If anyone has some good ideas for health regeneration/eating/drinking/"sleep-helpers" that would be nice.
Thanks for everyone who read all the long way through.
EDIT: The drug helping doc said he only gives out medics to h-junkies -.-
EDIT2: Took the bus into the city and got 4Lorazepam from a friend. I'll try to sleep with one in some minutes. Ambient music helps to calm down atm begin to feel tired a bit. Maybe placebo. Man I feel SOOOO SICK like with a badass flu. And my head, specially eyes and forehead, feel very hot. Also had this "heated feeling" with spontaneous dumb headaches and strong pricklings in my head before I went off to town. Looks like fresh air and movement helped. good old friend oxygen...
