LivingInTheMoment
Bluelighter
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depersonalisation is NOT changing personality, its feeling detached from the world
Correction/addition=it is feeling detouched from yourself, from your person!
depersonalisation is NOT changing personality, its feeling detached from the world
haha comparing america to other countries is like comparing apples and a fucking pickle. America is so fucked up. You dont even understand whats pushed day aftet day on the media to kids of all ages. My family is fucked up too. Some people's lives aren't as well off as you might have it. You deal the card you're dealt, and if you find help along the way, you take it.
I dont abuse my medication. I use it. It settles me down when normally my mind would race in social situations thinking about all the possible outcomes if i talked to this person or start get edgy when someone would ask me a question. I dont know where it comes from. I didn't always use to be like that. Dissassociation and HPPD are fucking hell. I've got all kinds of problems becauseof it. You truely cant understand what dissassociation feels like.
To put it as simply as possible. Dissassociation is a purgatory for your mind. You dont connect to past memories and everything that happens in the present, day after day, hour after hour, minute after minute, doesn't seem real. Familiar places become strange and bizzare. Everything is off with my visual disturbances, half the time, even on 1mg of klonopin a day, i feel like im in alice in wonderland.
ok im done.
haha comparing america to other countries is like comparing apples and a fucking pickle. America is so fucked up. You dont even understand whats pushed day aftet day on the media to kids of all ages. My family is fucked up too. Some people's lives aren't as well off as you might have it. You deal the card you're dealt, and if you find help along the way, you take it.
I dont abuse my medication. I use it. It settles me down when normally my mind would race in social situations thinking about all the possible outcomes if i talked to this person or start get edgy when someone would ask me a question. I dont know where it comes from. I didn't always use to be like that. Dissassociation and HPPD are fucking hell. I've got all kinds of problems becauseof it. You truely cant understand what dissassociation feels like.
To put it as simply as possible. Dissassociation is a purgatory for your mind. You dont connect to past memories and everything that happens in the present, day after day, hour after hour, minute after minute, doesn't seem real. Familiar places become strange and bizzare. Everything is off with my visual disturbances, half the time, even on 1mg of klonopin a day, i feel like im in alice in wonderland.
ok im done.
wow dude you need help! in a kind way!
at what time do you take the klonopin every day?
klonopin does not last an entire day, and when it wears off, you basically go into a type of psychosis.. It's half the time because you are taking it once a day and it's only lasting you 6-7 hours of relief, followed by your brain fighting back against the effect of the drug which makes you feel more "out of it".
You admit in your post to America being fucked up. You say you are aware of the media pushing information on people... You are obviously just one of the many who absolutely do not fit into American life and values on the inside, much of your life actually wasn't real. You just need to learn to cope with that.
or just get sucked back into it. Ignorance is bliss. Almost everything you could consider "American" in nature, be it a personality type or a food product is promoting a false ideal that is absolutely not natural.
You are being affected by these "symptoms" of what you say on a higher level of suffering to your SELF because your SELF is not projecting through your outward actions.
You need to reconstruct your SELF to be able to coexist with disgusting American life without being affected by the plethora of programming being presented to you. Your mind will do this naturally to some extent, but if you have not explored your whole consciousness and become who you truly are, it will be faulty and cause you to form a fractured ego, like one we were all raised to have, in this wonderful country.
wow dude you need help! in a kind way!
at what time do you take the klonopin every day?
klonopin does not last an entire day, and when it wears off, you basically go into a type of psychosis.. It's half the time because you are taking it once a day and it's only lasting you 6-7 hours of relief, followed by your brain fighting back against the effect of the drug which makes you feel more "out of it".You admit in your post to America being fucked up. You say you are aware of the media pushing information on people... You are obviously just one of the many who absolutely do not fit into American life and values on the inside, much of your life actually wasn't real. You just need to learn to cope with that.
or just get sucked back into it. Ignorance is bliss. Almost everything you could consider "American" in nature, be it a personality type or a food product is promoting a false ideal that is absolutely not natural.
You are being affected by these "symptoms" of what you say on a higher level of suffering to your SELF because your SELF is not projecting through your outward actions.
You need to reconstruct your SELF to be able to coexist with disgusting American life without being affected by the plethora of programming being presented to you. Your mind will do this naturally to some extent, but if you have not explored your whole consciousness and become who you truly are, it will be faulty and cause you to form a fractured ego, like one we were all raised to have, in this wonderful country.
oh by the way you're talking out of your ass. The half life of klonopin is 40 hours....or 35. It's somewhere around there.
Does knowing that make your DP better?
Try not taking your pill and see what happens. You probably can't do it for long. Especially taking it for depersonalization purposes. The psychological effects of clonazepam start to wear off around 6-8 hours. You your brain chemistry gets more and more scrambled from then on. The half life of the chemical does not matter. Benzodiazepines are psychologically AND physically addictive.
Benzos are never the answer for this in the long term. A week or two of taking them should determine whether or not you have sorted out your psychological issue and if not then you are just making yourself worse.. The reason you experience this is a problem with your SELF. Who you are. Something that you are consciously doing that has been so engrained into you even though it is negative that it appears almost like its not you. There is ALWAYS something else that should be looked at. Taking the benzo will NOT make it go away.
psychological? all benzodiazepine drugs work as PHYSIOLOGICAL compounds. If someone has anxiety problems, they're not psychological you fucking dumb ass. If it were psychological then a PHYSIOLOGICALLY operating drug wouldn't do anything. Every post you make you lower your stupidity level, or should i say raise. This is the last time im responding to any of your posts.
psychological? all benzodiazepine drugs work as PHYSIOLOGICAL compounds. If someone has anxiety problems, they're not psychological you fucking dumb ass. If it were psychological then a PHYSIOLOGICALLY operating drug wouldn't do anything. Every post you make you lower your stupidity level, or should i say raise. This is the last time im responding to any of your posts.
The only deppresiion i've heard of is the day after you roll.
The only deppresiion i've heard of is the day after you roll.