Justinmoore78
Bluelighter
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- Aug 15, 2016
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In highschool I was a pothead (hated pill users) somehow started doing the old school ocs and after they changed I switched to the Roxy 30. Not much after I was doing about 8-15 a day off the street so you can understand why I switched to heroin. I was close to the biggest h city in America so finding it was never a issue. 8 years I maybe gone 1 day without using. I decided to quit, moved to my parents far far away from everyone (no friends, quit job) and started a methadone treatment. For 1 year exactly I was taking 120mg every day and I was doing whatever I could to get the money. So now I'm broke , got kicked out of the clinic and I found 20 8mg Suboxone strips I got for a steal. I took the first one on day 2 , got really bad shivers (crawlers) but it was fine after that. Now I took my last piece 4 days ago and I feel absolutely horrible! I can't eat, drink, can't sit still, I'm having severe suicidal thoughts, my eyes hurt from not sleeping for 3 days now I just dont know what to do. Today I sat in my room with a gun in my hand crying (not like me) what do I do? I read hundreds of people's story's of inspiration and schedule with all this fancy stuff and I'm not doing it that way. I'm literally going out of my mind. Any suggestions? I can't talk to my family because they dont understand it. My father past away a few months ago so the last thing my mother (who doesn't even take Tylenol) understands. What do I do? If it's this bad already what's tomorrow bring? Am I withdrawing from methadone or Suboxone?
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