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Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v11

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Another reform: friends and family can bring you food at anytime and it cannot be denied from you. You will be allowed to eat this at any time.
 
dont.jump said:
Dude mine you were an absolute prisoner. No going outside, no cigs, no take out, no internet, not even a clock. I had to makena calendar to keep track of the date. They will ask you the date and if you answer incorrectly it is proof that you are mentally unwell. Some members of the staff were very abusive. Mainly nurse techs who were there to collect a paycheck and get off on their power trip over you.
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Some of the staff there where cunts for sure but most where alright or indifferent. At our psych ward you could stay out till 7pm so if you wanted to go to the mall, the bar or the weed store you could. We also had cases of drink and stuff like chips we kept in our rooms. We certainly had it better then alot
 
paranoid android said:
Some of the staff there where cunts for sure but most where alright or indifferent. At our psych ward you could stay out till 7pm so if you wanted to go to the mall, the bar or the weed store you could. We also had cases of drink and stuff like chips we kept in our rooms. We certainly had it better then alot
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Whoah. No Fkin way! If that was the case man i think id never left haha. But yes sadly this is not the case for a lot of us. Some of the nurse techs would say "take your medicine bitch". "Hey bitch how are you". I was almost forced to clean up somebody elses puke with nothing but my hands. Luckily a nurse walked by and the nurse tech acted like he wasnt just trying to force me. I had to remove trash out of the toilet my roomate put in with his piss in there in order to keep them from taking our toilet out of the bathroom. I did not bother a soul there or try to talk to anyone. I would read my bible and if somebodybwas interested id invite them to read with me. I was picked on even more for being scared and keeping to myself. Somebody would hit the intercomm button to my room and say "godddddddddd" over and over to mess with me. They had a lottery game where we could win shoes to wear. I actually won but gave it away to a female who said her feet hurt. I was threatened to be raped (by room mate and was called a bitch by staff for requesting to switch rooms) and i was threatend to get my ass beat for no reason at all almost on daily basis by a very abusive staff member (same guy i mentioned earlier). I knew i couldnt fight back because they would extend my stay. I had to just take it amd shake in fear in my bed. Which they came in every 15 mins to check on you and wake you up. You couldnt even sleep man. If you brought any snacls or drink to fill your belly and quench your thirst at night, they did a room search and took your food and drink. I had a bright light outside my window and i used a sheet to cover the window so i could attempt to sleep. They came and tore it down. I have never been so dehumanized in my life brother. It all sounds so unbelievable and when you get the crazy stamp nobody for sure will believe anything you say. This is in good ole free US of A.
 
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If an authoritarian regime ever comes to the United States they WILL exploit the mental health program of our nation. It is the quickest, easiest, and surest way to absolve all your rights as a free citizen, discredit you, disable you, alienate you, and make you dissappear forever. We MUST speak up.
 
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lukeflowz said:
Thanks for the response. I think maybe my jaw stopping clenching and my restless leg clearing up are early stages of akathisia starting to wear off, but I could be wrong.

I think waiting for the Anhedonia to wear off will be much easier when I no longer have akathisia, as right now it’s tough.
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Yes, definitely. You’ll still be bored all the time but it won’t be painfully uncomfortable anymore.
 
dont.jump said:
They are convinced it helps. Psychology and psychiatry are very new schools of thought and their methods are still very crude. They do not intend to do evil, but its really anger inducing when you tell them you are sufferimg and they dont care. Or when you tell them these new side effects youve developed SINCE the medication and they try to tell you these are side effects of your illness and want to give you even more medicine. I learned to keep my mouth shut and just cross off the days on the calendar.
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It's ableism in its purest form. Our civilization hates schizophrenic and bipolar people a lot. These diseases can be very bad and scary, and that's used to justify reversible lobotomies. I have no idea why it's a get out-of-jail-free card in psych wards, it should never be used like that. It should be used only as a last resort. Some people with severe schizophrenia are actually functional and happy on invega sustenna, so I'm not against removing it entirely, but it should be known that it can do horrible things to people without schizophernia. It should never be used in bipolar or isolated instances of psychosis like mine. I know a couple bipolar people who had it and it fucked them up for a while.
 
dont.jump said:
If an authoritarian regime ever comes to the United States they WILL exploit the mental health program of our nation. It is the quickest, easiest, and surest way to absolve all your rights as a free citizen, discredit you, disable you, alienate you, and make you dissappear forever. We MUST speak up.
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It's already here and they are making moves to do just that, starting with involuntary commitment of homeless people and drug addicts. Then they will move on to anyone who "can't take care of themselves" i.e, people with stuff like level 2 and 3 autism and down syndrome living with their parents, even though that arrangement is fine and more beneficial than living in a mental hospital for them. I'm trying to get undiagnosed with schizoaffective to avoid such a thing. As more time passes, the more clear it becomes that I don't have it. I just need to get my shit together and contact my ally who will help me.
 
everything hurts. I don’t want to die but what other choice do I have? Genuinely, it’s pure torture and I don’t see an end to it.
The shame is so powerful. It hurts
 
This morning i felt terrible. Very restless and fatigued, but right now in the evening I feel the most energetic since the injections and not as restless. Maybe I am going through withdrawel. 50 days since my last injection.

The hot baths I am taking could be working more than I thought, I sweat so much during and after them.
 
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*Exercise (aerobic, most potent)
Classical Music (listening)
Art (drawing, painting, sculpting, digital)
Strategy Games (starcraft, ages of empire)
Playing a musical instrument
Learning a new language
Coding
Chess
Advanced wood working
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Learning any new skill
Exploring
 
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