• The Dark Side 💕 Welcome Guest 💕
    Posting Rules Bluelight Rules
    Notable Threads Urgent Hotlines
    Bereavement Mindfulness
    Suicide Support Anger Management
  • TDS Moderators: AlphaMethylPhenyl | paranoid android

Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 9

Status
Not open for further replies.
okthen said:
Why? Does testosterone not recovered naturally if u stop in most cases?
Click to expand...

No i am pretty sure it's for life. I think if you only dose once or twice your levels will just go back to the way they where.

I don't really care if i have to take test for life because it has so many benefits. I put on about 5 or 10lbs of muscle in about 3 months ad my energy levels are way up. Also test may lower the risk of dementia and due to being on benzo's and zopiclone i need all the help against dementia i can get. Also i now have the sex drive of a 18 year old. I may have to give in and join tinder. That is if i ever get a phone. But ya test really boosts your sex drive.

So far i have not gotten any side effects from it and ive been on it over 3 months now. I was worried about hair loss but ive been using ketoconazole shampoo which works against hair loss and so far no hair loss. So far no testicular atrophy either. Atleast none caused by the testosterone. I am pretty sure that invega and abilify did give me some testicular atrophy though
 
Last edited:
paranoid android said:
I didt know that they indirectly affected dopamine. And ya they do increase neuroplasticity which is always good
Click to expand...
I've tripped twice since taking invega, on truffles. The last time was less difficult than the first, and was feeling emotion again coming in waves, which was relieving. But yeah I took them both times to increase neuroplasticity, not so much for having a fun trip
 
stolensoul said:
I've tripped twice since taking invega, on truffles. The last time was less difficult than the first, and was feeling emotion again coming in waves, which was relieving. But yeah I took them both times to increase neuroplasticity, not so much for having a fun trip
Click to expand...

How long where you off invega when you tripped? Ya shrooms can be difficult. When i first tripped after invega and abilify it had been atleast 5 years since i had tripped. I was worried i was going to have a bad trip so i had benzos and zopiclone on hand. But i had a really good trip so i didnt need them. But i always have benzos on hand when im tripping anyway just in case. Better to have them and not need them then to not have them and need them
 
Recoveringinvega said:
hope yall r recoverin. wont spew the workout stuff. stay sober tho and eat healthy. i wanted to say what bein on invega taught me. what doesnt kill u only makes u stronger. bein on invega was the worst time of my life. i might sound blessed for sayin that since theres worse out there but yea it sucked. yall should know. now that ive recovered ive become so much more resilient. nothin really phases me. as a matter of fact. from all the positive growth the journey brought along i kinda look forward to the growth thatll follow any hardships i face. we only bounce back stronger so i take it as a sign that im about to level up. know all of u will stand even taller after all this. god bless u all
Click to expand...

Since being on invega and abilify and also being i the psych ward nothing phases me now. I also had cotards syndrome and though i was in purgatory so that could also play a part in why nothing phases me. I mean after being in purgatory what could be worse? Actual hell maybe?

The psych ward was a fucked place in general. Between seeing people screaming getting dragged off to solitary and also ending up in solitary myself 5 or 6 times for fighting security it was not a nice place. Nurses also yelled at you constantly for smoking weed and cigs. They where just horrible people really.
 
IOSIP said:
You know you really suck. How old are you? Nothing you say is productive. You just add nothing to the conversation. I'm suffering beyond belief. I need support not dumb ass comments about hugs from girls. Or bible bashing bullshit. God doesn't care about us. God is punishing us.

I firmly believe this is hell. My existence is hell. I am so scared. Every day I wake up and start pacing my house and it won't stop.

You should just shut the fuck up. Haven't even had the invega injections. Seriously I'm in actual hell wanting to kill myself because the thought of living the rest of my life like this is to much to consider.

Doctors treating me like a druggie. I am so scared so stop your absolute nonsense
Click to expand...
Akathesia is usually temporary. Please don't kill yourself. I know it's awful, but please push through it.

God isn't punishing anyone. Sometimes bad things happen to good people or they receive a test. I failed to listen to my intuition and that's why I'm here.
 
InvegaAnon said:
Akathesia is usually temporary. Please don't kill yourself. I know it's awful, but please push through it.

God isn't punishing anyone. Sometimes bad things happen to good people or they receive a test. I failed to listen to my intuition and that's why I'm here.
Click to expand...
I am so fucking sick of this. The ahnedonia and the akathisia are still in full effect 2 months later. Still dream of killing myself.

I've taken to watching tiktok all day every day its a distraction from the akathisia.
 
okthen said:
Drank like 1100ml of vodka, I feel alcohol again, in high quantities, like it was before. I even got the same phenomenon I used to get from it were I can't sleep after drinking. Good sign in my book, need to stop drinking a bottle+ a day tho haha

Edit: 5am, still awake. Not gonna be up till about 7pm by the looks of it ffs.
Click to expand...
Don't antipsychotics often leave people vulnerable to addiction? I'm feeling it with weed, trying to stop again. Yeah, don't drink like that all the time even if it makes you feel something. You're hurting yourself.
 
This is like the worst drug to exist. They shouldn't be able to do this to people day in day out same shit. I feel nothing, nothing is fun nothing is exciting nothing is anything I am emotionally fucked i can't sleep well i toss and I turn i wake up and feel that shitty fucking feeling. It's not getting any better. Oh well just venting. If u don't post here once a week you may consider me dead.
 
paranoid android said:
How long where you off invega when you tripped? Ya shrooms can be difficult. When i first tripped after invega and abilify it had been atleast 5 years since i had tripped. I was worried i was going to have a bad trip so i had benzos and zopiclone on hand. But i had a really good trip so i didnt need them. But i always have benzos on hand when im tripping anyway just in case. Better to have them and not need them then to not have them and need them
Click to expand...
First time only 2ish months. A few weeks ago was 7ish months.
 
IOSIP said:
This is like the worst drug to exist. They shouldn't be able to do this to people day in day out same shit. I feel nothing, nothing is fun nothing is exciting nothing is anything I am emotionally fucked i can't sleep well i toss and I turn i wake up and feel that shitty fucking feeling. It's not getting any better. Oh well just venting. If u don't post here once a week you may consider me dead.
Click to expand...
I feel you. The phase you're in now, just need to keep yourself alive. Everything else will come back in time.
 
IOSIP said:
This is like the worst drug to exist. They shouldn't be able to do this to people day in day out same shit. I feel nothing, nothing is fun nothing is exciting nothing is anything I am emotionally fucked i can't sleep well i toss and I turn i wake up and feel that shitty fucking feeling. It's not getting any better. Oh well just venting. If u don't post here once a week you may consider me dead.
Click to expand...
Fuck I’m going through the same shit again the past half week I haven’t been able to sleep and I couldn’t sleep not even a minute last night I’m considering suicide I feel every one of ur messages about being Mad at god and stuff I don’t know why he’s letting me suffer like this too
 
Last edited:
I’m thinking about eating shrooms because I haven’t been able to sleep in days and I couldn’t sleep one minute last night I’m running out of options maybe the shrooms will do something to my brain to help me to sleep again because I desperately need rest asap
 
julianlz7 said:
I’m thinking about eating shrooms because I haven’t been able to sleep in days and I couldn’t sleep one minute last night I’m running out of options maybe the shrooms will do something to my brain to help me to sleep again because I desperately need rest asap
Click to expand...
No sleep while suffering makes it worse. Before the only thing I wanted to do was sleep because not being awake is better than suffering in hell while awake and there was nothing good, okay, or even meh about life, only pure worst of hell level suffering.
 
julianlz7 said:
I’m thinking about eating shrooms because I haven’t been able to sleep in days and I couldn’t sleep one minute last night I’m running out of options maybe the shrooms will do something to my brain to help me to sleep again because I desperately need rest asap
Click to expand...

Do not take shrooms if your getting akathisia or feeling suicidal. Shrooms tend to amplify how your feeling and right now you dont need that. Are u currently getting akathisia?
 
Status
Not open for further replies.
Top