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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 9

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Conky said:
You are a liar bro

Hallucinogens and stimulants don't get you high when there's antipsychotics in your brain chronically
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yup i tried smoking weed after invega and it did not work at all so now i quit weed forever. Invega needs to be fucking banned disgusting drug.
 
IOSIP said:
It's not until your life is ruined by invega that you realise all we are is a constant stream of unending consciousness. Like sleep we don't remember i lay my head down and next minute I'm back to the reality that I ruined my life.
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The first month after invega I got an instant release adderall perception for 20 mg. The first time felt like I was in heaven compared to the invega hell. It also helps with the nonstop pacing
 
destroylonely said:
how long have you been recovering. how do you feel nowadays.
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I got the two loading doses of invega around May 2023 in a psych ward. They threatened to commit me, so I just took the shots, even though I’m against medication. They didn’t tell me about the black box warning (illegal? lol). I continued to get 2 or 3 more shots because I was ignorant and didn’t read about what I was taking until I started feeling suicidal, sleeping all day, bingeing on junk food, couldn’t feel weed, etc. I stopped around June or July 2023. I had the beginning of a horrible trip on mushrooms in August 2023, which I quickly aborted with my remaining Ativan that they sent me home with from the hospital. After that I gave up weed and alcohol because they were doing nothing for me and didn’t touch recreational drugs until October 2023 when I smoked flower and dabbed. The flower wasn’t noticeable, but the dabs got me very high at first. However, they quickly lost their effect. I kept dabbing despite this.

Fast-forward to July or August 2024 when I revisited mushrooms and had a great trip. Closed-eye visuals, laughing a lot, and overall feeling good. Unfortunately, my parents had me sectioned in September 2024 again when I made a non-serious suicidal comment while they were drinking. So, I got put back on oral risperidone and vraylar and got out September 30, 2024. I could get high on dabs again when I first got out, but it faded again. Idk if it was the vraylar helping it or just a t break or what. But, either the risperidone or the vraylar accumulated again and now I can’t get high again pretty much ever since then. I stopped the risperidone first, then the vraylar. The risperidone made me a straight up zombie, and the vraylar seemed to affect my sleep. Risperidone is awful, but vraylar may be a little less shitty. Idk though.

So, now instead of dabbing so much THC, I’m trying these vape carts from my dispo that are 1:1:1 THC:CBD:CBN. Don’t really get me high, but I think they calm me down and they seem really good for sleep. I’ve had a lot of dreams recently, which I take as a good sign.

I’m also trying to eat a WFPB-dominant diet. I tried keto but didn’t find it sustainable, personally. And, I don’t have a blood ketone monitor, which is another $100 or so.

Going to keep walking a lot and using sauna, hot tub, hopefully some resistance machines, eating healthy, sleeping well, and using psilocybin and my thc:cbd:cbn vape. Also might try the occasional dxm dose.
 
paranoid android said:
I would also recommend weightlifting for boosting your mood. It has really boosted my mood alot and being in shape has really helped my confidence overall. I may be 42 years old (almost 40 fucking 3!) but i am in far better shape now then when i was 20 and working at bricklaying all day. I use 50lbs and 60lbs dumbbells i could never lift that much when i was young.

When i was on invega and abilify i was 225lbs of fat. Then i went on the very shitty latuda and rapidly lost weight until i was barely 170lbs. I got to skinny for awile. So i wanted to get in shape and now im 205lbs of mostly muscle. I am still on the zypexa but i get no weight gain from it.

I am convinced though that invega and abilify fucked my testosterone levels. Mine where lower then my friend who is on daily methadone. Thankfully after just 2 injections of testosterone my levels are now more or less normal. I get 0 side effects from the test and i have way more energy since going on it. I have noticed a increase in muscle definition as well and i gained almost 10lbs since going on test about 3 months ago
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TRT? Does that mean you’re on it for life?
 
invega7654321 said:
I got the two loading doses of invega around May 2023 in a psych ward. They threatened to commit me, so I just took the shots, even though I’m against medication. They didn’t tell me about the black box warning (illegal? lol). I continued to get 2 or 3 more shots because I was ignorant and didn’t read about what I was taking until I started feeling suicidal, sleeping all day, bingeing on junk food, couldn’t feel weed, etc. I stopped around June or July 2023. I had the beginning of a horrible trip on mushrooms in August 2023, which I quickly aborted with my remaining Ativan that they sent me home with from the hospital. After that I gave up weed and alcohol because they were doing nothing for me and didn’t touch recreational drugs until October 2023 when I smoked flower and dabbed. The flower wasn’t noticeable, but the dabs got me very high at first. However, they quickly lost their effect. I kept dabbing despite this.

Fast-forward to July or August 2024 when I revisited mushrooms and had a great trip. Closed-eye visuals, laughing a lot, and overall feeling good. Unfortunately, my parents had me sectioned in September 2024 again when I made a non-serious suicidal comment while they were drinking. So, I got put back on oral risperidone and vraylar and got out September 30, 2024. I could get high on dabs again when I first got out, but it faded again. Idk if it was the vraylar helping it or just a t break or what. But, either the risperidone or the vraylar accumulated again and now I can’t get high again pretty much ever since then. I stopped the risperidone first, then the vraylar. The risperidone made me a straight up zombie, and the vraylar seemed to affect my sleep. Risperidone is awful, but vraylar may be a little less shitty. Idk though.

So, now instead of dabbing so much THC, I’m trying these vape carts from my dispo that are 1:1:1 THC:CBD:CBN. Don’t really get me high, but I think they calm me down and they seem really good for sleep. I’ve had a lot of dreams recently, which I take as a good sign.

I’m also trying to eat a WFPB-dominant diet. I tried keto but didn’t find it sustainable, personally. And, I don’t have a blood ketone monitor, which is another $100 or so.

Going to keep walking a lot and using sauna, hot tub, hopefully some resistance machines, eating healthy, sleeping well, and using psilocybin and my thc:cbd:cbn vape. Also might try the occasional dxm dose.
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i wont smoke again but i dont mind CBD gummies . THC makes go crazy but CBD is good.
 
TonyTonyChopper said:
i wont smoke again but i dont mind CBD gummies . THC makes go crazy but CBD is good.
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Thc alone might but have you tried cbd with thc? Cbd is antipsychotic. And it makes you crazy even after invega? You did say you were getting high, right? So the high caused psychosis for you, right?
 
invega7654321 said:
Thc alone might but have you tried cbd with thc? Cbd is antipsychotic. And it makes you crazy even after invega? You did say you were getting high, right? So the high caused psychosis for you, right?
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i cant have thc otherwise ill go psychotic again it makes me crazy which leads to hospitilizations which i dont wanna risk
 
TonyTonyChopper said:
i cant have thc otherwise ill go psychotic again it makes me crazy which leads to hospitilizations which i dont wanna risk
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100% agrees, thc seems sound for me, but since I can fell alcohol again I've been out every night with debatable people. It's just the rush of being able to feel something. I've had more alcohol and ,nicotine in the last 5 months than I have in 25+ years gah

Edit: if you can't tell, currently pissed on a load of vodka, haha. Maybe that's why I'm thinking I'm a lot better, because I've I've never drank so much. 100% possible
 
okthen said:
100% agrees, thc seems sound for me, but since I can fell alcohol again I've been out every night with debatable people. It's just the rush of being able to feel something. I've had more alcohol and ,nicotine in the last 5 months than I have in 25+ years gah

Edit: if you can't tell, currently pissed on a load of vodka, haha. Maybe that's why I'm thinking I'm a lot better, because I've I've never drank so much. 100% possible
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I dont have any experience with alcohol never had a drink before but it wont work anyway. I'm staying clean and healing naturally inshallah. In 1 month i will be 1 year since last injection , just on olanzapine now.
 
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TonyTonyChopper said:
I dont have any experience with alcohol never had a drink before but it wont work anyway. I'm staying clean and healing naturally inshallah. In 1 month i will be 1 year since last injection , just on olanzapine now.
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O, I've drank, but never enough to get passed. These last 3 weeks, since it seems the only thing I can feel decently, I've been drinking over a bottle a day. Might be luck, I don't know. I do like people who drink tho, they are interesting and different compared to most people. Currently drank about 900ml of vodka and I definitely feel it. I will say people have stopped drinking a while before me, so .my tolerance is definitely up compared to everyone. I have always had a huge alcohol tolerance tho, so who knows haah
 
The first 4 months, I definitely wouldn't be getting out like I am now tho, so imdwfinelwtly better. Never liked alcohol tho, now it's my favourite haha
 
TonyTonyChopper said:
I will never try alcohol lol no thanks
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Don't blame u, never tried alcohol in the 29 years I've been alive. Well I have, but never in decent amounts. Now I can't feel anythi g I've had quite a bit. It's allowed me to be around people who indulge I'm that stuff. It's a decent night, till it catches up and I start getting hangovers I'd imagine haga
 
hope yall r recoverin. wont spew the workout stuff. stay sober tho and eat healthy. i wanted to say what bein on invega taught me. what doesnt kill u only makes u stronger. bein on invega was the worst time of my life. i might sound blessed for sayin that since theres worse out there but yea it sucked. yall should know. now that ive recovered ive become so much more resilient. nothin really phases me. as a matter of fact. from all the positive growth the journey brought along i kinda look forward to the growth thatll follow any hardships i face. we only bounce back stronger so i take it as a sign that im about to level up. know all of u will stand even taller after all this. god bless u all
 
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