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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 9

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IOSIP said:
It's my birthday tomorrow I turn 38. I couldn't care less i dont want birthday messages from people. I just want this nightmare to stop. But it isn't stopping it just keeps going.

I'm just so scared guys that I'm going to live in poverty the rest of my life with a disability either that or i kill myself which I can't stomach the thought of.

Why did this happen, what is this reality we live in. God cannot exist surely.
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i can kind of relate. i got the invega injection one month before my birthday and i had to spend it laying in bed having panic attacks. i also just got out of the hospital for intense suicidal ideation over this drug. i appreciate all the "you will recover" messages but it's kind of like when you're stuck in this state right now you could only take so much. there are most likely hundreds of suicides we will never know about. i know it's difficult now but i'm on month three. the akithisia is slowly fading. i can promise you it's one of the first side effects to go.
 
I was also questioning the existence of god and being mad at him for letting me suffer like this don’t worry ur not alone
 
julianlz7 said:
Keep going and be strong I know how hard it is too because I have 20+ horrible side effects and also can’t sleep at all some nights 0 hours 0! But I know I will recover and be stronger than the doctor who did this to us you will recover too the brain and body has ability to heal after time even tho right now it feels like eternity
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what are your side effects.
 
destroylonely said:
what are your side effects.
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I will list them here
Genital numbness

Full body numbness

Weaker erection/sexual dysfunction

Little to no watery cum

Pleasureless orgasm/ loss of libido

Anhedonia

Emotional numbness/ no emotions

No sleep/non restful sleep, severe insomnia

Bladder issues/trouble peeing

Bowel movement issues/trouble pooping

Bad brain fog

Can’t cry

Can’t laugh

Weak muscles

Feeling like a zombie

Head pain/ headaches

No motivation/ energy

Bad depression

Memory loss

Depersonalization/derealization

No libido

Difficulty breathing

Can’t yawn at all

Akathisia

Blurry vision

Anxiety

Dizziness/ lightheaded

Feeling of brain damage

Restlessness

Loss of interest in hobbies and activities

Can’t focus on anything

Can’t fart

Inability to feel sleepy

I can’t feel music
Some of this might be from the handful of antidepressants/antipsychotics and benzos that I was on in the last two months but I was never on any of them for more than a week so I’m hoping all the side effects will be gone a long with the invega effects
 
julianlz7 said:
I will list them here
Genital numbness

Full body numbness

Weaker erection/sexual dysfunction

Little to no watery cum

Pleasureless orgasm/ loss of libido

Anhedonia

Emotional numbness/ no emotions

No sleep/non restful sleep, severe insomnia

Bladder issues/trouble peeing

Bowel movement issues/trouble pooping

Bad brain fog

Can’t cry

Can’t laugh

Weak muscles

Feeling like a zombie

Head pain/ headaches

No motivation/ energy

Bad depression

Memory loss

Depersonalization/derealization

No libido

Difficulty breathing

Can’t yawn at all

Akathisia

Blurry vision

Anxiety

Dizziness/ lightheaded

Feeling of brain damage

Restlessness

Loss of interest in hobbies and activities

Can’t focus on anything

Can’t fart

Inability to feel sleepy

I can’t feel music
Some of this might be from the handful of antidepressants/antipsychotics and benzos that I was on in the last two months but I was never on any of them for more than a week so I’m hoping all the side effects will be gone a long with the invega effects
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This is so scary.
 
Alll day every day i get to think about how ive ruined my life by inviting a friend over who gave me drugs that sent me into psychosis. The damage he has done to my life is immense. I am filled with so much regret. My life will never be the same again.
 
I just want to stop thinking of suicide but the longer this akathisia and ahendonia last im just thinking about death, I can't live like this guys forever. I'm so young I can live my whole life like thus.

There are cases of chronic akathisia im praying so hard its not that.
 
IOSIP said:
Alll day every day i get to think about how ive ruined my life by inviting a friend over who gave me drugs that sent me into psychosis. The damage he has done to my life is immense. I am filled with so much regret. My life will never be the same again.
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I can keep thinking about the day I got sent to the hospital for smoking weed and drinking mix at home then got injected for a false schizophrenia diagnosis. If only I stayed clean and didn’t do drugs I would be fine today and the second time I was injected the doctor lured and deceived me into getting the injection again I was stupid to let them shot me again I can’t stop thinking about it
 
I also can’t get a job right now as this poison disabled me but we will both recover with time it might take a year or longer depending on how much you were injected with and how many times you got needled it’s just going to take time and other ways of cleaning the body of this toxin unfortunately
 
julianlz7 said:
I also can’t get a job right now as this poison disabled me but we will both recover with time it might take a year or longer depending on how much you were injected with and how many times you got needled it’s just going to take time and other ways of cleaning the body of this toxin unfortunately
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God its so hard isn't it.
 
IOSIP said:
I just want to stop thinking of suicide but the longer this akathisia and ahendonia last im just thinking about death, I can't live like this guys forever. I'm so young I can live my whole life like thus.

There are cases of chronic akathisia im praying so hard its not that.
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Have you gone to the doctor about your akathisia?
 
Benztropine isn't helping for the akathisia at all by the way day 3 of 2mg tablets and its having no affect
 
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paranoid android said:
That doctor is a fucking idiot go see another one
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There is no treatment available for akathisia though so what's the point. I think it's because of the anhedonia

He's treating me like a drug addict because I had drug induced psychosis a moment in time that has forever changed the course of my life.

I'm so scared of death, but im fixated on it at the moment as only death will stop this torture

How can I live like this ? I dont know what to do.
 
IOSIP said:
Th

There is no treatment available for akathisia though so what's the point. I think it's because of the anhedonia

He's treating me like a drug addict because I had drug induced psychosis a moment in time that has forever changed the course of my life.

I'm so scared of death, but im fixated on it at the moment as only death will stop this torture

How can I live like this ? I dont know what to do.
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Akathisia is treated with Benzotropine and benzos if needed. So go find another doctor and get it treated
 
Alll day every day I pace the fucking house it's killing me slowly i have no enjoyment of anything I haven't been sleeping the last 2 nights 🙃
 
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