I'm back, and I have cleaned up the thread a fair bit.
The suicide rate from Invega is not as high as 97%. It just isn't. I'm not sure where you're getting that number from, but it is not helpful to post things like that in this thread, where people are trying to recover and looking for help and support.
I'm so sorry you're struggling so much at the moment. Please talk to us and let us know how you're doing when you wake up. We care about you ❤
Fuck, I am SO sad for your loss

It is so hard when we lose our furbabies. Don't beat yourself up that you were scrolling on your phone when it happened. You were there in the room so he knew you were there ❤ Let us know how you're going okay? I've been through the loss of pets A LOT so I know what it's like.
That suicide rate statistic is simply not true. Please do not worry yourself about it ❤