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Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 12

paranoid android said:
No offence but you may need heavier meds if you keep destroying shit
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Most of the crazier stuff I done in my life was on antipsychotics. They completely get rid of my ability care or have any self awareness so I can practically do anything without realizing the consequences of my actions. Never really helped my anger kinda causes a paradidoxal reaction because of the akathisia I also abuse drugs more because of the anhedonia.

I fucked myself so badly because of that shit, thats why I lost all my friends.
 
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fuckabout89 said:
Most of the crazier stuff I done in my life was on antipsychotics. They completely get rid of my ability care or have any self awareness so I can practically do anything without realizing the consequences of my actions. Never really helped my anger kinda causes a paradidoxal reaction because of the akathisia I also abuse drugs more because of the anhedonia.

I fucked myself so badly because of that shit, thats why I lost all my friends.
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Strangely enough, I was on Abilify for like 2 days in 2014. I was just about to punch the shit out of a $12,000 batch printer at work. I was angry enough to literally kill someone. I did punch a box of plastic spice sachets that had not been printed on. I got away with that, but if I'd hit the printer I'd have ended up without a job...

Well, I don't work there anyway as of July 2024 because they wanted someone's hand up my arse the whole time I'm working there, they wanted full disability funding for full-time support, which I told them I was not going to give them because the disability service is never going to approve of that. This was after a meltdown caused by a fight with a friend who wanted to use me for fucking weed. I told him that I wasn't going to be a part of that, and we're no longer "friends". It's funny how things and people change. You lose things. You lose things. You keep losing things. You just keep losing things.

Sometimes, I can't wait for this life to be over. I can reminisce over the good things and know that I won't be suffering any further.

Anti-psychotics...I'm not sure which ones really work. My guess is none of them will work, and if I am ever foolish enough to start on them, I'll probably be dead a lot sooner than anticipated. Especially if my hearing gets worse, and I know it will on that shit.

Pretty much, most drugs affect me in a not-so-nice way. Yes, I'm a good candidate for a laboratory study, a full-blown, full-spec lab study. But no one seems interested.

If something works nicely for me, it's only very, oh so very temporary, and then the bad shit starts happening. It's like there is no way out of this. I am rarely able to cry for some strange reason, even if I am in excruciating pain. I'm also impervious to pain. Also, another funny thing is I do have the occasional urge to cry after a big meal, especially something like pizza, if I have something terribly upsetting on my mind. One example was what happened to those 150+ schoolgirls at that Iranian school. I'd been told what had happened, and later, while eating a pizza, I was suddenly in God-awful mental pain and struggling to hold back, and that was some of the worst pain I've ever felt.

I still feel bad about it. I think I'm going to get worse, despite wishing and longing to feel better. I want to get better, and I'm trying, but shit keeps happening that keeps pushing me back so many squares that I'm not even at square 1...more like square minus 10.
 
Flynnal said:
Strangely enough, I was on Abilify for like 2 days in 2014. I was just about to punch the shit out of a $12,000 batch printer at work. I was angry enough to literally kill someone. I did punch a box of plastic spice sachets that had not been printed on. I got away with that, but if I'd hit the printer I'd have ended up without a job...

Well, I don't work there anyway as of July 2024 because they wanted someone's hand up my arse the whole time I'm working there, they wanted full disability funding for full-time support, which I told them I was not going to give them because the disability service is never going to approve of that. This was after a meltdown caused by a fight with a friend who wanted to use me for fucking weed. I told him that I wasn't going to be a part of that, and we're no longer "friends". It's funny how things and people change. You lose things. You lose things. You keep losing things. You just keep losing things.

Sometimes, I can't wait for this life to be over. I can reminisce over the good things and know that I won't be suffering any further.

Anti-psychotics...I'm not sure which ones really work. My guess is none of them will work, and if I am ever foolish enough to start on them, I'll probably be dead a lot sooner than anticipated. Especially if my hearing gets worse, and I know it will on that shit.

Pretty much, most drugs affect me in a not-so-nice way. Yes, I'm a good candidate for a laboratory study, a full-blown, full-spec lab study. But no one seems interested.

If something works nicely for me, it's only very, oh so very temporary, and then the bad shit starts happening. It's like there is no way out of this. I am rarely able to cry for some strange reason, even if I am in excruciating pain. I'm also impervious to pain. Also, another funny thing is I do have the occasional urge to cry after a big meal, especially something like pizza, if I have something terribly upsetting on my mind. One example was what happened to those 150+ schoolgirls at that Iranian school. I'd been told what had happened, and later, while eating a pizza, I was suddenly in God-awful mental pain and struggling to hold back, and that was some of the worst pain I've ever felt.

I still feel bad about it. I think I'm going to get worse, despite wishing and longing to feel better. I want to get better, and I'm trying, but shit keeps happening that keeps pushing me back so many squares that I'm not even at square 1...more like square minus 10.
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I have anger isseus too my man, have explosive anger and the whole world stops turning.

I been mostly isolated since 2020, no friends, nothing sitting at home by myself. Sitting ruminating over my fuck ups and shitty life. Its fucked man my health is deteriorating fastly and I'll be glad when im gone its nothing but pure misery. I hate life so much I wish my cancer when I was younger took me.
 
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fuckabout89 said:
A couple dates lol. What happened with the first one?
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Just finished up the second date with the girl I went on the first date on. She’s not my favorite nor do I envision a long term relationship with her at all but at least it’s nice to practice conversational skills and get out of the house.
 
fuckabout89 said:
I have anger isseus too my man, have explosive anger and the whole world stops turning.

I been mostly isolated since 2020, no friends, nothing sitting at home by myself. Sitting ruminating over my fuck ups and shitty life. It’s fucked man my health is deteriorating fastly and I'll be glad when im gone it’s Most of the crazier stuff I done in my life was on antipsychotics. They completely get rid of my ability care or have any self awareness so I can practically do anything without realizing the consequences of my actions. Never really helped my anger kinda causes a paradidoxal reaction because of the akathisia I also abuse drugs more because of the anhedonia.
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fuckabout89 said:
I fucked myself so badly because of that shit, thats why I lost all my friends.
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I lost all my friends as well and am dealing with this alone . I have intense rage that is muted because my life is post pined . I feel fucked
 
Trueart2 said:
Just finished up the second date with the girl I went on the first date on. She’s not my favorite nor do I envision a long term relationship with her at all but at least it’s nice to practice conversational skills and get out of the house.
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How do you meet girls for dates ? Internet dating or asking out in person
 
Trueart2 said:
Just finished up the second date with the girl I went on the first date on. She’s not my favorite nor do I envision a long term relationship with her at all but at least it’s nice to practice conversational skills and get out of the house.
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She thicker or skinny? I like em on thicker side as long as they dont look like orks, big butt and boobies.

Lucky if you ever get a response on dating sites
 
Hello everyone. This is my first time here. Sorry if I make mistakes, English is not my native language.

I received three Invega injections, the last one was in November 2025 (156 mg, 117 mg, and 78 mg).

It’s getting a little easier with time, and I’m hoping for a full recovery, like before the injections.

I was given these injections due to a doctor’s mistake. I do not have schizophrenia, bipolar disorder, or psychosis. The doctor said this medication would help with anxiety and that I would not be discharged until I received all three injections.

I am improving, but very slowly. The hardest part is muscle rigidity, lack of libido, and shallow sleep.

I hope everyone who suffered from this drug can recover. Don’t give up. I will post updates if there are any changes
 
RisperdalConsta50mg said:
Sorry to hear that, we are in the same boat, almost 2 years have passed for me (i’am at 21 months in 5 days) and this shit just don’t get better, i only got tinnitus at 13 months, that was my “reward” for waiting 1 year..

It’s an never ending story, at the beginning you think it may take some weeks, then you reach 1-3 months and nothing happen, so you think it may take around 6-9 months then you wait but nothing improve, you let time pass until you hit the 10-12 months, and nothing happen, nothing change, nothing improve..

At 13 months you wake up one day and your ears start to ringing and never stop since, you start to be scared but people around the forums says it can take 1.5 year to feel better so you keep waiting hitting the 15th month, then you reach the 18th month, but nothing is happening, nothing change, no improvements..

You keep waiting meanwhile you are in pure agony, you hit the 21th month, and nothing has changed, still suffering and in agony, but then you have come so far that you will wait the infamous 2 years mark, the “24 months”, because everybody say that after 2 years they fully heal..

But what if at 24 months just nothing happen? I’am sorry that I can’t help you, and nobody can really help us, if you are lucky you have a family that support you, belive you, and it’s there for you to not fall into desperation, if you are unlucky you are alone in this agony.

No-one can help us, there is no “medicine” that can restore the damage, people keep saying “it gets better just wait”.

So you wait, but it don’t get better…
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Blocking dopamine and serotonine cause a disconnection to the frontal lobe, as the effects we have are pretty similar to the old lobotomy, the fact is even months or years after the harm, things just don’t improve, it seems like the lobotomy is permanent, like they disconnected our frontal lobe in a way that the brain cannot anymore connect the part who was chemically amputated.

I start to beliving that people who claim they recovered they never got the injections because i’am not recovering from 2 injections 21 months ago.
 
fuckabout89 said:
She thicker or skinny? I like em on thicker side as long as they dont look like orks, big butt and boobies.

Lucky if you ever get a response on dating sites
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She’s a thicker one. I like em athletic and thick but my favorite one is supposedly super strong.
 
RisperdalConsta50mg said:
Blocking dopamine and serotonine cause a disconnection to the frontal lobe, as the effects we have are pretty similar to the old lobotomy, the fact is even months or years after the harm, things just don’t improve, it seems like the lobotomy is permanent, like they disconnected our frontal lobe in a way that the brain cannot anymore connect the part who was chemically amputated.

I start to beliving that people who claim they recovered they never got the injections because i’am not recovering from 2 injections 21 months ago.
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Dude i had the injections and recovered. Dont call me a liar please and thank you
 
I recently learned that the brain strives for balance (homeostasis), so I believe recovery is possible, even if it takes time. Everyone’s body is different (especially metabolism), and sometimes it just needs support. After my last injection, I felt very bad, and a psychiatrist advised my mother to arrange IV fluids to support organ function, as well as amantadine, which promotes dopamine production, thereby reducing side effects.

In addition, intramuscular injections of B vitamins (B1, B6, B12), as well as B12 alone, helped me personally. I’ve also read that antipsychotics may affect vitamin levels, reducing their reserves.
Next week, I want to get my prolactin levels checked. I suspect they might be elevated, which is directly affecting my weight and overall well-being (fatigue, decreased libido, and poor sleep)...

What specific 'supportive therapies' (like IV fluids, vitamins, etc.) have helped others here speed up their recovery?
 
InnerReturn said:
I recently learned that the brain strives for balance (homeostasis), so I believe recovery is possible, even if it takes time. Everyone’s body is different (especially metabolism), and sometimes it just needs support. After my last injection, I felt very bad, and a psychiatrist advised my mother to arrange IV fluids to support organ function, as well as amantadine, which promotes dopamine production, thereby reducing side effects.

In addition, intramuscular injections of B vitamins (B1, B6, B12), as well as B12 alone, helped me personally. I’ve also read that antipsychotics may affect vitamin levels, reducing their reserves.
Next week, I want to get my prolactin levels checked. I suspect they might be elevated, which is directly affecting my weight and overall well-being (fatigue, decreased libido, and poor sleep)...

What specific 'supportive therapies' (like IV fluids, vitamins, etc.) have helped others here speed up their recovery?
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If your a guy get your testosterone levels checked. Invega and abilify fucking tanked mine
 
InnerReturn said:
I recently learned that the brain strives for balance (homeostasis), so I believe recovery is possible, even if it takes time. Everyone’s body is different (especially metabolism), and sometimes it just needs support. After my last injection, I felt very bad, and a psychiatrist advised my mother to arrange IV fluids to support organ function, as well as amantadine, which promotes dopamine production, thereby reducing side effects.

In addition, intramuscular injections of B vitamins (B1, B6, B12), as well as B12 alone, helped me personally. I’ve also read that antipsychotics may affect vitamin levels, reducing their reserves.
Next week, I want to get my prolactin levels checked. I suspect they might be elevated, which is directly affecting my weight and overall well-being (fatigue, decreased libido, and poor sleep)...

What specific 'supportive therapies' (like IV fluids, vitamins, etc.) have helped others here speed up their recovery?
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Amantadine actually put me into psychosis following a boxing concussion. Be weary.
 
Feeling better, i can express myself better and my communication skills is better.
I see even when i post on social media i can try to articulate a point a bit better then before.
But still feeling like i was shot in the head, this thing reduce your iq like 30-50 points, i hope i can recover.
 
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