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Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 12

Invega is nightmare fuel. May is ask what is the main reasons someone would take it opposed to an alternative. What happens to you to take it?
 
mirsNeedsHisItch said:
Invega is nightmare fuel. May is ask what is the main reasons someone would take it opposed to an alternative. What happens to you to take it?
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End up in the psych ward too many times, or do something at the psych ward that permits them to inject you. Otherwise people just get duped into taking it because they’re unaware of the potential effects it may cause. Some people try invega after failed attempts with other antipsychotics
 
mirsNeedsHisItch said:
Invega is nightmare fuel. May is ask what is the main reasons someone would take it opposed to an alternative. What happens to you to take it?
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When you’re in the psych ward they just put you on meds and don’t tell you anything, in the ward I was risperidone and lexapro but didn’t find this out until I was almost out. I just took the meds when they said to because I didn’t have much choice. When I was leaving they told me I have to take invega and I get either pills or a shot but I chose shit because I didn’t want to have to take more meds everyday
 
twinpeaks123 said:
hey everyone, unfortunately i don’t have much positives to report, I fucked up my recovery by taking strattera back in mid February but i don’t have the tendency to rant in this forum anymore as I deem it useless, so i guess that’s a plus.
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I haven't taken anything. Still the same
 
invegaloner said:
When you’re in the psych ward they just put you on meds and don’t tell you anything, in the ward I was risperidone and lexapro but didn’t find this out until I was almost out. I just took the meds when they said to because I didn’t have much choice. When I was leaving they told me I have to take invega and I get either pills or a shot but I chose shit because I didn’t want to have to take more meds everyday
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On the opposite end of that some people like me where psychotic and needed meds but where denied any treatment. I went 3 months of being psychotic and having cotards and was given nothing. I also had severe opiate and cold turkey benzo withdrawals and was not even given a asprin for it. The only times i was given any meds was when they pinned me down and injected me with what was probably ativan when they threw me in solitary

The problem with the psych ward or one of the problems is that you seem not to get treatment if you really need t and if you dont need it you arent given any treatment. Also inpatient doctors tend to be the worst. A large part of that is because noone would voluntarily go to them. Thankfully i managed to ,luck into getting a shrink who usually didnt work inpatient and then got put on invega and i got the fuck out of there
 
Fuck I am also on a high dose of epival pills along invega and a sudden withdrawal from that can include a seizure . Even if you take the medicine for mood stability instead of seizure control , which I take it for , it will give you a seizure. They really screwed me . I’ll just demand the doc to reduce the epival and come off the injection then .
 
asr0101 said:
Fuck I am also on a high dose of epival pills along invega and a sudden withdrawal from that can include a seizure . Even if you take the medicine for mood stability instead of seizure control , which I take it for , it will give you a seizure. They really screwed me . I’ll just demand the doc to reduce the epival and come off the injection then .
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I was on epival for psychiatric reasons and nerve pain. You do have to taper coming off it but its generally not a big deal. I dont think i got any symptoms coming off it. But it was a long time ago i was on it
 
fuck man 150mg is truly brutal I can only listen to music and it doesn’t hit the same I’m just looking at the hours and counting them till sleep time . Unemployment is brutal as well I can’t take having free time and not being able to enjoy it . I just can’t help but laugh at my life at this point . My ocd managed to get worse on this “medicine”
 
paranoid android said:
I was on epival for psychiatric reasons and nerve pain. You do have to taper coming off it but its generally not a big deal. I dont think i got any symptoms coming off it. But it was a long time ago i was on it
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The problem is that Epival is ototoxic, like most anti-epileptics. Also, I've found anything that depresses the CNS, be it benzos, alcohol, barbiturates, and narcotics, as well as anti-epileptics (I've tried Tegretol, Trileptal, something called Leveciracetam, and Epilim) can cause me to spiral once I have a dark thought (eg. about a past fight, about losses, about stuff that upsets me, etc). All make me prone to serious rage attacks once I really spiral. I've broken $2000 office chairs, ripped the legs off an entire set of wooden chairs, tore a door of its hinges, compuer mice, keyboards, even broke a screen. You name it, destroyed so much stuff because of that shit.
 
Matthew01 said:
I'm in pain
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Me too but we can’t do nothing to help our brain to recover, doctors cannot help us, we are alone in thins nightmares.

I’am approaching 21 months of pure agony, because “it takes 2 years but it eventually get better”. But keeping further than the 2 year mark like that it’s not an option.

I’am sorry i can’t help you or help me, no one can help us, we are on our own. My “family” started to hating on me just because i’am in agony, they are very sick and sadistic against me, they told me to not bother them with my issue and they don’t want anymore to talk about what happened and they don’t want anymore hearing me complaining so i keep staying silent and they are giving me the silent treatment too. The sadism and the sickness..
 
Flynnal said:
The problem is that Epival is ototoxic, like most anti-epileptics. Also, I've found anything that depresses the CNS, be it benzos, alcohol, barbiturates, and narcotics, as well as anti-epileptics (I've tried Tegretol, Trileptal, something called Leveciracetam, and Epilim) can cause me to spiral once I have a dark thought (eg. about a past fight, about losses, about stuff that upsets me, etc). All make me prone to serious rage attacks once I really spiral. I've broken $2000 office chairs, ripped the legs off an entire set of wooden chairs, tore a door of its hinges, compuer mice, keyboards, even broke a screen. You name it, destroyed so much stuff because of that shit.
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No offence but you may need heavier meds if you keep destroying shit
 
paranoid android said:
No offence but you may need heavier meds if you keep destroying shit
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Most of the crazier stuff I done in my life was on antipsychotics. They completely get rid of my ability care or have any self awareness so I can practically do anything without realizing the consequences of my actions. Never really helped my anger kinda causes a paradidoxal reaction because of the akathisia I also abuse drugs more because of the anhedonia.

I fucked myself so badly because of that shit, thats why I lost all my friends.
 
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fuckabout89 said:
Most of the crazier stuff I done in my life was on antipsychotics. They completely get rid of my ability care or have any self awareness so I can practically do anything without realizing the consequences of my actions. Never really helped my anger kinda causes a paradidoxal reaction because of the akathisia I also abuse drugs more because of the anhedonia.

I fucked myself so badly because of that shit, thats why I lost all my friends.
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Strangely enough, I was on Abilify for like 2 days in 2014. I was just about to punch the shit out of a $12,000 batch printer at work. I was angry enough to literally kill someone. I did punch a box of plastic spice sachets that had not been printed on. I got away with that, but if I'd hit the printer I'd have ended up without a job...

Well, I don't work there anyway as of July 2024 because they wanted someone's hand up my arse the whole time I'm working there, they wanted full disability funding for full-time support, which I told them I was not going to give them because the disability service is never going to approve of that. This was after a meltdown caused by a fight with a friend who wanted to use me for fucking weed. I told him that I wasn't going to be a part of that, and we're no longer "friends". It's funny how things and people change. You lose things. You lose things. You keep losing things. You just keep losing things.

Sometimes, I can't wait for this life to be over. I can reminisce over the good things and know that I won't be suffering any further.

Anti-psychotics...I'm not sure which ones really work. My guess is none of them will work, and if I am ever foolish enough to start on them, I'll probably be dead a lot sooner than anticipated. Especially if my hearing gets worse, and I know it will on that shit.

Pretty much, most drugs affect me in a not-so-nice way. Yes, I'm a good candidate for a laboratory study, a full-blown, full-spec lab study. But no one seems interested.

If something works nicely for me, it's only very, oh so very temporary, and then the bad shit starts happening. It's like there is no way out of this. I am rarely able to cry for some strange reason, even if I am in excruciating pain. I'm also impervious to pain. Also, another funny thing is I do have the occasional urge to cry after a big meal, especially something like pizza, if I have something terribly upsetting on my mind. One example was what happened to those 150+ schoolgirls at that Iranian school. I'd been told what had happened, and later, while eating a pizza, I was suddenly in God-awful mental pain and struggling to hold back, and that was some of the worst pain I've ever felt.

I still feel bad about it. I think I'm going to get worse, despite wishing and longing to feel better. I want to get better, and I'm trying, but shit keeps happening that keeps pushing me back so many squares that I'm not even at square 1...more like square minus 10.
 
Flynnal said:
Strangely enough, I was on Abilify for like 2 days in 2014. I was just about to punch the shit out of a $12,000 batch printer at work. I was angry enough to literally kill someone. I did punch a box of plastic spice sachets that had not been printed on. I got away with that, but if I'd hit the printer I'd have ended up without a job...

Well, I don't work there anyway as of July 2024 because they wanted someone's hand up my arse the whole time I'm working there, they wanted full disability funding for full-time support, which I told them I was not going to give them because the disability service is never going to approve of that. This was after a meltdown caused by a fight with a friend who wanted to use me for fucking weed. I told him that I wasn't going to be a part of that, and we're no longer "friends". It's funny how things and people change. You lose things. You lose things. You keep losing things. You just keep losing things.

Sometimes, I can't wait for this life to be over. I can reminisce over the good things and know that I won't be suffering any further.

Anti-psychotics...I'm not sure which ones really work. My guess is none of them will work, and if I am ever foolish enough to start on them, I'll probably be dead a lot sooner than anticipated. Especially if my hearing gets worse, and I know it will on that shit.

Pretty much, most drugs affect me in a not-so-nice way. Yes, I'm a good candidate for a laboratory study, a full-blown, full-spec lab study. But no one seems interested.

If something works nicely for me, it's only very, oh so very temporary, and then the bad shit starts happening. It's like there is no way out of this. I am rarely able to cry for some strange reason, even if I am in excruciating pain. I'm also impervious to pain. Also, another funny thing is I do have the occasional urge to cry after a big meal, especially something like pizza, if I have something terribly upsetting on my mind. One example was what happened to those 150+ schoolgirls at that Iranian school. I'd been told what had happened, and later, while eating a pizza, I was suddenly in God-awful mental pain and struggling to hold back, and that was some of the worst pain I've ever felt.

I still feel bad about it. I think I'm going to get worse, despite wishing and longing to feel better. I want to get better, and I'm trying, but shit keeps happening that keeps pushing me back so many squares that I'm not even at square 1...more like square minus 10.
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I have anger isseus too my man, have explosive anger and the whole world stops turning.

I been mostly isolated since 2020, no friends, nothing sitting at home by myself. Sitting ruminating over my fuck ups and shitty life. Its fucked man my health is deteriorating fastly and I'll be glad when im gone its nothing but pure misery. I hate life so much I wish my cancer when I was younger took me.
 
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fuckabout89 said:
A couple dates lol. What happened with the first one?
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Just finished up the second date with the girl I went on the first date on. She’s not my favorite nor do I envision a long term relationship with her at all but at least it’s nice to practice conversational skills and get out of the house.
 
fuckabout89 said:
I have anger isseus too my man, have explosive anger and the whole world stops turning.

I been mostly isolated since 2020, no friends, nothing sitting at home by myself. Sitting ruminating over my fuck ups and shitty life. It’s fucked man my health is deteriorating fastly and I'll be glad when im gone it’s Most of the crazier stuff I done in my life was on antipsychotics. They completely get rid of my ability care or have any self awareness so I can practically do anything without realizing the consequences of my actions. Never really helped my anger kinda causes a paradidoxal reaction because of the akathisia I also abuse drugs more because of the anhedonia.
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fuckabout89 said:
I fucked myself so badly because of that shit, thats why I lost all my friends.
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I lost all my friends as well and am dealing with this alone . I have intense rage that is muted because my life is post pined . I feel fucked
 
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