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Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 12

One other thing I noticed with this invega is that I can't express/show my emotions as much through face expressions and body language, and am a lot more quiet and shy than I used to be. This would be to my disadvantage if there was a confrontation where I had to defend myself as body language and face expressions show how you're feeling to the person who's confronting you. I used to be quite an emotional person but it's like invega turned that side of me off in my brain.
 
Brendan Clark said:
One other thing I noticed with this invega is that I can't express/show my emotions as much through face expressions and body language, and am a lot more quiet and shy than I used to be. This would be to my disadvantage if there was a confrontation where I had to defend myself as body language and face expressions show how you're feeling to the person who's confronting you. I used to be quite an emotional person but it's like invega turned that side of me off in my brain.
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When I was on Abilify for like 3 days, if someone had confronted me and wanted to attack me physically I'd have probably ended up killing them. Same applies to SSRIs. They make me violent and incredibly aggressive and angry. They get rid of ALL anxiety. That's the entire fucking problem with these drugs. I could do anything, including homicide, while on them. SSRIs also turn off my dick, which wouldn't help my case either. Sexual frustration + loss of anxiety and lots and lots of anger, and you have some pretty fucking serious problems going on.

Loss of anxiety is one thing. That's OK. But loss of sexual function, anger and aggression, and wanting to really hurt someone (no matter what the reason), is NOT OK.

I wish SSRIs just got rid of anxiety...but they do a lot of other shit, and I cannot take them. I could literally turn into a murderer on them. That's not happening any time soon.
 
Flynnal said:
When I was on Abilify for like 3 days, if someone had confronted me and wanted to attack me physically I'd have probably ended up killing them. Same applies to SSRIs. They make me violent and incredibly aggressive and angry. They get rid of ALL anxiety. That's the entire fucking problem with these drugs. I could do anything, including homicide, while on them. SSRIs also turn off my dick, which wouldn't help my case either. Sexual frustration + loss of anxiety and lots and lots of anger, and you have some pretty fucking serious problems going on.

Loss of anxiety is one thing. That's OK. But loss of sexual function, anger and aggression, and wanting to really hurt someone (no matter what the reason), is NOT OK.

I wish SSRIs just got rid of anxiety...but they do a lot of other shit, and I cannot take them. I could literally turn into a murderer on them. That's not happening any time soon.
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Neither SSRIs nor Abilify are as bad as invega though. Invega doesn't make you more angry, but prevents you from being angry even if you should be angry. It just quiets your brain in a weird way.
 
Brendan Clark said:
Do you think the things that I used to be passionate about will come back when my brain receptors cycling completes the cycle? Will I go back to being the old me? That's what I want more than anything, as I feel like I lost part of who I was, the person I was intended to be. I feel like I lost my personality and I really don't like this current version of myself.
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You have an issue with duality and multiple state maths… I’ll try to explain.

Usually you are consistently knowing you from day to day, a gap is not normal. The gap is what is odd so you have something like Identity Vertigo.

(This is all theory but it fit with me).

Plausible is an issue: Johnson & Johnson Risperidone (Zyprexa), aka Invega (Paliperidone Palmitate — just with an extra OH addition to cheat Patent Law ($11.2Billion/Year Medication Category (only 1/3 declared, uh-oh left out of future Sciences much! (They often trawl these forums for legal issues… (I got you by the balls and you know it!)))…
Anyway, this drug has an Irreversible Antagonist, aka a blocker that can’t be in-stuck, so your receptor goes back into the nerve to recycle but that chemical might remain (highly illegal as it is no longer medication it is Brain Surgery Territory, a completely different Legal Catalog). The chemical stays in the Nerve as the Old Receptor testicles and a New One made… It clumps up that one too. Rejoice!!! Your Brain does this: with that area blockaded your Grey Matter builds a secondary system, it does the same job but it is not like the Imagining and Cinematography of the old one. The benefit is this one is Highly Encrypted, so things like NeuraLink won’t work… Go get a job in Intelligence! You’re Jonny Mneumonic (Keanu Reeves Movie, v.cool!).

A lot of this is known, so that dirty chemistry club is a bit sweaty currently. Your Public Defenders are after them, also they gotta pay, a lot, lots and lots and lots.
Just some current News events.

It does come back but in a different way. Eventually the Technology will just resolve it, maybe maximum 3 years I think.
Tech goes FAST, you might get 120 years in a life at your age…

I work on trying to solve this issue for you also. I’m a very good Geek, I know my stuff.

So you’ll have a treatment soon that can hunt down the Molecules that aren’t meant to be in your Body (Including Plastics — Unwanted Hydrocarbon Chain Lengths), and the Blockade Chemistry will disappear. It’s just Physics.

The Secondary Grey Matter Imagination seems a bit more Wispy, so you kinda miss intense imagining. Wait for the Tech. In the meantime, focus on the World around you, engage in the Holodeck here, COSMOS. You’ll have way more vivid dreams in the meantime, a compensation for not having daydream is your Brain gives you super intense Dreams every few days. Enjoy. Bit spooky at first.
 
chima said:
I'm back at abilify 5 mg once again. I realized my problem is much bigger than the injection, it's the black magic that was done to me. I feel like something unpure dwells in my body. I am lost and I don't know what I should do. I was born a muslim but I lived paranormal events that let me doubt Islam, at the same time I'm very much afraid of islamic hellfire and that's the only thing holding me back. Sorry for the subject, but this is like a cry for help. God knows it might be fruitful.
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Well if it was a ‘Good Story’, mathematically there’sa lot of folk about. Humans Calculate Life as Hydrocarbon Based Life, but life, thinking, as the Origin of Everything would maybe build it, is anything that has a set of nodes that can interact (basic explanation), so that can be many materials which actually means this place is not empty but Full!

Maybe you a chaperone trying to fix you up is a nicer idea. God doesn’t make Hellfire, they can do anything, they don’t need that. They can just change you to not be you, the fire is worthless. That doesn’t sound like them at all. Maybe just pick up the phone directly to them and not rely on a middle person or book, they can do that too can’t they, they don’t need ‘Middle People’! (I’m serious).

Who told you the Boss Supreme is like that? I’ll have a good word with them… It’s very insulting to say that about the Boss.

If I could hear them……………….. They’d say ‘you’ll be fine and they’ll help you out’……………….. Is what I’d likely heard.

Don’t listen to Religious Lunatics, they make sh1t up!
 
8up said:
You have an issue with duality and multiple state maths… I’ll try to explain.

Usually you are consistently knowing you from day to day, a gap is not normal. The gap is what is odd so you have something like Identity Vertigo.

(This is all theory but it fit with me).

Plausible is an issue: Johnson & Johnson Risperidone (Zyprexa), aka Invega (Paliperidone Palmitate — just with an extra OH addition to cheat Patent Law ($11.2Billion/Year Medication Category (only 1/3 declared, uh-oh left out of future Sciences much! (They often trawl these forums for legal issues… (I got you by the balls and you know it!)))…
Anyway, this drug has an Irreversible Antagonist, aka a blocker that can’t be in-stuck, so your receptor goes back into the nerve to recycle but that chemical might remain (highly illegal as it is no longer medication it is Brain Surgery Territory, a completely different Legal Catalog). The chemical stays in the Nerve as the Old Receptor testicles and a New One made… It clumps up that one too. Rejoice!!! Your Brain does this: with that area blockaded your Grey Matter builds a secondary system, it does the same job but it is not like the Imagining and Cinematography of the old one. The benefit is this one is Highly Encrypted, so things like NeuraLink won’t work… Go get a job in Intelligence! You’re Jonny Mneumonic (Keanu Reeves Movie, v.cool!).

A lot of this is known, so that dirty chemistry club is a bit sweaty currently. Your Public Defenders are after them, also they gotta pay, a lot, lots and lots and lots.
Just some current News events.

It does come back but in a different way. Eventually the Technology will just resolve it, maybe maximum 3 years I think.
Tech goes FAST, you might get 120 years in a life at your age…

I work on trying to solve this issue for you also. I’m a very good Geek, I know my stuff.

So you’ll have a treatment soon that can hunt down the Molecules that aren’t meant to be in your Body (Including Plastics — Unwanted Hydrocarbon Chain Lengths), and the Blockade Chemistry will disappear. It’s just Physics.

The Secondary Grey Matter Imagination seems a bit more Wispy, so you kinda miss intense imagining. Wait for the Tech. In the meantime, focus on the World around you, engage in the Holodeck here, COSMOS. You’ll have way more vivid dreams in the meantime, a compensation for not having daydream is your Brain gives you super intense Dreams every few days. Enjoy. Bit spooky at first.
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So my daydreaming and imagining won't return? According to AI the brain goes back to normal after discontinuing invega, like to its old self. I really want it to go back to my old thought patterns and brain, because this is just misery right now....I don't do anything in the day but typing here and going to Facebook, and just sitting on my bed with no thoughts or consciousness. Going online gave me satisfaction in June, but now not even that is appealing after June 30th shot at 50mg. What kind of life is this? My brain is so empty, is there really no possibility for it to be filled with the old thought patterns again? Is it too late for me? 9 doses of invega have really ruined me and knocked me over, I don't know how to get up again....Btw how many doses did you get? Do you think my dosage being at 9 caused all these problems for me and turned me into a vegetable. What I don't understand is there are those who take it for longer than myself and have no problems once stopping....
 
I don't know what to do, Y'all. I can't continue to live this awful life... Suicide is so difficult. After all this time, I'm still incredulous that two injections have done this level of damage to me.
How can that be?! I go on my Facebook, check out all the pictures, all the writings, all the song videos, all my friends & family... How can one doctor's decision to drug me destroy it all, just like that... My cat too, although obviously she's not brain-'damaged,' she's also down, lost her home, her comfort, and although I try, in essence lost her papa too... Her sadness adds more misery to mine.

Somebody help me. Anybody. Sorry to keep writing & writing, like I said, I don't know what to do, I'm just one lone voice (desperately) crying out in the wilderness.... Where is the 'hope' in this...
 
KubiKook said:
I don't know what to do, Y'all. I can't continue to live this awful life... Suicide is so difficult. After all this time, I'm still incredulous that two injections have done this level of damage to me.
How can that be?! I go on my Facebook, check out all the pictures, all the writings, all the song videos, all my friends & family... How can one doctor's decision to drug me destroy it all, just like that... My cat too, although obviously she's not brain-'damaged,' she's also down, lost her home, her comfort, and although I try, in essence lost her papa too... Her sadness adds more misery to mine.

Somebody help me. Anybody. Sorry to keep writing & writing, like I said, I don't know what to do, I'm just one lone voice (desperately) crying out in the wilderness.... Where is the 'hope' in this...
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Dude i had way more injections then you and am doing fine. Also you where in way better shape then me befoe you started injectons. Honestly if i where you i would get a full blood work up. prolactin, estradiol, test, everthing. Maybe start TRT? shit works wonders honestly. And maybe try ritalin to honestly damn the shit wakes you up
 
KubiKook said:
I don't know what to do, Y'all. I can't continue to live this awful life... Suicide is so difficult. After all this time, I'm still incredulous that two injections have done this level of damage to me. How can that be?! I go on my Facebook, check out all the pictures, all the writings, all the song videos, all my friends & family... How can one doctor's decision to drug me destroy it all, just like that... My cat too, although obviously she's not brain-damaged, she's also down, lost her home, her comfort, and although I try, in essence lost her papa too... Her sadness adds more misery to mine.

Somebody help me. Anybody. Sorry to keep writing & writing, like I said, I don't know what to do, I'm just one lone voice (desperately) crying out in the wilderness.... Where is the 'hope' in this...
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paranoid android said:
Dude i had way more injections then you and am doing fine. Also you where in way better shape then me befoe you started injectons. Honestly if i where you i would get a full blood work up. prolactin, estradiol, test, everthing. Maybe start TRT? shit works wonders honestly. And maybe try ritalin to honestly damn the shit wakes you up
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Yeah, you're lucky bro. I guess my brain was super-sensitive to Invega. I don't know what'll help me. We'll see what makes sense to try. Thanks for the suggestions.
 
KubiKook said:
Sorry, if you've written this before... How many injections did you get? And how long did you go through withdrawal issues?
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3 months worth of invega injection and 18 months of abilify injections. No wd issiues i was put onto latuda when i came off abilify. Latuda is literal poison though imo. Im on zyprexa now works great
 
paranoid android said:
3 months worth of invega injection and 18 months of abilify injections. No wd issiues i was put onto latuda when i came off abilify. Latuda is literal poison though imo. Im on zyprexa now works great
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Damn, you've been on a lot of sh*t. Like I said, you're lucky you're doing well. I guess you're brain could take it. Mine, not so much. Anyway, I didn't need any of these drugs. Such malpractice.
 
About to be 90 days off invega . Best decision I ever made . No longer feel totally numb . Libido is coming back although it’s not how it was before. Still feel a little numbness but I can enjoy my free time again .I got a job and I like the slight numbing effect as I can get used to the first few weeks with the numbing helping suppress my nerves . Feels like I’m in the sweet spot
 
asr0101 said:
About to be 90 days off invega . Best decision I ever made . No longer feel totally numb . Libido is coming back although it’s not how it was before. Still feel a little numbness but I can enjoy my free time again .I got a job and I like the slight numbing effect as I can get used to the first few weeks with the numbing helping suppress my nerves . Feels like I’m in the sweet spot
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How many doses of invega did you get?
 
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