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Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 12

Brendan Clark said:
I feel like a diminished version of myself just now due to invega as if the old, true version of myself is buried in the past. Will I ever go back to being the real me, or is he gone for good?
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I ask myself the same question. I wish we could all recover as soon as possible
 
I have so many regrets. Regrets for not speaking out about this earlier and trying to get changed to another drug. I don't see the point to life....
 
Brendan Clark said:
I have so many regrets. Regrets for not speaking out about this earlier and trying to get changed to another drug. I don't see the point to life....
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No amount of regret can change the past. We just need to accept the fact that life has become different for a while. That we have stepped out of the game, and now we need to focus on getting through this stage with honor and dignity. I also don’t see the point in continuing if this is forever, if I am doomed to decades of withering existence, but according to many people’s stories, recovery does come. Right now I’m struggling with suicidal thoughts, my brain is painting dark pictures of how I could do it. It hurts me even to think about the future. But the truth is that we all want to get there, we all want to be happy. Right now fate is dealing us the worst cards, but that doesn’t mean there aren’t trump cards at the bottom of the deck. Perhaps we are only at the very beginning of our long journey
 
InnerReturn said:
No amount of regret can change the past. We just need to accept the fact that life has become different for a while. That we have stepped out of the game, and now we need to focus on getting through this stage with honor and dignity. I also don’t see the point in continuing if this is forever, if I am doomed to decades of withering existence, but according to many people’s stories, recovery does come. Right now I’m struggling with suicidal thoughts, my brain is painting dark pictures of how I could do it. It hurts me even to think about the future. But the truth is that we all want to get there, we all want to be happy. Right now fate is dealing us the worst cards, but that doesn’t mean there aren’t trump cards at the bottom of the deck. Perhaps we are only at the very beginning of our long journey
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I think you've got a better chance of recovery than myself though, as you got 3 shots whereas I got 9, three times the amount. None of the things that used to bring me joy and happiness are appealing to me anymore, that was different in June. Now I spend my day just sitting not knowing what to do in life. Then I think of myself this time last year and get depressed knowing how much I've changed. I think my D2 receptors are blocked and would really like to get a D2 receptor occupancy and serotonin receptor occupancy scan at one of the universities that do it. I'll write to them to see if I can be a research participant cause they don't offer it to the public by appointments. Then they can monitor it over time. I think when and if invega gets banned they should offer this to all those who took it.
 
Damn y'all, these psych system monsters stole every bit of beauty from my life. I'm left entirely bereft, without the heart & soul that drove me, moved me, was at the very core of my being... : ( -
 
Brendan Clark said:
When I look back at who I used to be I feel like such a diminished version of myself, like the person I would have hated becoming. This drug has turned me into my worst nightmare version of myself. Will I ever go back to my old self again?
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I not only recovered but am doing alot better then pre injection so you can to. I would get switched to zyprexa it works geat for me without many side effects
 
paranoid android said:
I had 3 months worth on invega injections so i guess 6. I was then put on abilify injections for about 18 months and they where just as bad. Now im on zyprexa and doing great
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See I got 9 invega injections over 8 months so that means my recovery might be different. I just got too much invega...
 
paranoid android said:
I started to recover at about the 3 or 4 month mark off the abilify injections. Anhedonia started to go away first then sexual function came back. Now im in way better shape then before the injections
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How would you explain why people who receive less claim they are damaged and cannot recover?
 
KubiKook said:
I did read that these antipsychotics can cause permanent damage, mainly brain atrophy in gray & white matter. And tardive dyskinesia too.
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Very rarely they can cause TD and extrapyramidal symptoms. And yes sometimes thos can be permeant. But those are very rare with never antipsychotics. I had akathisia from latuda and that was absolute torture. I had to call the ambulance but i was waiting so long i treated it myself with morphine and clonazepam. I was getting mild akathisia on and off for awile. Fuck latuda anyway

Brain atrophy may just as easy come from untreated schizophrenia and also depression
 
paranoid android said:
Very rarely they can cause TD and extrapyramidal symptoms. And yes sometimes thos can be permeant. But those are very rare with never antipsychotics. I had akathisia from latuda and that was absolute torture. I had to call the ambulance but i was waiting so long i treated it myself with morphine and clonazepam. I was getting mild akathisia on and off for awile. Fuck latuda anyway

Brain atrophy may just as easy come from untreated schizophrenia and also depression
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Gottcha. Thanks, PA. Peace.
 
i feel like a zombie a weak system that’s chemically poisoned but mainly my nose being blocked hurts so much
 
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