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Mental Health Coming off Invega Sustenna (Paliperidone) v3

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Ghostv2314 said:
I went to the gym today for the first time since starting Invega. Muscle weakness was a really bad symptom for me in the beginning. After a lifetime of being in great shape, I was unable to even do ten pushups. My arms would literally start trembling and shaking around 7-8. Now my pushups are up to the 40-50 range and I was just able to do a full hour long workout hitting all my major muscle groups. Feels good to have my strength coming back.

My social skills are slowly coming back too. I hung out with some friends the other day and spent the night catching up, playing games and laughing. I was actually able to be present and contribute to the conversations. Everyone was drinking wine, and I drank along with them but I still can’t feel it yet, so that’s a bummer.

I’m 4 months off now. Overall definitely feeling better than when I first started, looking forward to more improvements.
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Can You feel joy as you said you were laughing or you still feeling no emotions
 
You know there's a mute button, if people are offensive you can mute them, but lets be civil and not trash each other irrespective of different view points. I will admit it is disheartening to see negative posts all the time and we would appreciate if the negative spams could tone down. Regardless of your stance everyone's opinions are valid, valuable and appreciated, would hate to have any of them silenced (Muted).
 
Finessinit said:
You know there's a mute button, if people are offensive you can mute them, but lets be civil and not trash each other irrespective of different view points. I will admit it is disheartening to see negative posts all the time and we would appreciate if the negative spams could tone down. Regardless of your stance everyone's opinions are valid, valuable and appreciated, would hate to have any of them silenced (Muted).
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You should be a PREACHER 🙌
 
Finessinit said:
Can You feel joy as you said you were laughing or you still feeling no emotions
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I am able to feel happiness and joy. I find stuff to joke about and laugh at pretty much everyday. The emotions I’m waiting for are more sentimental emotions. For example crying, feeling deep nostalgia, etc. In the beginning, I was absolutely hopeless and crying on the inside but I couldn’t express it by actually crying. Nowadays I feel more positive about my situation, but I still don’t have the ability to cry about sad things. I can’t cry tears of joy either. So I’d say I have basic happiness but it’s not intense enough to overwhelm me and make me get emotional. Whereas before I could definitely cry some sentimental tears during important family moments, for example.
 
Ghostv2314 said:
I am able to feel happiness and joy. I find stuff to joke about and laugh at pretty much everyday. The emotions I’m waiting for are more sentimental emotions. For example crying, feeling deep nostalgia, etc. In the beginning, I was absolutely hopeless and crying on the inside but I couldn’t express it by actually crying. Nowadays I feel more positive about my situation, but I still don’t have the ability to cry about sad things. I can’t cry tears of joy either. So I’d say I have basic happiness but it’s not intense enough to overwhelm me and make me get emotional. Whereas before I could definitely cry some sentimental tears during important family moments, for example.
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Man I hope your emotions return to you and your blessed! good to hear you can experience joy and laughter as well as be in social situations. Just wondering what kind of state were you in when you first got invega shots, like what symptoms did you or are you suffering from? and how many shots did you have?
 
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Ghostv2314 said:
I am able to feel happiness and joy. I find stuff to joke about and laugh at pretty much everyday. The emotions I’m waiting for are more sentimental emotions. For example crying, feeling deep nostalgia, etc. In the beginning, I was absolutely hopeless and crying on the inside but I couldn’t express it by actually crying. Nowadays I feel more positive about my situation, but I still don’t have the ability to cry about sad things. I can’t cry tears of joy either. So I’d say I have basic happiness but it’s not intense enough to overwhelm me and make me get emotional. Whereas before I could definitely cry some sentimental tears during important family moments, for example.
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Also was regaining joy and being able to interact with your friends something you couldn’t do/have and returned through recovery or were they never affected?
 
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Ghostv2314 said:
I am able to feel happiness and joy. I find stuff to joke about and laugh at pretty much everyday. The emotions I’m waiting for are more sentimental emotions. For example crying, feeling deep nostalgia, etc. In the beginning, I was absolutely hopeless and crying on the inside but I couldn’t express it by actually crying. Nowadays I feel more positive about my situation, but I still don’t have the ability to cry about sad things. I can’t cry tears of joy either. So I’d say I have basic happiness but it’s not intense enough to overwhelm me and make me get emotional. Whereas before I could definitely cry some sentimental tears during important family moments, for example.
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Were you always able to feel happiness and joy aswell as interact with people without it being awkward?
 
dirtyinvega said:
You can bring up the past posts all you like. And make look bad and a liar. But I know the truth. Underlying issues my arse mate. I tried everything to feel better and I was up front when I wasn't well and going though the whole ideal and if you think all those meds made my recovery rate lower you can think again mate. I lost my friend to this shit because he went into deep depression and didn't recover I won't have anyone tell me they can fully recover.
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If I was a moderator I would correct your sentence like “ But I think I know the truth” . Fully recovery is possible, as many others stated. I had 3 shots and I think I’ll fully recover in a few months.
Coming back after 1-2 months with update
 
Wokengenius said:
Well it’s been a little over a year for me and still I’m suffering. I just want to know when does the creativity, energy and deep thoughts come back? Also it’s like I can’t feel a sense of peace I just feel tense and irritable all the time... Does that ever subside?
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For me it went away after 6 months. Thats my story. Surprised you ve been at it for a year and still no improvements. How many shots did you take?
 
Ok imagine your dopamine and serotonin flowing like a river. Invega is a giant damn that they clogged the water with.
Truly sad and evil what has been done I just want my dopamine and serotonin back
 
NoMoreZombi said:
For me it went away after 6 months. Thats my story. Surprised you ve been at it for a year and still no improvements. How many shots did you take?
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I only 2 shots but mind you I had never been exposed to APs before. I mean I can see that I’ve improved but I still suffer from occasional depression, brain fog and constant numbness. I lost my creativity and motivation. When all that recovered how did it happen was it progressive or instant?
 
Wokengenius said:
I only 2 shots but mind you I had never been exposed to APs before. I mean I can see that I’ve improved but I still suffer from occasional depression, brain fog and constant numbness. I lost my creativity and motivation. When all that recovered how did it happen was it progressive or instant?
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Almost instant
 
I weighted myself today , the last time was is the psych ward one year ago, I was 185 pounds today I am 222pounds!!! What a surprise I knew I got fatter, but 50pounds !
 
This isn't right what has happened guys... I cannot enjoy exercise tobacco he'll I can't even get drunk. Does the ability to feel substances ever come back? This isn't right it's almost like they shut off you river, they can it up so you cannot have "schitzo" thoughtsm . Such a joke miserable expierence... I can't even get a natural high from exercise
 
Finessinit said:
Man I hope your emotions return to you and your blessed! good to hear you can experience joy and laughter as well as be in social situations. Just wondering what kind of state were you in when you first got invega shots, like what symptoms did you or are you suffering from? and how many shots did you have?
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When I first got the shots, it was hell. I wanted to die everyday. It’s the worst I’ve ever felt in my life. It really does feel like a chemical castration and lobotomy. Poverty of thought, major anhedonia, complete removal of emotions, erectile dysfunction, you name it. I basically had every possible side effect minus tardive dyskinesia. I also didn’t laugh or even smile for the first 2-3 months. I was extremely suicidal and all I did was research Invega while lying in bed all day. I was convinced I was doomed for life and I was extremely depressed that my life was now over.

Socializing was impossible. I didn’t have enough brainpower to have a conversation. I was incapable of forming anything more than one word responses. I felt as though Invega literally removed my soul and made me into a hollow shell. Friends/family began to notice too, so I had to explain to them that this drug had ruined me. I started to decline all social obligations and avoid seeing people. I haven’t been able to work either. I’m being supported by my family until I recover.

Coronavirus hit at the perfect time for me tbh. I have a pretty big friend group and active social life and it was getting hard to make up reasons not to hang with people or explain to everyone my condition. So I’ve taken this time to just focus on recovery, because everyone is locked in the house anyway. I finally started to feel better after about 3.5 months. Suicide is no longer an option for me, I know it’ll get better. But it’s scary how suicidal I really was. When you feel the full effects of Invega day in and day out for months, it really feels like torture with no end.

I got the two initial shots and my last shot was January 5th. I still have some recovery ahead of me though. The main things I’m worried about now are being able to feel alcohol and I still have some lingering anhedonia and emotional numbness. I also need my creativity/imagination to come back stronger. My social skills could also continue to improve. I can hang with old friends and family but I wouldn’t see myself going on a date with someone new, for example.
 
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