Hey guys. So I got a total of I think 12 or 13 injections. I?m still getting better. Today marks my 17th month off of Invega..
It?s still in my system. I can tell because when I look in the mirror my eyes look fucking scary. Like if you?re talking to me i assume it?s what people would think is like talking to a wall.
I take a high dose of cbd daily which I think actually has prolonged the metabolization of Invega in my system. I say this bc I was literally in the shower thinking ?wow I haven?t posted on that fucking thread about Invega in MONTHS, I hope all those people are getting better like I did?. But mind you, I didn?t take the cbd the past two days and now my eyes look fucking horrible and my body feels as gross and shitty as it did maybe 5 months ago. The medicated, zombie look on my face when I don?t take the cbd makes me want to off myself (Figuratively). So I mean, CBD helps minimize symptoms but too much shuts down the metabolism of Invega, which is temporarily good but I think it just stays in ur system until you eventually metabolize it out.
I take a low low low dose of klonopin each day as well. That I heard is a no no when coming off Invega so maybe I?ll stop with that. The problem is it?s SO hard not to use benzos or cbd to treat the severe side effects from the drugs...
I?ve lost 70 lbs since I went off the shot. I keep it off by running 7-10 miles a day, 6 days a week.
I take a ton of vitamins and suppliments. Watch out for tyrosine tho, it helped but I took it every day and it gave me THE WORST anxiety I?ve ever experienced. I thought I was dying, it sucked. So yea idk what to do, my goal is to just lower my body fat to maybe 6% because I know that Invega is bioaccumulative meaning it stores itself in your fat cells... so the less fat the less Invega. I?m just scared bc now that I stopped cbd temporarily I feel like I did at month 7 off of Invega (ironically when I started taking cbd in the first place). So Idk what to do.
Diet wise I eat no refined carbs, grass fed everything, vegetables and blah blah blah. Super healthy. Low carb...
I feel better when I?m on the cbd, I look and function better too. The problem is I look like a lobotomized patient if I stop taking the cbd, I also have a harder time getting up and feel exhausted if I don?t take it.
The tardative dyskinesia comes and goes but it has warped my jaw and you can tell it in my muscle tone....
Epsom salt baths help a LOT. Also ice cold showers I take 2 a day, it sounds weird but works wonders.
Idk what else will help. The problem is on my regimen of exercise and cbd and stuff I am like ?this? close to being Able to pass as a decently functioning human being. Just this month I met two people on dating apps and hung out and stuff... but if I didn?t take the cbd they woulda freaked out when I opened the door with these ugly owl eyes signifying that practically nothing is going on in my frontal lobe... idk that?s been the worst with this Invega recovery. Eye contact is so hard bc I know it?s aesthetically off putting to see someone looking dead in the eyes so I never went out. I got out more this month than ever before so there IS Progress but idk.. fuck so yea this has been my update. I can feel a little bit more I can multi task more, my memory has started to get better (the less benzos I take) but yea I?m still not there yet. Ugh yea whatever so also glad this is a new thread, sorry for my rant, just haven?t checked in in months. Thought I?d leave u guys a post. Ask me any questions also give me some tips if u guys can. My intent is to just wait for summer to come and lay out as much as possible bc sunlight breaks down Invega.and continue exercising. If I want to be any what social, I?ll have to load up on the cbd to basically block my liver from metabolising the Invega left in my body as much as it normally would without the cbd.
Long story short tho I was doing SO good until I stopped taking cbd and realized I kind of set myself back by taking it, perhaps, and i just look like a mental patient again- I was finally looking just like another bored, dead in the eyes, person you see on the street. 17 months since my last shot, and my last 3-4 shots were only 39 mg by the way... my guess is if I stick to the cbd I?ll be absolutely fine 30 months off but what the fuck there?s no way I should have to wait that long. Also dude, u guys, I have fucking noticeable man boobs that won?t go away. Like wtf. Ugh I hate life sometimes u guys. It was SO bad in the beginning, but then the past 3 months were so tolerable and positive in the sense of no main complaints except maybe bad sleep... ugh idk I can?t think, just had to get this out. U know the Invega is heavy in ur system when u sign onto this thread. The less that?s active in ur system, the less u even have the thought to log on...