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Mental Health Coming Off Invega Sustenna (Paliperidone) v.2

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Day 137

I'm having an other "good day". I hope this will continue until I hit a window. I'm feeling the best I've felt so far since the injection. I don't want to say I'm healed I'm too hesitant and this is just maybe a pre-window stage. All I can state is that I'm having a good day. I had a good night of sleep. I have the desire to go back to college and to be productive. According to my prayers, I have 33 days left before complete remission and it could very well be true.
I hope I'll be next to recover after the recent two success stories.
 
@Tina3000: I took niacin several times. It gets rid of the poison a little quicker but it makes the recovery 3 times more painful. The fatigue, racing thoughts and other symptoms are harder to handle.
 
Well, maybe I'm not having so much of a "good day". I've been feeling guilt for a couple of hours now. It will pass but I just hate it. I hope you all feeling better.
 
HOW LONG DOES THIS LAST?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! Im at 7 months now, and while I definitely feel better than I did during the first three month zombie phase, I still feel dumb, slow, awkward, mentally foggy. Not as severe as it was but still feeing it. Ive strated working at a movie theater and going to community college part time, which I couldnt have done a few months ago, but Im kinda slow, out of it, flat affect when Im there. I know Ive seen a few people on here reporting that they feel better around the 10 month mark. But then invegauser above said that it took him a 2 month phase, an 8 month phase, and then another 6 month phase to recover. Ive also seen posts from people saying its been 2 years and they still dont feel emotions fully. UGH!!!!!!! I just want this poison out of me so I can move on with my life
 
Hey @invegaisnotgood <- I agree with your nickname..
How many shots have you had?
Unfortunately no one can exactly say how long it's gonna last..
But you made it so far, it's not gonna be much more months for you. I wish I was 7 months off...
Most people recover between 8 and 10 months and some after 12 months, in really rare cases it has been between 14-16 months but it's rare and they mostly took other drugs while recovering or had many shots.
Do you take other drugs?
2 year is a long time, that's really exceptional
most people say that it's easier after 8 months and waiting is more bareable
what i recommend to you is to NOT take other drugs while recovering, wheter it's recreatonal or similar to Invega, that's gonna make things worse
How is your sleep?
Hang in there buddy, it's gonna be fine, you have done more than half of the road to recovery..
What progress have you seen so far?
Please keep us up to date with your recovery
 
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@invegaisnotgood : welcome to the thread. There are some people who recovered in 5 months! Stay positive and optimistic ! Btw, how many shots did you have?
 
@zack365: Ive had 3 shots
@yeshuah: 3 shots, I dont take other drugs. I find it hard to fall asleep at night. Progress I've seen so far: I dont walk as slowly, I used to shuffle like an old person. I started going to the gym this week, when I tried to do that before I was too fatigued. My voice is coming back, I was monotone for a long time. Less socially awkward, I made a few friends at work. Im better at holding conversations.

However, Im still slow moving, just not as slow. I still feel dumb/ sort of mentally disabled, I got an A in a class I just took so I know I'm not a total retard, but I still feel dull. My eyes feel glazed over and its hard to focus on reading. Also my head has this constant kind of dizzy feeling, like I drank too much cough syrup and Im waiting for it to wear off, but it never wears off....
 
Hi @Invegaisnotgood nice to meet you, we have a Skype group where we chat everyday if you want to join our support group the email you need to reach me is as [email protected]

how's everyone doing? I've been talking to Zack and Yeshuah. I have noticied some break throughs and it's been 57 days since my last injection and I'm having some weird experiences with THC where I feel like myself almost but I'm still learning to function very confusing time for all of us I wish you the best and hope you join our group
 
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Hi @invegaisnotgood, it depends on how many shots you had and which dose, I'm gonna be seven months off in a week and I am still anhedonic myself, but I was expecting it since I had many high dose shots. Welcome to the thread by the way.
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@Empty1128 how many shots did you have? I had 8 and my doctor raised the injection to 234 on me hope your doing well
 
@zack365: maybe you are having a good day but having a bad feeling that is known as guilt? maybe that's a good thing? normal bad emotions, feelings and thoughts come back when we heal because they are apart of our life before xeplion. we suffer, we get thrown into a cage all together removed from bad and good and we lose familiarity with the norm of our lives. sucks feeling guilty (especially if there is no direct cause for it from your own actions) but feeling the bad normal parts of yourself is a good sign in healing to me. weird to feel it again and takes time to adjust. better to have it than not. weigh the pros and cons of it. what do you think?

@Empty1128: it is not worse than it was before xeplion. the poison didn't touch my symptom, just shut it down and it's still like i remember. don't get anxious about what hasn't happened yet. i believe you are smart, capable and strong enough to tackle your diagnosis. in short, it doesn't come back any worse.

@Offvega: glad to hear it. confusing at first, keep an eye on it for the next couple times you use and see how it develops. post updates about it please for those who might be on invega in the future.

@invegaisnotgood: thanks for posting and welcome to the thread. what i posted about is a basic breakdown of what the average healer goes through in stages btw. that impatient feeling like you want to be done with this where your at in progress might be a sign you are almost out of the zombie phase. you hit a window yet?

in your second post those are all excellent signs in the healing process that you are recovering. hahaha, cough syrup. i feel ya. very disorientating and confusing but guess what, that is your receptor waking up again. your actually further along than you think based off of the info in your two posts. more info is needed but so far your outlook in progress is very good. create an account, post 15 times or less and then your healed; wouldn't that be something (only been done twice before). hang in there.
 
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@invegauser Will I ever be able to have complex conclusions? Will I be able to feel healthy and vibrant again? Will I be able to have full awareness of things? Will my mind be able to understand things quickly? Will I be able to breathe freely and lightly and feel my cells filling with air? I just feel like nothing is happening and I'm so f***ing scared that I lost myself forever... :(
 
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@Yeshuah: yes. promise. no one hasn't healed yet. the human brain recycles itself cell by cell in a cycle once every ten years. we are enduring in our very nature. we are resilient creatures. and to be frank, you don't seem that unlucky to be stuck in this hell forever.

it's hard, none of us signed up for this (and we didn't get paid) but whatever doesn't kill us makes us stronger.

we all have been there at one time or another. i posted here to support Narshe, someone i never met. ended up staying because i was slightly scared myself and i'm one of those rare kinds of people who is comfortable living in the black echo. as the thread came together, patterns started developing and hope emerged with each new recovery story. it became apparent to me that one thing we all have in common and hits us harder than anything else is loss of hope. it is only temporary but it affects us all in a general way and in each our own way. we as human beings are meant to shine, sing and live in the light (most of us for most of the time).

we are locked inside a cage in our minds where most are not comfortable with even for the slightest of moments. facing certain aspects of ourselves and a reality that is startling and bleak; even with the brightest light there are corners of ourselves and life that should not be revealed because the toll is too heavy upon us. some secrets are best left undiscovered and some hells too.

the fact we all struggle to get out of this is a very good sign you are still you. this cage has a curtain draped over it so the light is blocked from our view. doesn't mean something is not possible. doesn't mean you can't become better for what your going through. just means to get there you have to go through the hard part. easier said than done.

yet during a time that is confusing, new (not in any good ways) as well as oppressive in ways no one ever really imagined before and to not let the poison win, to let the human spirit flutter against the bars of it's cage and to hold on to that one thing that is most important and never let go; is evidence enough of one of the most awe inspiring reasons that i think we are alive as a species. we color this life with a strength, a beauty, a passion and a harmony that is unique only to humans. it cannot be caged forever. only crystallize into something more ethereal and persevering than before.
 
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Day 138

I finally went for a run yesterday during the afternoon. After 10 days of heavy fatigue. Today I'm feeling pretty good. No guilty feeling so far. I studied and my memory was decent. Good enough to learn some spanish vocabulary. Apart from that, I still play a lot of video games and often watch videos on my smartphone. I hope you're all doing better.
 
I?ve been running the last couple days and my body feels EXTREMELY fatigued, I?m at 7 months and there?s no way this will be gone in a month
 
Hi all, can anyone help me, a few days ago I was feeling better, I had more energy even my erectile dysfunction was getting back to normal, but today I feel extreme tired, weakness and my erectile dysfunction is getting worst as it was before (4 months ago). It's been 7 months since my last shots. I had only the 2 Initiation Doses. I just want to know why I don't improve my energy levels and my erectile dysfunction on a daily basis? Why this is happening? I just want to understand what its going on. These are my only issues besides the depression due to fatigue and ED, everything else is back to normal, memory, emotions, blurred vision, etc. Why I am still struggling with these issues if all others has been resolved? Also my Prolactin and Testosterone levels are normal. I am only taking Cabergoline to balance my hormones and vitamin supplements, but I still have these issues. No one understand what am going through just you guys from this forum. I see how everyone around me lives a normal life. I just want to recover and feel normal like I used to feel pre Invega. This is definitely the worst experience of my life.


Please help
 
@invegaisnotgood take your time, don't overtax yourself. Give your body a rest, it is not the time to work hard on your body right now, as it has been raped completely the last months. Let it regulate itself naturally, don't try to force it. I know it is hard to have to watch while you're not able to have the energy you used to, but just imagine what your body had to live through. It is already working hard, don't try to add things on top of it. Try to listen to it when it says "stop, there's no energy right now" your body knows what it's doing

@I_Want_To_Recover Try to be gratefull for the things that you're body has been able to recover so far. Isn't it wonderful what it has achieved until now, eventhough the hell it has been through? You shouldn't take other drugs, the body will be more irritated by it and is forced once again to do something it would have been doing naturally. Remember what your body had to go through. This progress has taken all the energy from your body to fight the poison. Now it's the time for your body to repair and regulate. After it's done, you will have more energy. But try not to force it. This progress has different stages. Imagine you were in a war (the war is being your body fighting against the poison) and you come back. At first you will be exhausted because it has taken so much energy for you to get over the war. After that it is the time to learn slowly get into life again and listen to your body. Don't worry about the erectile disfunction, it has come back for everyone. I know it's hard, but try to work with what you regain so far.

Do you have a clearer mind now? Has your sleep inproved?

Please keep us up to date @invegaisnotgood & @I_Want_To_Recover
 
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