@Yeshuah: i was weird when it came to sleep. i slept a lot like nap wise during the day. at night when i couldn't sleep if i forced myself to i would only suffer more, so i just got up and watched t.v. until i litereally was tired enough to just conk out. there are OTC's you can try like melatonin, benadryll and unisom. some have had success with valerian root.
that first window experience is put into different words by different peoples perspectives but it's all pretty similar and what others have posted recently on it are true. it's better than sex, drugs, your most favorite things, being excited and anything else you can imagine. it usually lasts a day, two tops. you get so caught up and enthralled by it you make a ranting post. it's the first clear sign to the individual that you will heal. waves and windows come after that usually.
Yshuah said:
Has anyone else felt disoriented, couldn't assess where a noise comes from when there was a noise, felt like they're not in their bodies, bad coordination, bad skill, couldn't fully fill your body with air, bad detailed memory? Did it return to normal??
oh ya. you put that aptly btw. others have used similar words and science has some like depersonalization, derealization and what not but not fully able to describe what it's like. it's odd experiencing that isn't it?! i tell you what dang ol boom (boom hauer). i use my 5 sense a lot, i'm use to them being sensitive a lil more so than other people are so when this started happening it freaked me out. i learned to adjust to where they were at to better help orientate myself instead of wanting this not to happen. it ended up helping quiet a bit, especially the time i noticed a coyote when others around me didn't and it was only about 20 yards away. mindfulness, centering, grounding, meditation and other things have helped. sometimes just sitting in an empty room with no t.v. or stereo and just being has done the trick.
that non panoramic view gets better. not seeing things in the 3d world i would describe it as and people around me (especially the shrinks) would give me this look like "but we are in the 3d world'. experiencing things like they are deflated is a real pain but better than not experiencing life at all. the zombie phase is conscious feeling like crap, being numb and deflated perception of reality, not just anhedonia. if it's bothering you so much you might be getting ready to get past this part. take it one day at a time.
i and lots of others have recovered the sensitivity in finger tips. like i said, i use all my 5 senses (yes, even the 6th one. that one bothered me the most. it was like i was bleeding stuck pig in an aquarium full of sharks. shivers!) and that one bothered the crap out of me the second most. not being able to feel things when i touched them is a safety concern. plus made my video game experience suck and not being able to feel something soft, touch the beauty of a woman or just know when to pull my hand away from danger is very disorientating. i know it's not me but that was what i had to deal with so i did. i could feel a dull sensation like pressure but not the minute detail of what i was touching. now it's sensitive to everything again and well worth the wait.
stone cotton in the brain is another good way to gauge progress in healing. when that starts to go away your almost healed.
that dead feeling in your body is from your muscles being too stiff among other things the poison has done to us like how emotions being blunted affect our physical feeling. remember every cell in your body is ramped up right now. it's another good reason not to do drugs kids.
btw those drugs i did last week allowed me to gauge the healing process. i still felt them fully and recovered from using them faster than before while healing.
i notice as i heal my energy overall is kicking back in like it was and women are noticing it more. do you think the people who are attracted to us are because our energy is something they find appealing or they find something in us that they would like to be more like that themselves and are picking up on it without speaking?
@dellad: i gotta get back into this game, it'll be about 5 days or less before i beat it. if your not looking into those japanese deaths shoot me a PM and i will make a note to look into it. thanks.
@hoffsteader: strange about the coffee thing ins't it? withdrawal effects for me were different than most. i had this huge surge of nastiness for a few months but for the briefest of moments there was a gleam of it letting off a few weeks to a couple months after stopping the injections. how's being off the poison coming?
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