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Mental Health Coming off Invega (Paliperidone, Xeplion) injections v. 7.0

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CrimsonThornX said:
By the way I eventually did make my "recovery" video earlier today which I believe was at least an hour long if not more, but as soon as I finished recording I got a notification saying that I exceeded my storage limit and couldn't save it. So then I ended up paying for it to expand my storage space only to realize that I still couldn't save it or even share it to other devices, let alone upload it to YouTube. 🤦‍♂️

I'll probably attempt it again later today or in a few days assuming that I can now properly save videos after paying for the storage expansion, since apparently the first video can't be saved or salvaged anymore, meaning that I gotta make a new one and hope it saves properly this time. Aside from other unrelated videos I intend to make occasional health updates assuming people would be interested in them.
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Thanks for sharing your health journey. Please keep us updated on how things are going. Best of luck
 
RecoveryInProgress said:
Thanks for sharing your health journey. Please keep us updated on how things are going. Best of luck
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Thanks again, I definitely will try my best to update people here and elsewhere about my situation, in hopes that others can benefit from it as well. I'm gunna wait a while because after spending over an hour explaining my situation in great detail just to find out the recording didn't save completely killed my mood right now. But of course I'm going to attempt it again, to be safe this time I'm going to record my recording with a screen recording program as it's happening, as an extra back-up.
 
I'm in a weird place now, but it's not a bad one. I've realized that I don't have the ability to get excited and feel emotional highs, but that means I'm just as content laying in bed with my cats as I am traveling around London.
 
I went yo a bar tonight. Drank about 5L of beers, could not feel it at all. I feel vodka sometimes but the hangover is too much. I’m starting to panic about this being permanent. Maybe I have to learn to deal with the fact that I’ll be sober for the rest of my life. It was kinda nice to not be shitfaced, but I would have liked to feel some buzz at least
 
Baddream said:
I went yo a bar tonight. Drank about 5L of beers, could not feel it at all. I feel vodka sometimes but the hangover is too much. I’m starting to panic about this being permanent. Maybe I have to learn to deal with the fact that I’ll be sober for the rest of my life. It was kinda nice to not be shitfaced, but I would have liked to feel some buzz at least
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Well if it's any consolation, I was a raging alcoholic for 20 years. As in, the first thing I had to do when I woke up in order to function was have a drink. I've been to rehab/detoxes 6 times and hospitalised for alcohol withdrawals more times than I can count. Now I'm completely sober, nearly 2 years 🙂 I don't crave alcohol, I don't miss it, I don't even think about it most of the time except for when I drive past the occasional bottle shop I used to frequent and think to myself "wow, I actually used to go in there EVERY MORNING...wtf".

So, if I can live sober and happy and free from, booze, YOU definitely can 🙂
 
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Well if it's any consolation, I was a raging alcoholic for 20 years. As in, the first thing I had to do when I woke up in order to function was have a drink. I've been to rehab/detoxes 6 times and hospitalised for alcohol withdrawals more times than I can count. Now I'm completely sober, nearly 2 years 🙂 I don't crave alcohol, I don't miss it, I don't even think about it most of the time except for when I drive past the occasional bottle shop I used to frequent and think to myself "wow, I actually used to go in there EVERY MORNING...wtf".

So, if I can live sober and happy and free from, booze, YOU definitely can 🙂
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That’s great to hear. We should all be able to enjoy life without substances. But I still would like to be able to have a drink once in a while to unwind. I probably drink more than I should but only on weekends, never during the weekdays
 
Baddream said:
That’s great to hear. We should all be able to enjoy life without substances. But I still would like to be able to have a drink once in a while to unwind. I probably drink more than I should but only on weekends, never during the weekdays
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Yep I hear you. Sometimes I still occasionally wish I could be "normal" and be able to enjoy a drink with friends once in a while, at a BBQ on a nice sunny Sunday afternoon, or a birthday party, for example. But in my case (which I know is different to yours) I know that I simply cannot drink, at all. Not even one. Because one drink will become two, which will become many, then I will get drunk again the next day to soothe the hangover, and then again the next day, and so on and so forth. So instead I had to learn to live without it. My new addiction, like MANY recovering alcoholics and other addicts, is sugar hahahaha. Oh my, it has a tight grip on me. But hey....lesser of two evils, right?
 
Invega recovery made me so addicted to everything like sugar and soda and alcohol. I think the best way to stop being addicted to unhealthy things is exercise and meditation or anything enjoyable that’s not unhealthy
 
mura_yom_invegasucks said:
I think the best way to stop being addicted to unhealthy things is exercise and meditation or anything enjoyable that’s not unhealthy
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I completely agree, well said. Singing, being out in nature, drawing, painting, fuck...even colouring-in books help me!! I've got heaps of those real fancy adult colouring-books that are really intricate and can keep me occupied for hours. And I've got a really nice collection of colouring pens and pencils, every colour you can think of. I can't really draw or paint and I'm a perfectionist so I get really frustrated when I try to be creative in that way. So the colouring-in books give me a creative outlet without me getting frustrated that I'm "doing it wrong" or "it's not good enough".
 
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I completely agree, well said. Singing, being out in nature, drawing, painting, fuck...even colouring-in books help me!! I've got heaps of those real fancy adult colouring-books that are really intricate and can keep me occupied for hours. And I've got a really nice collection of colouring pens and pencils, every colour you can think of. I can't really draw or paint and I'm a perfectionist so I get really frustrated when I try to be creative in that way. So the colouring-in books give me a creative outlet without me getting frustrated that I'm "doing it wrong" or "it's not good enough".
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Singing, being out in nature and art have been amazing for me aswell!! I have to get some colouring books, I love making abstract paintings that look very wild and nature like. Recently I tried doing no phone or tv and only reading or art or music for entertainment and it made me think more independently and intelligently without being too influenced intellectually by people I know
 
I noticed something very promising and suprising today after deciding to hold off on going to the gym for a while due to the lack of motivation and negative state of mental health. So I finally forced myself to resume going to the gym again after holding off on it for like 2 weeks or so, and as I was jogging on the treadmill I noticed that I began to feel strangely energetic. So much so that I felt inspired enough to start running, and while I was doing so I could feel a rush of adrenaline again, for what I believe is the first time since I got injected with Invega.

So I continued running for several minutes in a row. Normally, as of the past few months I would've quickly become exhausted but this time it was different, I was able to maintain that high energetic state the entire span of time even with different excercises, which actually lasted the whole duration of time that I was there. I almost felt like staying much longer then I have recently for the past several months now. After realizing this I felt very excited knowing that I'm finally starting to regain much of the strength, endurance, and motivation that I had lacked this entire year up until now.

(Oh yeah I forgot to mention that for the entire span of time at the gym I was listening to music which I could fully enjoy again and further increased my motivation to excercise.)
 
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Greetings. i am an old user from forum n three and four. they gave me two xeplions of 100 and 75 2 years ago and I recovered in a year and a half.. without psychosis... now I have psychosis instead. probably due to xeplion blocking dopamine in the brain and then after the long torture; this dopamine gets really high and makes a person healthy; psychotic. Now I'll tell you what happened
 
Saluti. sono un vecchio utente del forum n tre e quattro. mi hanno dato due xeplion da 100 e 75 2 anni fa e sono guarito in un anno e mezzo.. senza psicosi... ora invece ho la psicosi. probabilmente a causa di xeplion che blocca la dopamina nel cervello e poi dopo la lunga tortura; questa dopamina diventa davvero alta e rende una persona sana; psicotico. Ora ti racconto cosa è successo
 
MatteM92 said:
Greetings. i am an old user from forum n three and four. they gave me two xeplions of 100 and 75 2 years ago and I recovered in a year and a half.. without psychosis... now I have psychosis instead. probably due to xeplion blocking dopamine in the brain and then after the long torture; this dopamine gets really high and makes a person healthy; psychotic. Now I'll tell you what happened
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Tell us what happened my man
 
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